Slowly, Alex Raines opened her eyes to allow the suffused glow of morning light to fully awaken her after a long, restful slumber. The room was cast in pale luminance, tinted slightly blue by the shade of the single window, giving it a surreal, peaceful quality, as though it were part of a dream not fully ended.
As lucidity overcame the young girl’s body, a childish grin slowly crept across her rosy cheeks. Today was Wednesday, she knew, and that meant she would see Kryse, Nathan, and Sam.
Their mothers, all wives of top-ranking workers in Esthar’s famed Research and Development unit, had met at a company get-together last year and had been gathering at the Salmances’ nearly every Wednesday since. It was Alex’s favorite day of the week.
Like the small child she was, Alex used her feet to violently kick away her warm covers, letting the cool air of the clear, crisp, autumn morning embrace her. She rolled out of bed and onto her feet, sparing not even a moment to sit and stretch. Glancing at the digital clock on her nightstand, Alex realized three hours still remained before she and her mother departed, but that did not slow her down.
Being the daughter of one of Esthar’s wealthiest inhabitants, there was no shortage of clothing options in little Alex’s closet, but somehow she never had difficulty choosing an outfit for the day. She knew that she and the boys would likely play outside, so that narrowed down the choices. Eventually, she settled on a brightly-colored, long-sleeved blouse and a heavy skirt with warm tights.
Her eyes hovered for a moment over the traditional Estharian robe that had been a birthday gift this year, just as one like it had been given each year prior since she had become old enough to wear one. Alex was grateful her mother only forced her to wear the dreadful thing on formal occasions, because she hated it. Not that it was uncomfortable, or anything; it just looked ugly. The last thing Alex wanted was to look ugly, especially in front of Kryse.
The bathroom across the hall was the bright-eyed girl’s next destination, where she washed her face then thoroughly brushed her thick, wavy, pink-hued hair. For a time, she considered a variety of things to do with it, but ultimately let it hang loose. She then applied makeup from the small set her mother had given to her as a gift for her birthday last week, feeling incredibly grown-up as she did. She was seven now, after all; a big girl. And, as she had convinced her mother, big girls get to wear makeup.
Ready for whatever adventures the day might hold in store for her and her friends, Alex padded down the barren stairs. As she neared the bottom, the smell of buttered toast and crispy ham wafted into the hallway and instantly made her mouth water.
Alex’s mother greeted her with a warm smile as the child came into view. “Ready for your play-date, I see,” she said. Her voice was soft, soothing.
Alex nodded eagerly. “How do I look?” she asked, splaying her arms and presenting herself formally.
Her mother gave a knowing grin. “Very pretty,” she commented. Alex’s expression told her it was not the precise answer the girl was looking for. “Very grown-up,” she added.
Alex beamed. That was the reply she wanted.
Rebecca placed a small plate at one end of the counter; on it was one slice of toast and two of ham.
Alex climbed up onto the corresponding chair and ate happily. As always, she took one bite of toast and two bites of ham at a time, making sure she consumed each portion of her breakfast in equal measure. Her mother always told her that each meal should be balanced for a healthy diet.
The young girl cast her blue eyes all around, suddenly aware of a missing presence in the room. “Did Daddy come home last night?” she inquired. Part of her already knew the answer—her father often spent nights at work these days. She hardly saw him anymore.
Rebecca’s smile faded, as did most of the cheeriness that she had displayed this morning. “No. He’s still at work, Kiddo.” She put on a sympathetic face. “Maybe we’ll go see him later, ‘kay? Bring him something nice for dinner.”
“Okay!” Alex thought that was a fantastic idea. It had been a long time since she had seen where her father worked, but she knew there were all sorts of cool toys in that building. There was a time when her father would bring home some of the neat gadgets he worked on and would let Alex play with them, but ever since he had gotten sick, he had stopped doing that.
That was part of the reason Alex loved going to Kryse’s house on Wednesdays—Kryse always had a cool new toy from his dad’s work.
Alex pushed away her plate, having finished what she wanted of her breakfast. There was a corner of bread and twice its worth in ham left on it. Rebecca took it with a subtle shake of her head and placed it in the sink to worry about later.
“We aren’t leaving ‘till 11:30,” she said. “Why don’t you read your book ‘till then?”
“‘Kay.”
The drive to the Salmances’ place was long and fairly boring for Alex. They lived only three blocks away, but in a city like Esthar, three blocks was a great distance. The blue glass-like pathways that connected places were rigid and not very interconnected, which meant even more travel time.
