"All I ever had to do was fake a smile, Alex, and all I ever was was Alex's twin, do you know how much it hurts when people are using you to get with your brother?"Alexa said looking at him coldy, "It hurts alot, and what especially when you lose to him at everything...it sucks...that I can never live up to you...and never will, I'm not going to apolpgise, in every way but being there for me, your perfection with minor flaws, how the hell am I ever going to live up to that Alex? I NEVER will, and if I continue to live in your shadow, all my effort will go to waste and I'll work at burger king and be some shitty cat lady who kids are scared of..."Alexa wiped her eye, "I can't live like that, I'm having a pretty shitty time living like this, especialy when you fucking KISSED, the same guy I liked, and you didn't care, one bit, fuck it Alex, i'm so sick of this,"She stared at him with emotionless eyes, "I hate it, I even thought about running away, and you know Michelle? The girl who I met in kindergarten, yeah, well, she's the only person EVER to not compare me with you, and I BEGGED mom to have you stay with dad, but she wanted you to come, and this all happened in front of your eyes, most of my old friends hate me, because I never told them I had a brother, when they found out they hated me, all because I was afraid of losing them, and it drove them away, DAMMIT!"She hit her fist on the table and slid to her knees.

[sure juliette]

Alex was in more shock. He didn't know anything. "Alexa... I'm so sorry... I guess I was just... Too caught up with my own life to even realize that I had a sister to care about..." He choked. He'd always thought of himself as a good brother. And he kind of wished that he had gone with that "father," even though he hated him...

"Yeah well, your life is so much fucking better, I grew up trying to be the polar oppsite of you, and in the end I grew up being someone I never wanted to be, Alex, it's my fucking fault anyway, I never told you, I thought since you were so perfect you would see it, I guess that dream crashed down two years ago..."Alexa slipped her hand over her mouth to muffle her sobbing noises, "And, when Zane told me not to give up so easily, I actually believed I might've had a chance, but as soon as you came sitting in between me and him, I instantly knew I wouldn't, Alex, put yourself in my shoes, imagine having to put up a happy,cheerful, little sister routine, while your life is hell on earth, and the whole while I was wishing to die so you could have center stage..."

Alexa turned, "I'm going to go tell Zane none of this is his fault, I'm going to use the service elevator I saw him go that way, he might've went up. Alexa trotted over to the service elevator and clicked it open. She saw Zane,
"Wow, that's really coincidental,"She smiled weakly, "Are you o.k? I wanted to make sure I didn't make you think this was your fault, it wasn't I was planning on telling him in a few weeks, so are you o.k? I hate hurting people."

Alex was speechless. Now he felt like dying himself. "I-I... Alexa..." He stuttered, placing a shaky hand on her shoulder. "I feel like a bitch... I can't even imagine your life... Perhaps I should go back with... father..." He choked upon the word. He was the only one that didn't treat him like Royalty. "Alexa..."

Alexa just stared as he brushed past her. Her eyes flittered down, I..I.. She set her head on her arm,[i]hate California, I'm never going to want anything, it only causes pain and you end up with nothing," That's when she realised she would have to put with Alex, and still get to talk with Zane in the radio show, she heard Zane and a guy talking,
"I guess I'll talk to you later Zane...."She said walking away slowly.

Zane glanced back at Alexa and cursed under his breath. Perhaps it was best that she or her brother weren't here to see this right now. Seth still had his hand on Zane's chest, keeping him where he was. "Let's talk about us..please?" He murmured, inching closer. Seth was the one person who didn't get his heart broken in the relationship of the two.

"You've got a minute." Zane mumbled, looking away from his past lover. "I'm sorry for cheating on you. She just..she said that if I had sex with her that you would finally give in and.." With that he got an angry look from Zane. "So you had sex with her just so you could bang me?!" He shouted, Seth hurriedly put a hand over his mouth.

"Yes, and I'm sorry."

[[seth sounds like aa freak...srry lol]]


Alexa walked away towards her brother,
"See ya' later I need to pick some stuff up.....Bye..."Alexa didn't put her usual smile and small wave like usual, her eyes weren't bright, as they usually were, Worst day ever....