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Lee looked at Summer, His hearing was still fuzzy but his sight was better than it was. Not really catching what she said he got up slowly. Wobbling slightly he made his way to his room, dragging his fingers along the wall making sure that it was there. Finally coming to his room he shut the door lightly, not wanting to draw attention to himself. Running his fingers through his hair, Lee crouched down in the middle of the room staring at the floor. Sitting down he looked around the room quickly he lifted up his bed a few inches, an item dropped to the floor making a light clinking noise.

Dragging the silver item Lee looked at it blankly, it was a broken mirror fragment from one of the bathroom. Of course this was when the asylum still allowed mirrors, which really was only a few months ago. Putting the bed back to its original place the walked to the corner of his room. Sliding down the wall landing with a light thump he stared at the broken shard. Looking at his jaded reflection he gripped the shard tightly in his hand. Deep red liquid seeped through his fingers, dribbling down his hand and dripping down to the floor. Releasing the fragment Lee looked at his hand. Looking at the bloodstained mirror again he scrapped the sharp edge across his wrist pushing the edge deeper and deeper into his skin. Bringing more of the liquid spilling out of his arm, draining out onto the floor doing the same with his other arm.

Lying down in the corner Lee breathed slowly staring at his arms, watching the blood run out onto the floor.

Lee felt himself being pulled up by something, Summer focused into his eye line. she was asking him what he had done. "i...had to..., its too much.....i hate...I'm scared of myself.Terified....only way" Lee mumbled slowly. He looked at the shard, his bloodied had slowly started to reach out to grab the shard again.

Lee couldn't really calculate why he had hurt himself. Was it because his mind was so used to different things and certain emotions. which to Lee were only depression,confusion and pain. Lee's eyes flickered lightly at Summer who still held him, why was she helping him? did she care about him? Suddenly feeling sick to his stomach Lee looked at his injured arm and at his other hand reaching for the shard.

"They always say that, they said that when i first came here. My parents said that when they brought me here." Lee mumbled as Summer covered his arm. He wanted to pull away, to be left alone, but he was to physically and mentally drained to do anything. Looking at his blood made him wonder what was going through his head. A range of emotions must have been running through his mind. Looking at the the towel which slowly started to turn red. " no one cares about me anyway here, i may as well not bother anymore. no one will miss me" Lee added depressingly. Looking at the floor he avoided looking at Summer at all costs.

Lee looked at her blinking slowly, looking down at her thumb stroking his hand looking back at her. Lee was speechless he couldn't think of anything to say. Leaning against the wall Lee closed his eyes, the pain in his arm was fading away. A small tear ran down Lee's cheek as he stared at the wall opposite, as thoughts and memories ran slowly through his head. Voices filling his ears, he parents voices his sisters screams. She wouldn't have wanted this for Lee to try and kill himself. Looking back Summer he opened his mouth and whispered hoarsely "Thank you"

Lee nodded slowly his eyes still on the floor. Closing his eyes more tears rolled down his cheek Lee was too drained to wipe then away. subconsciously Lee pulled away his injured arm and cradled it , closely the pain was a dull throb which soothed him in a disturbing way. Looking at the wound made Lee flash back to the image of his sister writhing in pain. long gashes dotted around her small body, the screams echoing through out the house.

Walking down the corridor a carer was looking for Summer and Lee, He sent Summer to see if Lee was okay and was now checking on both of them. Finding Lees door open stepping in his eyes immediately fell on the bloodied floor. "Oh My God" he mumbled rushing over to Lee he took him by the shoulder trying to get Lee to look at him but Lee wasn't having any of it " Lee? Lee! What happened?" Examining his arm the carer turned to Summer "Summer, what happened? do you know why Lee did this?" He asked.

Lee looked at the carer and couldn't speak he didn't know now how to explain himself. " i...." He began but trialed " I can't take it anymore... i hate myself... I'm just terrefied...had to" He explained his voice cracking slightly. Lee's eyes flickered to Summer for help. Lee tried to pull away fro the carers hand but he couldn't he was already pressed against the wall. The carers grip was firm on Lee's chin and he couldn't really move. Looking down at the floor to avoid looking at the carer.

Lee pulled away from the carer as soon as he let Lee go, cradling his arm with his free hand. He curled up into a small ball turning away from the carer and Summer. Putting his hand to his mouth he began chewing at his thumb violently, Lee completely blanked out the conversation the Summer was having with the carer he looked around the room quickly focusing on the glass shard once more then his eyes diverted to look at the blood on the floor.

Lee tensed up at first closing his eyes tightly opening them he turned his head, slightly relieved that it was Summer who was holding him not one of the carers. Shaking his head quickly he tried to pull his hand to his mouth but Summer was holding it back from him. Trying miserably to chew his hand he gave up "c..c-can you stay please?...i don't think I'm safe with myself at the moment" he asked still looking at the floor. Turning to look at Summer pitifully he looked down at the floor. his hand trembling in Summers.

"Thank...you.." Lee half-sobbed half-spoke into Summer's shoulder as she held him. still clutching onto his arm he fell into Summer's comforting hold. Lee started to cry softly but silently his shoulders shuddering every time he breathed. Closing his eyes tightly he tried to block out everything that was surrounding him except for Summer he felt safe with Summer, he couldn't quite place why.