Marie huffed a little at Rae's attempt to cheer her up. He was right about it being uncomfortable to hug a wet chest. Wait, how did he know? Marie pushed that from her mind as he talked to her.
"It might be better for you if you tell me me what happened. But then again, I'll understand if you don't want to," Rae said, his speech speeding up. "I guess it's pretty traumatic to see for the first time, eh? You know, you must've been pretty lucky not to have met people like that before....Never mind I said that."
Marie stopped her crying, finally, and began playing with her fingers. What she was about to tell him was personal and had been kept hidden forever, even from her adoptive parents.
"I have to tell you this, Rae. When I was a young girl, my father was shipped off to fight in the one of the many secret battles this country has. It wasn't on the news or anything, hence it's secrecy. Well, my father, he..." she sniffled at the memory, "he died in action. I was only two. I was more mature than most two year olds, though, so I understood a lot more. I watched my father leave one night, and he promised to come back with a big present for me." Images flashed into Marie's head as she spoke. "He gave me a hug and a kiss, then left. Two weeks later, my mother gets a letter. She starts crying and when I ask her what's wrong, she says, 'Marie, Daddy won't be coming home.' I didn't quite understand. Every night I would lie awake in my bed, listening for the door. One night, I heard my mom crying in the bathroom. Suddenly, she stopped. I decided to go see why, being the ever curious two year old, but what I saw terrified me. My mother was standing in front of the mirror, a knife to her neck, blood dripping down slowly. The knife fell to the ground and so did my mother. She looked me in the eyes one last time. Her expression wasn't sad, tormented, or horrified, yet it was happy. This was eight days after the news came about my young father." She paused for a minute. "That's why what I saw back there scared me. I'm not afraid of dying, you know. I had never seen anything like the blood flowing out of people's eyes before. That was like watching my mother's death all over again, but scarier. That, Rae, is what scared me."