The man’s chest heaved, his breath coming in sharp desperate gasps. He’d fallen from his horse, and now sat heavily on the ground. A trickle of blood ran down from a deep gash at his temple, tracing a path of red through the dirt on his cheek.
“They came out of nowhere,” he kept saying, “They came out of nowhere.”
“What do you mean?” asked the lieutenant. “Who did?”
The man, eyes large and wild, looked up at the officer standing above him. “They were like ghosts. Wiped out the whole company.” His voice cracked. “Everyone but me.”
The lieutenant frowned at the man’s words. Without turning, he asked, “Where’s the Captain, Sergeant Bulotte?” knowing that the sergeant would be, as always, standing ready behind his right shoulder.
“No idea, sir,” replied Sergeant Bulotte immediately. He was a large man, whose face told of many summers of long campaigning. “Shall I fetch him sir?”
“No, I’ll go straight and find the colonel. He needs to hear this.” The lieutenant turned to find the eyes of the whole platoon upon him and the man on the ground. “Stand the men at ease, sergeant, until I get back.”
“Aye sir.” Bulotte saluted, then turned and bellowed, “Right lads, you heard the lieutenant. Take your ease, but don’t get too comfortable now!”
The men gratefully unshouldered muskets and dropped packs, moving off the road. As they did one soldier caught the lieutenant’s notice. He was tall and scarcely more than a boy, with blond hair visible under the edges of his black leather shako and a spread of freckles across his nose and cheeks.
“You there! Soldat!” the lieutenant called. The young soldier looked up and locked eyes with the officer for the moment, his cold blue eyes dull with weariness and yet at once full of challenge. He held his gaze a moment, then dropped his eyes in reluctant deference to rank.
“You’re a new man, Oui?” asked the lieutenant, arms folded.
“Oui sir.”
“Your name?”
“Gosselin, sir.”
“Give this man some water, Soldat Gosselin.” The lieutenant indicated the seated man.
“Oui sir. Water, sir.” Soldat Gosselin kept his eyes down.
***
“Damn thirsty bastard.”
Eugene Gosselin sat under the shade of leafy maple on the road’s fringe, watching the man who still sat slumped in the middle of the road, slumped over with his eyes closed. He held Eugene’s canteen between his legs, and Eugene knew from watching that it was empty or close to it.
“Drank all of it, he did.” Adrian said, staring angrily at the man. "C'est un vrai con."
He tried to summon the energy to muster up some real fury, but he was just too exhausted. The battalion had marched eighteen miles today, each step made leaden by the weight of his musket and pack, which were leaning against the trunk next to him. The pack was simple to figure out: he despised it. It rubbed and chafed everywhere, its leather straps leaving his shoulders red and raw.
The musket, on the other hand, was a mystery to him. Two months of training with it, of having drill sergeants roaring at him the importance of keeping it working and clean, of having it bouncing against his shoulder ever time he took a step, made him curse it every morning as he hoisted its surprising weight. And yet there was something about the weapon that he found entrancing. On many a long night of sentry duty he’d found himself running his fingers lightly down the cold metal of the barrel, tracing the sharp curves of the lock, marveling at the simple elegance of it all. He shivered slightly as he thought of the power within those lines and curves, the way it could end a life in a burst of noise, smoke and fire.
“Eh, no point in getting mad at the poor bugger,” said Pierre Hollande, who sat carefully packing his pipe to Eugene’s right. “He’s just a dragoon.”
“What company you reckon he’s from?” Eugene asked.
Pierre Hollande shook his head but Adar Vincennes, who sat across him, nodded. “Green short-tailed coat, with capucine facings and red piping. That there’s a 23rd Chasseurs-a-Cheval lad.”
A contemplative silence fell over the little group, and Eugene looked over the two. Most of the men in the 94th were from Haute-Rhin and Vosages and looked askance at a new recruit from western France. Eugene had found himself falling into the company of fellow outsiders Pierre and Adar, who hearkened from Sambre-et-Meuse and Paris respectively. The two men were each at least a decade older than the youth, but the misery of training and the tedium of camp life had made the three firm friends.
“Do you think he was lying?” asked Eugene, breaking the silence. “About being the only one of his company to get out?”
“Who knows?” Pierre Hollande shrugged. “Maybe his company got into a fight and he just took off.”
“Maybe.” Adar sounded skeptical. “He looks pretty shook up.”
"I'd be too if I'd almost gotten knocked by one of them partisans," Pierre said, "Did you hear what happened to those poor bastards down in Villatoba?"
Eugene and Adar already had, but that didn't stop them from listening as Pierre recounted the story in a low voice. When he was done, Adar shook his head in disbelief. "Those couilles don't play by the damn rules."
"And what would those rules be?" Pierre asked mockingly.
"Not fucking this!" Adar exclaimed, "I used to be parole courier back before I got levied. I know how you're supposed to fight a war, and by God this isn't it."
"Get on your feet!" The harsh bellow of Sergeant Bulotte cut through the autumn air. "The colonel's coming up!"
Eugene, Pierre, and Adar scrambled to their feet and ordered arms just the colonel appeared riding at a stately pace on a black horse down the column. Colonel Jean-Antoine-Francois Combelle was an older man, with streaks of gray in his moustache and sideburns and wrinkles around his steely blue eyes. The lieutenant followed behind on foot, and saluted smartly as the colonel dismounted in front of the slumped dragoon.
"This is the man, Colonel," the lieutenant said, indicating with an outstretched hand.
"Thank you, Lieutenant," Colonel Combelle replied, then said to the dragoon, "On your feet, trooper! Your name and regiment!"
The dragoon seemed to snap out of whatever nightmare he'd been reliving. Standing quickly to attention, he replied in a crisp voice, his eyes staring straight ahead, "Jacques Varin, mon Colonel! Second Company, 23rd Chasseurs-a-Cheval!"
