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My name is: Ashiya Anne Mae
I am: Seventeen years young
You want to know my story?: My dad isn't a good man. Growing up, he featured me in quite risky child pictures, with me doing provacative poses and what not. He didn't feed me much, wanting me to keep a childish figure, and eventually he put me up on websites. He would molest me himself occasionally, but he never shared me with the world sexually, I was never featured in child pornography online, though such videos of me exist. When I got older and realized this shit was wrong, I faught back, and I got frequent bruises and black outs from him. But I didn't give up. I stabbed my father a few times, as did he me. I've thrown oil at him. Sadly I was never able to actually get out of the house. It was locked up. Hence my paleness. I got sick a lot because he would lock me in the basement and keep food from me for days. My father, is a horrible man. They say I am here for my own saftety, as well as to be monitered to see what sorts of issues I have developed because of my past.
How has your room been adapted to your needs?: There wasn't much that needed to be done with my room, it's a normal room, he's just not in it. There is a camera though, they seem to think I am going to do something to myself or rape someone. I'm not messed up like that. Oh, and they seem to bring me a lot of food...
Room no.: 10
If I were to describe myself: I would say I am five foot six inches, with dirty blonde hair thats usually on the messy side, and I am pale. I have brown eyes, and for the most part if I ever wear makeup it's natural. I'm average in weight I guess, not to big not too small. And I lack though beautiful curves many girls have, along with well...along with breasts. I get mistaken for being younger a lot.

Personality

A lot of people think I would be more withdrawn and skiddish because of what happened to me, a lot of people would be wrong.

Recently people called me a rebel. Well, maybe those people are right. I am not too fond of authority figures, and I do not like being told what to do, how to do it, and when it should be done. I will get things done on my own time. Not to say im irresponsible, just leave me alone and I'll do things my own way. I guess you could say I'm not shy, not afraid to say what I think. I wont sugar coat things, though I do spare the feelings of those I feel are more fragile. I not a horrible person, I'm not out to shatter hearts. For the most part, I like to do things on my own and my own way. I'm not one of those people who like to be in a group all the time, or who like to have little slaves or puppy dogs around me to feel better about myself. I don't need a fan club, seriously. If you want my company then fine, but I do not like suck ups. I do not like fake people. I will prove this to you.

I am however, or so I was once told, a fairly private person, with all these walls up and what not. Whatever that means. I guess I don't wear my heart on my sleeve. And well apparently I have hardcore trust issues. But I am completely and one hundred percent real. I will not lie about myself, I will not boast and I will not fib. The truth always comes out sometime, and needless to say, it will bite you in the butt so why lie in the first place. I've had different people say different things about first impressions of me. Some say I appear naive and innocent, some say only idiots wouldn't realize I'm up to no good. I guess looks can be decieving because they are both wrong. I don't think I'm innocent, but I do not look for trouble. I don't think.

I'm no chicken and quite daring and love to prove people wrong. I will go to the ends of the earth and back again to do it. I'm competitive, in a scary way. I will die before I give up, the only way I would is if it would hurt someone for me to go on. Which brings me to the fact that if I have close friends, I will take care of them. I will protect them, and I will not let anything or anyone hurt them. I don't have many of these however, I am just saying. People say I am stubborn and I completely agree. I am also possessive and I know this. Stay away from what is not yours.

I'm not a bitch, I'm not just going to off and be mean to you, but I don't trust others too easily. I need a reason to trust you. I am a kind hearted and caring person, I guess you just don't notice because you are busy obsessing over other things about me. But I really do not like it when people judge. I am loyal and I am honest. Unless I need to get myself out of trouble well, there goes the honesty. I am a good listener, but I've not had many chances to be people's shoulder to cry on. I am a loner. I accept it.

In case you wanted to know I like the following:

• Loudness
• Singing
• Writing
• Animals of all kinds
• Soft fluffy things
• Music
• Dancing
• Cooking

• Cameras
• Being touched
• Romance movies
• X rated anything
• Posing
• Mean people
• Cruel people
• Conceited people
• People who abuse the word like
• Drugs
• Alcohol
• Smoking
• Older men around me
• Seeing pictures of myself
• The dark
• Silence
• Authority figures
• Being told what to do

Ashiya Anne Mae's Story