But Alex was thankful that her father had purchased a car for her and her mother so they didn’t have to use Esthar’s tubular transportation system; Alex had ridden it exactly one time, and even though her mother had assured her it was perfectly safe, it had terrified her so severely that she had refused to board the circular bench ever again. She almost shuddered, thinking now about zooming through those dark tunnels at breakneck speeds.
The Salmances’ house was a little bigger than hers, and Alex hadn’t yet seen every inch of it—mostly, that was because Mr. Salmance did not want Kryse and his friends to go into his office, and out of respect Kryse kept them out of his parents’ room.
Rebecca pulled the car to a stop behind Nathan’s mom’s. Sam and his mom lived just two doors down, so they didn’t need to drive. Somehow, though, they were always the last to arrive.
Alex got out of the car and followed her mom up to the front door.
“Wanna ring the doorbell?” Rebecca asked.
“Yep,” Alex replied casually, as though the question were rhetorical.
The touch-pad was conveniently located just at the extent of Alex’s reach, and she pressed her whole hand firmly into its face. The familiar electronic chime sounded from inside, just barely audible through the heavy material of which just about everything in Esthar was constructed.
Moments later, the door slid snugly into the wall to reveal the tall, comely Mrs. Salmance. She bore a radiant smile, genuinely pleased to see her guests. Naturally, her gaze was tilted low, expecting to see Alex first at the door.
“Hi, Alex!” she said, her exuberance slightly forced in the manner one usually spoke to a child—not that Alex could really tell the difference.
“Hi, Mrs. Salmance,” Alex responded pleasantly.
“Kryse and Nathan are in the kitchen.” She stood to the side to let Alex pass.
“Hey there, Becky,” Alex heard Mrs. Salmance say as the girl darted towards the kitchen. Alex couldn’t be sure, but she thought she detected a tone of sadness in Mrs. Salmance’s voice.
She found Kryse and Nathan sitting at a small wooden table, one especially for the children when their families gathered for meals, gnawing on sandwiches and sipping glasses of milk.
“Heya, Kryse! Hi, Nathan.”
Their faces lit up as their long-time companion entered the room. “Hi, Lexi!” they each said in turn. “Want a sandwich?” offered Kryse.
Alex shook her head. “Sam isn’t here yet, huh?”
“Nope. We gotta wait for him. Holden’s taking us to Brightmeadow.”
The girl’s eyes widened. “Really? It’s been forever since we went there.”
“Yeah, I know!” confirmed Nathan. “I’ve been wanting to go forever.”
Brightmeadow Park was, of course, their favorite place in the whole city. A few years ago, the city council had commissioned a nature reserve right in the heart of the mechanical city of Esthar. The latest technology was used to produce it, but now it was utterly devoid of everything that defined Esthar; it was an oasis in a desert of cold, hard glass and metal. It featured an expansive playground—the main attraction for Alex and her friends—as well as plenty of lush scenery.
Kryse smirked a devil’s smirk. “Yep. I bugged him ‘till he promised to take us there.” He looked quite proud of himself, having set up the perfect day for him and his playmates.
The characteristic chime of the doorbell echoed through the house, signaling the arrival of the last guest. A minute or two later, Sam appeared in the kitchen, bearing his usual, seemingly ever-present grin.
Sam was a little bigger than the other two boys, and stronger, too, but Alex could outrun him—a fact of which she was quite proud.
“Hi, guys,” he said.
“Hi, Sam,” they all replied.
Alex turned to Kryse. “Okay, go get Holden! I wanna goooo!”
“Mm-hmm.” Kryse nodded the affirmative and rushed upstairs. Alex could hear the Salmance family’s housekeeper reply to the young Kryse with his deep voice that, no matter how thick the walls, always seemed to creep through.
Kryse came back into the kitchen with Holden in tow. The older man put on a smile and clapped his hands. “Okay, kids. Out to the car!”
This was the third time Alex and the others had come to Brightmeadow Park, but each time she saw it, it never ceased to amaze the girl. From the outside, it appeared as simply an enormous silver dome—completely unassuming—but inside was an expansive green recreational area featuring just about every aspect of nature. Estharian technology preserved the atmosphere of the park, meaning that, no matter the season outside, inside the dome it was always a warm spring day.
There were no animals in Brightmeadow Park, but Alex didn’t even notice. The city of Esthar was devoid of them anyway, so it was a factor she did not take into consideration. All she knew was that this was the best place to play, no matter the game.
