Elena scrambled through her closet, tears in her eyes. She looked at her slightly bulged stomach, and started to weep even more. She slumped down on the ground, and her hand rested on an oversized black hoodie. She quickly grabbed it and tossed it over her head. She stood up shakily and looked in the mirror. The hoodie was great. It made her look like she used to before her father impregnated her. She quickly wiped away her tears, her body still shaky. Her father had just tried several sexual advances on her, coming up behind her, breathing on her neck. Elena felt sickened by it all. She fisted her hands in her hair, and screamed into a pillow. There were only five other people that understood her. The five other people in her little suicide pact. She quickly grabbed her cell phone, sending a grouped message that read:
"Meet @the compact ASAP." She sent. It wasn't a question or an option.
She quickly stuffed her cell phone into the front pocket of her black skinny jeans, tossed on her favorite pair of heels, and headed out to their compact. It was an abandoned building, probably once some other kids' compact. It was small, but had enough room, with very few windows. She ran across the street and climbed in through the window; the front door was jammed. She made sure to keep her belly safe, and sat in her pink and black zebra chair. The room was dark. She silently waited for the other members to arrive.

Jeremy-
When I received the text I was lying in my bed looking at the sun through my window. Someone once told me if you stared at the sun long enough you would blind yourself. That would be great. I would no longer have to feel so bad about myself, but Even I knew it was too late for that. Suicide was going to happen. I and five others would kill ourselves.
Elena was the one to send a group text; "Meet @the compact ASAP." When I read it I jumped up and put on some other clothes. A red shirt and jeans made me look like fucking Santa Clause. Oh well. I got on my bike and steadily rode to the abandoned club meeting spot. When I climbed through the window only Elena was sitting inside. She looked like she had been crying. "Hello." I spoke only out of politeness. I knew she thought me a disgusting, fat, ugly boy too. Like the others. Even when I talked they wanted to puke.
Without eye contact I would speak to the group. This way they would not be forced to look at me. After November no one will have to look at me again. I'll shoot myself in the head so as to have a closed casket. I should ask her if she is okay... she... she looks like she could be better. "Are you okay, Elana?" I asked, she looked positively dismal. I sat in my old wooden chair that was almost broken. One leg is all that it takes to make this chair trash... one fault and the entire chair crashes.

[[i was thinking about doing first person too, I'm glad someone else is doing it! mind if i copy your outline?]]
Elena-
I looked up from my long stare at the hard floor, and into the eyes of Jeremy. He was a decent looking boy. He was only about 5 or 10 pounds overweight, nothing that needed a drastic change. My empty, lifeless brown eyes searched his, wondering how he saw through me so clearly. My cheeks flushed pink, and I looked down at my lap. The slight bulge in my sweatshirt brought a new round of tears to her eyes. I sniffled, and looked back up at Jeremy.
"When am I ever okay?" I asked, her voice shaky. "I'm pregnant with my father's child, I'm gaining weight, I look terrible, feel terrible. Everyone has heard rumors by now, they all know my condition. They point at me and laugh. Make jokes about me. I'm so tempted to just find a rope and hang myself this minute." I looked back down, feeling slightly bad for laying my sadness on Jeremy. I looked back up at him, staring into his eyes.
"Hopefully you're feeling better than I am at the moment. Maybe life is turning around for you. You probably want to leave this suicide pact, right?" I asked, adjusting my chair. Once again, I felt a tinge of guilt for taking out my anger on Jeremy. I shakily stood up and went over to his chair, and gently hugged him.
"I'm sorry. I just...This isn't one of my best days."

