by Anima on Sun Jan 25, 2009 3:24 pm
Ilena almost thought that her heart had started to beat again, such was the relief and (what was this other emotion that continued to heat her from the inside, almost seeming to drive away the eternal chill? Again, she shoved the thought away.). He kissed her, well her hand anyway, and the feeling expanded, leaving no room for breath. Beneath his skin, she could feel the faint pulse of his heartbeat, but there was no time for bloodlust at the moment.
Ah, so many memories, memories of innocent, blurred quality that meant humanity to her. None of the razor sharp accuracy of vampire memories. She remembered the little boy from the farm down the road and sneaking off to kiss softly in the dark, both thinking themselves terribly naughty and adult. Leon made her feel like that girl again. Suddenly, she registered what he was saying and not just the wonderful heat of his hand.
"A date?" she echoed mindlessly. Deep inside of her, she knew what the answer should be. What she was doing, puttng him in the middle of was wrong, all wrong. They were getting too close, it was too dangerous, there were too many rules trampled in the dust. The balance between bloodlust and attraction, bad choices and good intentions, his blood and his heart was precarious at best and so frigile at the least. Selfish desires will always tip that balance out of her favor... wouldn't they? Could he see the war in her eyes as clearly as she could see the hope and trust in his?
Slowly, as if to give him time to pull away, Ilena leaned even closer, tilting her head up. She had to raise herself onto her toes a bit to reach him, but then, gently, the tip of her nose skimmed across the underside of his jaw. It was there that his scent was strongest and she held still for a moment, contemplating it. 'We are predators. Either indulge or walk away.' Her "father's" voice echoed strongly in her mind. Both options left her dazed with panic.
And so, she smiled. A bit sadly, a bit recklessly, a bit triumphantly, a bit cockily, Ilena smiled. If she did not like the options presented, she would simply create her own alternative. She would make it work. The breath she had been holding slid gently from her parted lips and she kissed him sweetly there, under his jaw.
"I would like that," she answered, her voice more of a sigh. She pulled away then, very aware of the scene they were making. Still, their hands remained entertwined and she squeezed his hand as softly as she could. "I would like it very much." She could do this, as long as she willed it hard enough.
'I like the color of his eyes much more than the scent of his blood, I think,' she thought.