She and the others immediately rushed to the playground, while Holden watched from afar. Alex always liked the monkey bars and the jungle-gym. Sam loved the swings because he could get really high. Kryse and Nathan liked to race through the tunnels and ride the zip-line, kind of like an obstacle course. Nathan usually won.
“You guys wanna play Hide-n-Seek?” asked Alex, knowing full well it was, by far, the game she was best at.
The boys gave each other that look, as though they knew the question had to come sooner or later. It also confirmed between the three of them that they were going to lose again, and they knew it.
But it was Alex’s turn to choose, so they had no say in the matter. Hide-n-Seek it was.
“Okay,” said Kryse warily. “But you count first.”
Alex shrugged. “‘Kay.”
No big deal. Being an expert at hiding meant she knew all the places to hide, even in a place as big as Brightmeadow Park. Still, she secretly hoped that at least one of the boys would find some way to best her, find some hiding spot so devious that she might even have to enlist the help of Holden, the ever-watchful onlooker, to finally sniff him out.
Alex leaned face-first against one of the wooden supports holding up the slide and pressed her palms firmly over her eyes. “One... two... three....”
When they finally got back to Kryse’s house, it was starting to get dark. Forty-five minutes to and from the park and countless hours of fun between passed the time very quickly for the children. Holden opened the door and stood outside while they rushed in, eager for the evening meal. No doubt their parents were wondering what had taken them so long.
Standing in the living room a small ways from the entryway, Alex noticed a new face amongst her mother and her friends’ moms: Mr. Salmance.
Approaching Mrs. Salmance, Kryse ventured, “What’s for dinner, mom?”
Mrs. Salmance barely acknowledged him with a glance. “Not now, honey.”
Everyone had a grave expression, Alex’s mother most of all. Mr. Salmance was speaking to her in hushed tones, and Alex drew closer to hear what he was saying.
“Yeah, he just collapsed. They took him to the hospital right away, but I haven’t heard anything since. I thought you should know.”
Rebecca turned away, her eyes closed and a hand clamped over her mouth.
“I’m so sorry....” Mrs. Salmance whispered. “Alex is back now. You should go.”
Silently, Rebecca nodded. She looked around the room until her eyes fell on young Alex. She took the girl’s hand and led her towards the door.
“What’s wrong, Mommy?”
There was no reply. Concern welled up inside Alex. Who had they been talking about? Why was her mother crying? She looked back at the receding forms of her friends. She waved at Kryse, but the front door closed behind her before she could see any reply.
Her mother was silent throughout the entire ride to the hospital. Alex could tell she was holding back tears, but she didn’t know why. “What’s wrong?” she tried again. “Is it Daddy?” Still, no response.
Alex hated the hospital. It smelled funny and had weird people in it, and she hated coming in for check-ups. Sometimes they gave her needles, and she hated those most of all. She was thankful that this trip was not for her, but it still smelled funny and she wanted to leave as soon as possible.
And all along, she had a creeping suspicion that this trip to the hospital was not so innocent. Her mother had said nothing and had done her best to hide her emotions from her daughter, but deep down Alex knew something was very, very wrong. Kryse’s mom and dad wouldn’t have been acting so strangely otherwise.
They took the elevator to the second floor. More silence. The hallway they entered was called “ICU,” whatever that meant. Everybody seemed to be in a real hurry here.
“Wait here,” said Alex’s mother as they approached one of the rooms.
“Can’t I come in?” Alex asked quietly.
“No. Wait here.”
Rebecca entered the room and closed the door. Alex pressed her ear up to it, but could only hear muffled voices. She kept listening. A few minutes later, she heard distinctive sobs.
Alex wanted to know what was happening. She pressed panel next to the door, but it remained firmly in place. Locked from the inside. She gently knocked on it, but there was no reply, so she pressed her ear to it again. The sobbing continued.
The nagging sensation in the back of Alex’s mind and at the bottom of her heart grew in intensity over the next two hours, during which time the door to the hospital room never opened.
“Hey, is your name Alex?”
Alex was sitting on the floor, against the wall opposite the room. She looked up and to her left, where she saw a middle-aged man staring back at her. He was bent over, his hands on his knees for support. He didn’t look like a doctor, but it was pretty obvious that he worked here.
She nodded.
The man gave her a sympathetic smile. His eyes told her he knew something—something he wasn’t allowed to say. “Your mommy told me to take you home. Can you come with me?”
Alex hesitated, staring back into the man’s eyes, trying to figure out what it was he was hiding. Seeing nothing, she pushed herself up from the ground and reached out her hand. “Okay.”