[Decided to do what you guys were doing! Hopefully you don't mind me stealing the outline too...]
Robbie-
I was sitting in a chair, looking through my old photo album of Danny and I's pranks through out the years. 'Man those were good times, nothing but fun and happiness surrounded me then...' My thoughts were going back to that night, the night I lost my best friend. The night I did the stupidest prank in my whole life. The night I actually had to hide a body from the police... Quickly, I threw the album on the ground and my breath was uneven as I soon felt a vibration on my leg. My hands dug in my pocket and pulled out my phone, seeing I had a text from Elena. 'Meet @the compact ASAP.' Was what the text read, quickly I threw on a black sweatshirt on top of my red tank top with my faded, denim skinny jeans.
I ran out of the house without a word and kept running until the compact was in sight, pushing myself harder to run faster. I then saw that Jeremy and Elena were already there, I slowed down as I entered inside of it. I saw a black recliner as I went and sat inside of it, giving a faint nod and a wave before looking down at my legs. Even though he felt like this group was the only one who got him, he still felt alone and if he talked, he would get angry and do something he would regret again...

[yay! :D]
Elena-
I shifted my gaze from Jeremy to Robbie, who had just arrived. I smiled slightly, he always had that affect on me. Even though he was probably the one with the worst memories, he always made me smile.
"Robbie. Hey, you." I said, my voice shaky, raspy, and uneven. I looked into Robbie's deep, never ending blue eyes, and I felt sick to my core. His eyes were almost the same shade of...the same shade of Dad's. I inhaled deeply, trying to find my voice. I couldn't. Robbie's presence made it impossible to think about anything else. I scooted my chair next to his, and slowly leaned over to him before wrapping my arms around his shoulders and beginning to sob.
"Would you...would you kill me if I asked you to?" I asked him sincerely, sniffling and looking deep into his eyes, into his soul, his being, his heart, and searching for an answer.

Robbie-

I looked up to see Elena looking at me, "Hey you too, Elena. Hey Jeremy." Elena sounded different though, almost like she had been crying for hours but her face isn't puffy and her eyes aren't red. Her eyes were latched onto mines but they seemed terrified, upset, scared, and hurt. Before I knew it, she was scooting closer to me and her arms were around me and loud sobs were coming from her. Then what shocked me was her question, that question. I was speechless as I just stared at Elena, shocked. "Wha... What?? No way Elena! I wouldn't kill you, even if you pay me." I wrapped my arms around her and rubbed her hair, "What is going on? Are you alright?" A worried tone to his voice but you could sense the anger, he hated seeing people upset like this. Knowing that Elena couldn't see him, he looked over at Jeremy and gave him a 'Do you know what's going on?' look to see. They were here together first, maybe she spilled something to him? Was she too scared to do suicide so she wanted to be murdered instead?

Jeremy-
I nodded to Robbie and mouthed "She is pregnant." I hoped and assumed it was alright to tell him, they seemed close. Plus I think he already knew that. So I shruged to tell him other than that I had no idea. My eyes roamed the empty room looking out of the large window. I shook my head and stood. "I'll be back." I told them, I had ignored what Elana said earlier. I knew she was just in a bad place right now. He is so lucky a girl will even get close to him. I thought as I jumped out of the window. I knew where I was going and I knew I would not miss anything.
When I reached the woods nearby I screamed. Punching the tree and kicking it to get the anger I had held inside of me for a while now. In the process I broke a toe, and my knuckles were bleeding. My face was wet, my sight blurry. Crying? I had not cried in years... Why the hell now? This was odd. Wiping my face with the red shirt I started back. Halfway I stopped, fell to the ground, and I sobbed.
Just now heading out of the woods, it was getting dark. I had only been on the ground for minutes, but the sun was setting. I hurried back to the meeting place, crawled into the window, and without eye contact I slid into my chair again. By then my knuckles had stopped bleeding and my toe was throbbing. I was sucked into my own world of thought, missing any words that were spoken. Goddamn it! A sudden rage came over me. I hit my chair and it broke. This chair is like me. I told myself sitting on he ground. I just broke. Laughter spread through my bones and I laugh-cried. Tears streaming down my face I could not stop laughing. I am so broken.
When I finally did stop, I just sat up against the wall, face covered, eyes closed, thoughts provoking.