Out of the corner of his eye Eugene could see Adar smiling smugly beside him. Colonel Combelle nodded, then said, "Tell me what happened, Trooper Varin."
"Mon Colonel, we were escorting four wagons worth of munitions and pioneer’s supplies when we got hit,” the man said, his eyes continuing to stare out, “Knocked out most of us in the first go. I was near the back, so I put back my spurs and got the hell out of there before whoever missed me the first time got a second chance.”
The colonel nodded slowly, thoughtfully. “Thank you Trooper Varin,” he said, then turned back toward the lieutenant. “I want you to take your men and loop south for half a mile, then come around and see if you can’t take these devils in the rear. The rest of the regiment will move in support. I need Captain Louran – where is Captain Louran?” The colonel disappeared back through the column.
“All right, you heard the colonel,” said the lieutenant, “Sergeant Bulotte, get the men organized and ready to go.”
“Oui, Lieutenant.” The sergeant saluted. “I want a skirmish line now!”
As the men of the company hurried to obey the order, Eugene felt a hand on his shoulder. It was Sergeant Bulotte. “You’re the new boy, oui?”
“Oui, sergeant.”
The craggy, weather-beaten face broke into a friendly smile. “You stick with me, soldat. Do what I do.”
“Oui, sergeant.”
***
It was a perfect place for an ambush. The road entered a thick wood just as the ground began to rise into a range of low hills, causing the track to meander through a ravine lined with trees and boulders. Eugene crept forward, the heavy musket held at the ready in front of him. The company had entered the treeline at a point half a mile away and had spent the past twenty minutes working their way slowly toward the ambush point. Eugene pushed his shako back on his head slightly, peering intently ahead. He couldn’t see anything or anyone out there -- no shadows darting amongst the trees, no glint of metal in the sun. But that didn’t mean the woods were empty, or that someone wasn’t watching the ragged line of blue-coated figures slowly approach. He imagined a figure watching him, a cold eye focused on his forehead from down a gun barrel, lining up a shot, a finger tightening on a trigger. Sudden terror overcame him for a moment, and he mashed a hand to his forehead in a desperate defense.
“Easy, boy.” The calm whisper from Sergeant Bulotte a few meters to his right brought Eugene back into focus, and he took another step forward.
There was a shout from somewhere in the trees up ahead, which disappeared in a cloud of powder smoke as the woods opened up with the crack of musketfire. A bullet hummed past Eugene’s head and he dove for the cover of a fallen log in front of him. He sat there a moment, his heart racing and his brow suddenly wet with perspiration, listening to the din of musketry and voices calling out in Spanish and French.
“Up! Get up!” The voice of Sergeant Bulotte. “Get up and move forward!”
Eugene took a deep breath, then rose and rolled over the fallen trunk. He lost his shako, and without bothering to pick it up made for the cover of another tree. This he repeated twice more, catching his breath only to duck his head and race for the next scrap of cover. He was all alone, the sounds of combat all around him, while a drum was beating the forward march somewhere. There was a man in a French uniform lying there, a look of profound surprise frozen on his face and a dark and bloody hole beneath his right eye.
Was the fight dying down? Eugene thought so but he couldn’t tell, and there was no one he could ask. The dead man certainly would be no help. Eugene cocked his head, trying to puzzle out who he had been. The face seemed familiar, but no name was coming. He was still thinking it over when he heard movement on the other side of the tree he was leaning against.
His thumb pulled back the hammer of his musket to full cock, and without a second thought he rose and stepped out from behind the tree. There was a man there, a man not in a French uniform but in a wide-brimmed hat and dun-colored smock. They stared at each other for a moment, frozen in surprise, before with a curse in Spanish the man swung the muzzle of his musket toward Eugene.
Without thinking, Eugene’s finger yanked back on the trigger. In almost ridiculous slowness the hammer came down, striking the frizzen in a shower of sparks. There was a puff as the priming ignited, then the musket kicked back as the main charge caught, and Eugene nearly lost his grip as the musket fired. The man was knocked backwards, doubled over and with his hands flying to his stomach as if he’d been punched. He stared at Eugene for a moment, then slumped to the ground.
The fight was over. The drumbeat Eugene had heard was the regiment moving up the road, and the partisans had fled before the overwhelming force of the column. Sergeant Bulotte stood beside him, and together they looked down at the wounded Spaniard. The man was still alive, and as his lifeblood trickled slowly through hands clasped to his stomach he stared silently at the two Frenchmen.
“Good work, soldat,” said Bulotte. “He won’t live with that gut wound.” He tapped the bayonet hanging in its sheath from Eugene’s side. “You ought to finish him.”
The young soldat didn’t move, and Bulotte looked at Eugene. “Is this your first?”
“Oui, sergeant.”
Bulotte nodded understandingly. “It’s always hard the first time. But you got to do it.”
Eugene paused for another long moment, then pulled out the bayonet and locked it onto the blackened muzzle of his firelock. The Spaniard took a long time to die, and Eugene stabbed down again and again, willing the man to give up and make it done with. Even at the last the Spaniad kept silent, not a groan nor a cry nor anything, only staring at Eugene with accusing eyes.
When it was over, Eugene turned and found that Pierre Hollande and Adar Vincennes had joined Sergeant Bulotte and were watching him silently. Bulotte took a step forward and tousled the young soldat’s hair. “Good work, boy. It’s done with.”
Adar shook his head, muttering, “Not by the damn rules, the couilles.”
Her fingertips, outstretched, sketched a farewell,
Her eyes, downcast, asked when I would return.
And I replied, "What traveler went forth
Who knew the fate God had in store for him?"
-Unattributed, quoted in al-Abshihi (d. 1446), Al-mustatraf