Alex lay awake in her bed. It was far past her bedtime, but no matter what, she couldn’t fall asleep. There were too many unanswered questions, and she was too worried about her mother.
The clock on her nightstand read 10:13 when Alex finally heard the front door open, signaling her mother’s return from the hospital. Alex crept from her room and watched from the top of the stairs as her mother thanked the man from the hospital and let him outside.
“Mommy?” said Alex cautiously when the front door was closed again. Without the light from the city outside illuminating the foyer, the house returned to darkness. It was like speaking to a ghost.
Rebecca stopped, but didn’t look up at Alex. “Go to sleep, hun.” She continued into the living room.
Alex wasn’t sure what to do. Her mother wasn’t crying anymore, which was a good sign, but there was an air about her, one which the young girl could sense even from all the way upstairs, that told her everything was still not alright. Alex realized that it was kind of like the way her mother usually acted whenever Alex brought up her father, except this was worse. Much, much worse.
She tip-toed down the stairs and followed Rebecca into the living room, where the woman sat on the couch and stared blankly at a muted television, the only source of light in the entire house. Alex approached from behind, unable to gauge her mother’s.
“Mommy? Is... Daddy coming home tonight?”
Her mother hesitated as Alex came around into view. “No, hun.” She resisted looking into her daughter’s eyes, focusing instead on her chest, or just to her left, or anywhere else.
Alex looked up expectantly at her mother. The dim light from the television seemed to intensify the shadows of her face, rather than illuminate them. She had an almost surreal look. “But... he’s been at work for three days. When is he coming home?”
Rebecca returned her gaze to the soundless television and said nothing.
“Mommy?” Dread was welling up in the girl. She had never seen her mother like this. It was frightening. Alex was afraid to prod further, afraid of the answers she might uncover. But she prodded anyway. “Mommy?”
Still, her mother’s gaze remained averted, her lips shut tight. She bore that same look she had in the car earlier, using every whit of her power to hold back tears.
“When’s Daddy coming home, Mo-”
That’s when Rebecca snapped. Violently, she spun to face Alex, all of her built-up tears seemingly exploding out into the open all at once. Her voice was harsh, warped by the pent-up sobs of agony she had been saving all night. “He’s not coming home, Alex!” she screamed. “He’s never coming home!”
Alex was in tears even before her mother’s outburst was complete. The meaning of her words had not yet registered, but their intensity had been enough to disturb the young child. Both mother and daughter now cried, but for different reasons.
It wasn’t until a few moments later that the gravity of her mother’s words truly sunk in.
Two men had come twenty minutes ago. Alex was supposed to be in bed, but for the three days since her father’s death, sleep was a comfort that seemed determined to remain just beyond her reach. She approached the stairs and crouched, listening intently to the conversation below.
“... can do about it. Now, we don’t want to have to take this to the courts, but we will,” said one of the men. Even at seven years old Alex could tell his sympathetic tone was fake.
“How can you do this?” replied Alex’s mother desperately. “What am I supposed to do?” She was exasperated.
“I wish I knew what to tell you, lady,” the other man said. “It is what it is, and there’s nothing we can do. Don’t make this into an issue.”
“Fine!” Rebecca seethed. “Take it! I hope your boss is happy counting every last gil while what’s left of my family suffers in poverty.”
The train squealed harshly as it came to a final stop at Esthar Station. From a nearby bench, Alex looked up at the enormous machine, whose shadow loomed over her ominously. The train itself was not what she feared: it was her destination aboard it.
“Mommy, I don’t wanna go!” she protested.
Rebecca knelt before her daughter and placed a reassuring hand around her neck. Her smile was pitiful in its attempt to comfort the girl. “I know, sweetie. I really wish you didn’t have to. You believe me, don’t you?”
Alex nodded solemnly, but some part of her still refused to believe what her mother had told her. Her whole life, she had known nothing outside the confines of Esthar, and she had been happy in her naïveté. The thought of leaving her home for realms unknown had never crossed her mind before, and now that she was being forced into it, it frightened her to her core.
Her mother had told her all about the place she was going, but Alex had hardly listened. It was cold and snowy, and about as far away from Esthar one could go. It sounded horrible, and that’s all she needed to know.
The girl sniffled, suppressing her tears because she knew that if she let them out, her mother would only cry as well.
“They’ll take care of you up in Trabia,” said her mother. “And I’ll come visit every chance I get, okay? You better get on the train before it leaves without you.”