[And I don't care... Go for it. :D]

I just slowly pulled myself away from Robbie, drying my tears. I looked up at the sound of Jeremy leaving, and quickly stood up.
"Wait...don't...don't go." I said, but he was already out of the window. I quickly rushed to it and watched him as he punched a tree roughly and kicked it, and I looked down, feeling Jeremy's pain. Not long after, Jeremy was headed back inside the compact, his face wet with what appeared to be tears. I moved away from the window, letting him climb in, and watching as he had a small emotional breakdown. I felt for him, and slowly walked over to where he was in the corner. I gently leaned down next to him, my brown eyes full of compassion.
"Jeremy, it's okay. We're here for you. It's okay." I reassured him, bringing him in for a hug just like Robbie.

Ruby-
Hesitantly, I pulled my head off of my pillow I'd been sleeping on for the past few hours. My mascara had hardened more onto my cheeks from all the crying that had been going on in this household. I reached for my phone and noticed the text from Elena. Hoping it wasn't too late, I pulled myself off of the couch and walked into the small room my sister sleeps in. She was still sleeping; thank goodness. I walked a few steps further into the bathroom, taking out cheap makeup remover and tissues. I rubbed all the mascara and eyeliner off of my face.
I applied more, but making it look beautiful to frame the face I carried around worriedly on my neck and shoulders. I applied light pink lipgloss and a natural colored blush; I never had to worry about foundation due to my no acne face. All this make-up was my mothers, and sometimes it just got simply hard to use due to the fact I missed her so much. I looked at the hanging picture of my mother & father on their wedding day and looked away before I began to cry again. Things just weren't the same without them. I walkd out back to my little room and pulled on a white tanktop and a tight, white V-neck shirt with dark colored jeans. I slid on red converse but didn't bother tying them; there weren't many laces left.
My hair was naturally wavy and gorgeous because of my mother's genes. I picked up my flip phone and sent a reply to Elena. "On My Way." The text read. I was really hoping Christian would be there; thought we acted like we hated each other which is what most people thought we did, deep inside I had strong feelings for that guy. But it wasn't much longer until I died, put myself out of this hell I call life. I walked slowly and calmly to the usual spot, seeing Robbie standing there.

"Hi Robbie." I said, looking around for Elena and possibly Jeremy. I knew he had to be there; he was always there early.

Jeremy-
After I thought for a second, Elena hugged me sideways. She said something about being there for me but i knew that was a lie. She and everybody else just wanted to be able to be the stronger one for a moment, but who was in the end? Well... I think that is the question.. who, in this world, will always and forever be strong? This is where faith and gods are put into the argument but I personally believe that none of that shit is true. Goddamn everyone of you. I thought.
"you are not really there for me. You don't want to be. You were not 'here for me' before we made this stupid pact. You were not my friends. Why now? Actually... its genius. No one will ever know we were planning this. I will make a clean escape." With this thought floating around I got up and took another seat.

Robbie

When I saw what Jeremy mouthed to me, my mouth dropped. Elena was pregnant, like a baby growing inside of her pregnant. This shocked me for a second before realizing that Jeremy had excused himself and Elena stopped hugging me, running for Jeremy. I always thought that she may have been a little too nice to him, if you get my drift. Then Jeremy climbed out the window and Elena just stayed by the window, waiting for him. I stood up, contemplating on whether I should join or stay. I was never too close with Jeremy but we were buddies just, him and Elena were closer. They needed each other right now so I looked at my feet and stayed quiet, thoughts of Danny in my head. Not realizing that Jeremy had come back in after having a break down, then having another one when walking in and Elena was comforting him. She was too sweet, that's why everyone really liked her here. Not too soon after, Ruby walked in.

"Hey Ruby." I replied quietly, not making eye contact but gave a small grin. Then realizing she was looking around, I looked up at her with a sympathetic look. "Christian isn't here to fight with Ruby and Jeremy is with Elena, he just had a break down so they are talking it out." Then like clock work, Jeremy came back over and sat down. I walked over slowly and patted his shoulder comforting and gave him a small grin, trying to comfort but knew I was failing.