“We’ll come visit you, too, Lexi,” said Kryse, who stood a small distance away with Nathan and Sam. All three had come to see her off, and it brought a small ounce of comfort to the girl’s heart.
“Promise?” Alex said.
Kryse nodded. “Yep.”
Rebecca stood up and turned to the man standing beside her. “Thanks for doing this, Holden. I wish I could go with her, but I-”
The older man held up a hand to stop her. “It’s alright, Mrs. Raines. I understand. I’m happy to help.”
Holden came up to Alex and bent over. “Come on, Lexi,” he said, curling his lips into a half-smile. “Better get going.”
He held out a hand, which Alex took. With her free hand, Alex grabbed the tiny suitcase that held what the bag on her back could not—between the two, they contained as many parts of the life she was leaving as they could hold, but there was still so much she was leaving behind, so much she could not take with her.
Alex’s eyes never left her mother as she allowed Holden to guide her onto the train, not until the doors slid closed, finally separating them, severing the ties Alex had to this place she called home.
She was paralyzed. Even her eyes were immobile. But she could see, and she could hear. She could hear Aiden Barron’s words as they poured so smoothly from his mouth, as though he had rehearsed his lines countless times, waiting for the right opportunity to force them out. Alex could hear him, but she was not listening.
Though outwardly she could not express it, inside she seethed with rage. Every fiber of her being fought against the SCORPIA agent’s magic, trying to break free, latch onto Barron’s throat, and squeeze until he was dead in her arms.
But she could do none of that. Her rage gave in to helplessness, and it was overwhelming. She was a prisoner in her own body, unable to do anything except hear Barron, and see him, and, when he got close enough, smell him.
When he finally left and the magic spell wore off, Alex broke down. Even though she had escaped the prison of her paralyzed body, she was still trapped in the tiny cell. She was still helpless, and one of her friends was going to die.
The boat sped away from the collapsing facility as fast as its underpowered engines would take it. Aboard were four SeeDs, who looked back at the prison from which they had escaped, and where they had left two of their companions behind.
It had taken Elia and Wolf’s combined might to pull Alex onto the vessel. She had fought them to the last of her strength to go back for Kryse, even though deep down she knew that he was beyond saving. They all knew.
It had been ten years since her departure from Esthar. Ten years since her separation from the only ones she called friends back then. When Kryse had suddenly walked back into her life only days ago, Alex had been overwhelmed with feelings she did not understand, ones she could not put into words. And she did not even try. There had been times since their first mission together in Deling where she had wanted to try, but hadn’t.
Alex knew that leaving Kryse behind in the SCORPIA facility was leaving him to die. She would never get another chance to try, to stumble foolishly over her words as she figured out which ones were correct, and which were just silly. She would never see that awkward look Kryse was bound to give when her feelings finally came gushing out in a stream of nonsense. Everything would remain forever in the dark.
She stood now at the stern of the vessel, next to Elia, staring back at the fiery wreckage that they had caused in their dramatic escape. Only the blonde girl beside her could see what was happening, but Alex did not need to look through the sniper scope to know.
An almost imperceptible wince in Elia’s cheek, synced perfectly with the final thrust of Balian’s spear, was all Alex needed to see to know it was over. She collapsed suddenly, as though the wound was hers instead. The spray of ocean water had masked her tears before, but now they came on full-force, and there was no hiding it.
Wolf sprang forward and latched onto Alex’s shirt to prevent her from tumbling over the end of the boat into the ocean, and pulled her back his arms, into safety. But she only pushed him away and landed on the floor. She could not think straight any longer.
The others let her be as she curled up on the floor where she lay, and cried.
Those eyes. They were unforgettable. His face was placid, but his eyes betrayed his true feelings as they watched the man writhe in agony in the street. Joy. Sick, warped joy. Those eyes burned into Alex’s soul as though they were trained on her.
Everything frightening in her life could not compare to the way those eyes made her feel. She could not make them go away.
Alex awoke to world of pain. Her eyes opened narrowly, but could not see anything yet. Frigid, bitter liquid wormed its way down her throat and lingered on her tongue, and her only reaction was to gag.
She coughed, suddenly breaking from Kryse’s grip and spraying remnants of the elixir all over the floor beside her. She choked and gagged on it, but she had already swallowed most of it.
When Alex could breath again, her first utterance was a cry of pain. The elixir had already begun to work, but her wound was severe. She twisted out of her sitting position and writhed on her chest, but that only made the pain worse, which in turn caused her to squirm even more.
But she was awake, and she was alive.