Elena-
I backed away from Jeremy, my eyes stinging with anger. I bit my lip, and looked around at the group. They all had it bad. I pulled my oversized hoodie over my hands, and brung them up to my misty eyes.
"You think you have it bad, Jeremy? Do you know what it's like to have...to have your father, your own flesh and blood, come in your room and rape you, night after night? To beat you up, to hurt you, to take advantage of his own daughter?" I said, my voice wobbly. "And...threatening to kill you if you told mom? Huh? Do you know how that feels? And to have everyone look at you and point and whisper, thinking you got knocked up by somebody off the street? Them calling you a slut? A whore? A piece of trash? Do you know how that feels?" I start sobbing, covering my face with my hands and sitting in my chair, looking at my lap. I had never told any of them the full story. Ever.

Ruby

I walked over to Elena and gave her a kind hug. "Elena, we all know it's hard and rough in the place you live, and the fact your dad does those things to you is absolutely terrible," I said, comforting her. I felt horrible for her, as I did to everybody else in this pact. "But we all have it rough, or none of us would even be in this place," Ruby said, facing her to the facts. "I realize that your dad is a monster, but at least you have one. And a mother. She cares for you and you know it," I said, tears filling up in her own eyes. She didn't want to cry now. "I don't have either. I don't even have grandparents," I said, shaking my head.
"I feel exactly the same way Robbie does…" I said, knowing how it felt to accidentally kill somebody. "I told my parents to fly on that highway, it was my fault they crashed into that lake and died. So we all have reasons to be here Elena," I said, backing away and taking a seat.

If only Christian were here...

Jeremy-
I kept my calm, because everyone her probably had it worse than me. I knew that. I looked at her "I never said I had it bad. Yeah, I was dealt a shitty deck of cards, I'm sorry that I hurt you, Elena." I stepped closer to her. "I just cannot imagine anyone genuinely caring for me." What was said before was true. We were all in crappy bodies, our souls only longing to get out. I grazed her arm with my hand. An apology. "I'm so very sorry I hurt you." I told her looking in her eyes, searching for her forgiveness. I'm so so sorry Elena...

Robbie

I heard as everyone began to go into their emotions and it became too sad. When Ruby brought up that she felt the same way I did, how could she possibly know? Her parents drove into a lake, everyone knew they were dead. Danny was murdered in front of my eyes and only the people in this group knew he was dead and not missing. I got angry then, "You and I, not the same emotions AT ALL!!!!" Then I ran out, I needed air. I took deep breaths and lay on the ground, the crunch of the leaves under my body. This was calming.

Elena-

I hugged Jeremy back, my tears stopping. "No, I'm sorry. It's just this is crazy. It's out of hand now." I slowly pulled away from him, wiping my sleeves on my jeans. I looked up abruptly at Robbie's outburst, and watched as he ran outside. I was always the comforting type, so I immediately took action.
"Robbie! Wait!" I said, walking quickly out of the door to follow him. I saw him on the leaves, curled up. He looked like he needed to breathe some. But I slowly walked over to him, anyway. I crouched beside him before sitting in the Indian position.
"Robbie. What's really wrong with you? You can tell me. If you don't want me to, I won't tell anyone else. No one. Just...tell me what's wrong. Please?" I asked, gently reaching my hand out to touch his shoulder.

Robbie

I was laying on the ground when I heard Elena kneel down next to me, she really didn't know what personal space was. I took a deep breath and sat up, looking at her in the eyes. "You all know Danny is dead, that's it..." Tears were at the brim of my eyes as my voice cracked. "I...I killed him... He's dead because of me..." Then I looked at Elena, waiting for her reaction before I went on.

Elena

I gasped silently at what Robbie said, but my feelings toward him didn't change. We all had baggage. And I highly doubted that he did it in just plain murder.
"What happened Robbie? I'm so sorry about Danny." I said, comforting him by putting my hand on his knee. I felt a small nudge or movement in my stomach, and I quickly curled up into fetal position. That was the first time the baby had done anything to make itself known. I refused to cry in front of Robbie right now, he was already upset enough. I slowly uncurled, looking back at him, my cheeks slightly pink.

Ruby

Thats when it hit me. A flashback.

"Hurry up mom! Jess' gonna be pissed if I'm late again! I promised her I'd be on time to help set up!" I shouted from the back, throwing a hand over Lizzie's mouth because she wouldn't stop crying. "Tell her to shut up mom! She won't shut up!" I said, running a hand through my hair and applying a subtle pinky-pearl colored lipgloss onto my lips after fixing my eyeliner. I shut the mirror and threw it back in my black leather Guess bag.
"Relax Ruby. We'll make it on time." My mother said, in a soothing, almost calming voice. But I didn't care. I wanted to get there, and get there fast. "Go 10 more miles per hour mom," I said, leaning up. "It won't hurt you. It won't hurt dad, it won't hurt Lizzie, and it won't hurt me, and surely we'll be as Jess's on time then," I said, sitting back. I rolled down my window to spit out a piece of gum. The cold winter air hit my face like a bullet.
"Oh shit!" I heard from the front seat. The car revved around and did a complete 360. I heard my mom scream and the sudden crash into what felt like…nothing? Then she felt it. Glass break, the rush of cold, winter water come into the back seat -- and the front. "Mom! Dad!" I tried screaming but nothing was heard in this violent water accident. I grabbed Lizzie's hand -- because that was all I could do -- and pulled us both out of the car. I tossed Lizzie up and hoped she could swim to shore. When I was climbing out of the car myself, I bumped my head. And then…

Nothing.

I woke up a bit later and was covered in IVs, nurses and doctors surrounding me with needles and shots and medicines. "What the hell is going on?" I managed to mumble, tossing my head back and forth. "Where are my parents?" I said, trying to lift my head up, but my neck felt stiff and sore. A doctor signaled for all the nurses to leave as he sat down in the chair next to mine. "Ruby," He said, a stern look in his eyes, but he had not given my direct eye contact; he was staring at the wall. "Both your mother, and your father, are dead,"


And that was all I wanted to remember. I stood up from my chair. "You guys are all so EXCLUDING!" I said, running away from the usual meeting point, heading back in my house. Besides for a simple, "Hi Ruby." And then being SCREAMED at I got nothing from Robbie, and even after the comfort I gave to Elena, she gave nothing to me in return. Jeremy didn't acknowledge I was alive at the point.

Why the hell should I be alive anyway?

Jeremy-
I ran after Ruby. I would not let her leave. "Ruby!" I yelled as I ran after her. Over and over I yelled it. "I will not leave you alone until you acknowledge me, Ruby! And even then I want to talk to you!" I caught up to her and said "Please." I touched her arm. "Please" I repeated. I did not know why, but there was something different about her. "You are different than the others." I spoke tenderly. Looking into her eyes I realized I should not be there, should not have been making eye contact. "Are you okay?" I asked her looking away. "Why did you run out so fast? We were not being exclusive, er... trying to be..."

Ruby

I shook my head and stared straight forward. I didn't want to talk about the flashback; much less start crying. Lizzie was probably puking up her entire stomach right this very minute and I wasn't even home to be there for her. She had picked up all sorts of diseases and sickness ever since she'd been in the accident. The lake was put off limits to everybody in this entire town, they think it's contaminated. I was just lucky enough not to swallow any -- or at least, a lot -- of the water. Poor Lizzie. If I brought her to the meeting place, I'd have to explain her to everybody there. I wondered if she'd mind.
"Jeremy, I have to go. I'll be back." I said, running even faster than I had before.
I slammed the door to my house behind me and heard the sound of a little girl crying from the bathroom. "Oh shit," I mumbled to myself. Damn. I let her puke and I wasn't even there to help her. I rushed into the bathroom with some ginger-ale and a few stomach settling pills. Lizzie took them and leaned back against the wall. "Why did you leave?" She said, in her tiny 4-year-old voice. I looked at her and shook my head. "I'm sorry Liz. I had to be somewhere," I sighed. "And right now, you're coming with me.." I said, feeding her some medication to hold her over and taking her into her room. She used all of my hand-me-down clothes. We got most of the money we needed from our generous neighbors, who payed for us to be living in the tiny house. I threw some black tights on Lizzie and a small jean skirt, and a purple long-sleeved T-shirt that said "Princess" on it. I combed her hair out and pushed a purple clip in her hair to push some of the hair in her small face back.
I took her into the bathroom and washed her face and brushed her teeth for her. We both waved into the mirror because Lizzie loved saying Hi to herself. She was only 4.
I opened the door and began to walk back to where Jeremy, Elena and Robbie were.

When I arrived there, I sat down and sat Lizzie on my lap. "Where ish this place?" Lizzie asked me. I just smiled at her and said, "Somewhere." And looked back up.

Elena

I looked up from Jeremy when I saw Ruby bring a new person here. I squinted my eyes and saw that it was a young girl. Very young, 3 or 4 at the most. She was so adorable and she looked just like Ruby. That must be her little sister or something. Or maybe it was her daughter...no. Ruby wouldn't do that. I'm the only one who's knocked up here. I looked at the adorable little girl, and my stomach clenched. What if I had a little girl like that? I quickly stood up and ran back in the compact, going to the old sink and splashing some water on my face. No. You will not have a child. But I knew I would. Nothing would change that. Dad wouldn't let me get an abortion. He said he'd kill me if I even mentioned it again. I fought back tears, and quickly dried my face and headed back outside. I forced myself to sit down next to the little girl, and I smiled at her, then at Ruby.
"This your sister?" I asked as sweetly as I could manage. The thing inside me gave another little kick, and I pulled my knees up to my chest tightly.

Robbie

I just stood up, I didn't want to talk about this again. No, I don't want to have to relive it. The pain, the fire, the screams... That's when I lost myself as I stared at Elena, my mind slipping back to that day.

Flashback

"Danny! Hey Danny!" I screamed, acting as if I was in pain and in danger. "HELP!" That's when I heard his footsteps coming near and stiffled a laugh, hiding behind a box. In my hands I held a toy rocket, the kinds that the kids played with now a days.
"Robbie! Where are you!?" Danny called out, standing right next to me. I could see his black hair peak over the box as I lit the rocket up and it flew into the air, Danny screamed and jumped backwards. I stood up laughing and clapping my hands together from laughing so hard, his expression was priceless.
"Robbie that wasn't funny!" Danny said angrily but a smile was on his face, no matter what I did. He was never angry with me but what came next was something I never planned. The rocket instead of soaring through the sky and landing near a tree or in the meadow, came right back down. A scream escaped Danny's lips as I saw it and went to get Danny but right when I reached forwards, it came down right behind him. Blew us both clean backwards into many crates and boxes, flames lifted up from the floor in the shed. I looked up to the dark sky and shook my head as a cough escaped my lips when sitting up, looking around. I couldn't see Danny, there was no one next to me except for flames.
Danny's screams were echoing through the shed as I stood up quickly, "Danny!!" I screamed as I looked around, that's when I saw him. A crumpled up boy laying across the shed, not having the slightest movement no longer. The screams were now gone from the air. I lost my breath as I ran over and started to shake him, scream for him to get up. His hair was burned off in the back, his arms burned from the explosion so near to him. My sobs chocking me up as I lifted up the deceased body of my best friend and ran out of the shed, into the meadow, and then through the woods. Somewhere along, I dropped him into a nearby river as it began to rain. My tearful goodbyes to him as all I could repeat was 'I'm sorry.' Well sorries weren't bringing him back, he was gone for good. All I remember next was staring at Danny's body float in the river, moving down as I got nearer to the ground. Then it became black as I slammed against the dirt ground.

End of Flashback

I gasped and looking around, my breathing became uneven as I then noticed Elena was gone. I shakily stood up and walked back to the building, seeing Ruby with a little girl. I gave a small grin and a wave to the little girl, a look to Ruby, and a nod to Jeremy. I sat across the room, sinking low into a wooden chair that was uncomfortable. I stayed quiet, I didn't want to talk to anyone right now. I swear I could still hear Danny's screams ringing in this building, I looked down at my feet.