by Ylanne on Sat Jul 25, 2009 8:58 pm
3 August 1968
She left one city, and now stood out away from the clay and brick buildings baking in the desert sun. Near the city walls she stopped, and could hear the sounds of the riots from the city center, where buildings are being torched, and the hated men and women dragged from their homes and beaten and slain in the streets. Blood flowed there. Here, the sun, though it began to slip below the horizon, staining the sky scarlet and ochre, a pervasive, un-quarantined dye; here, the sun burned fiercely with the fire of ten thousand warriors of God, the ardor of the worker ants, and the persistence of a Sufi mystic.
Tahira Ali could not think. Something filled her head, echoing all around her, thundering, thundering, thundering, and heat swelled within her—she needed to leave this place. She hurried through the empty streets, the city gate looming above her, distant, but o so near, and in it she sensed safety, haven. There! She had only one hundred metres. . . seventy-five. . . she would escape this dreadful city! God willing, she mumbled thoughtlessly, the phrase tacked on more of habit than true belief. Yes—indeed, there was the gate.
But then, as she drew nearer to it, she found that there was another man there, a white man, an American whom she had seen earlier that week inside the city, and he too, was making way to leave. The guard at the gate was gone. He was not there, perhaps drawn into the fray at the center of the city. The American was a taller man with sandy colored hair; his white face turned an embarrassing red of many tales of the desert sun.
She hoped to slip by him, and slowed her step, her eyes on the ground. She did not dare look the American in the eye. Still, she felt his predatory gaze on her as she came within spitting distance of the stranger. “The government’s all tied up, idn’t it?” The American spoke to her, his voice a strange drawl she did not recognize and struggled to understand. “All on account of them durn Europeans, Arthur Stone, Carlos Hodgson. . . they’re jes tryin’ make life miserable for the rest of us. . . But it ain’t right, what the People’s Congress is tryin’ t’do. They’re over thar, butcherin’ the people in the streets. You gettin’ yerself right away from that mess, huh? I don’ blame ye.”
At the mention of Carlos’s name, she felt the suffocating rage return, and she blinked furiously, trying to keep the tears away from the American. “Yep, that’s right,” the American said. “They’re destroyin’ us all. Carlos Hodgson was a bad, bad decision.”
She flew at him, the knife coming to her hand as though it were a pencil, and he looked up at her, eyes widening, and the American stepped back; they made impact and she brought down the knife, and she brought down the knife, and she brought down the knife, and the American’s red, red blood spurted into the air, and he opened his mouth to scream or to ask something or to whisper her a secret, but then a strange, gurgling sound came from him, and then he stopped moving, and she kneeled back in the sand, staring at the American.
What was this now? What had she done? She stood there for hours, the sun drying the blood quickly, but none came to peer or investigate, for there was more death inside the city. When she could bear the heat no longer nor the sight of the body baking in the sun, she turned to go, the anger not gone but merely pushed aside, replaced for the moment by a deep sorrow. But she found there were no tears to cry.
December 1968
Germany
It was like the bazaar just before prayer times, an influx of people swarming from every direction, craning their necks to see some spectacle beyond her line of sight. She felt herself pressed inward along with the crowd, buoyed by their general movements, though so many of them towered over her, she could not see. They spoke a language, but she understood no words. It sounded like harsh, guttural shouting to her.
„Aussehen! Der Kardinal! Und die amerikanische Senator!“ It was a wild, wild language.
„Ich habe gehört, Senator Normandeau wurde nominiert für den Präsidenten. Von den Vereinigten Staaten.“
„Ist es wahr? Kardinal Doshi könnte Papst! Er ist unter il preferiti.”
She closed her eyes, but could not think; another man brushed by her with no regard to the space she occupied. His body odor wafted in the air as he moved, and she coughed involuntarily, spurning another grumbled complaint from someone else. Finally, mercifully, someone moved, and she found a space in the crowd, able to see the procession advancing down the boulevard, and the spectators on the other side of the street, as loud and unruly as the ones she contended with.
Moving slowly down the street was a fancy motor vehicle, of the kind she had had only glimpses of, hidden behind gates in the private streets of white men’s mansions. Leading the way were two men, one older and one younger, though the word was relative. The older man, who seemed not quite white, wore the robes of a priest, Tahira Ali knew them well and bitterly. He seemed to be speaking to his companion, a man of Solara’s age, with carrot colored hair speckled liberally with gray. He wore a Western style suit, and though Tahira Ali was no judge, it seemed expensive to her eyes.
„Sie sind hier für eine Friedenskonferenz. Und andere Führungskräfte."
The two men walked with purpose and dignity, the motor vehicle trailing them as they strode down the center of the boulevard. The sun shone in front of them, and the priest shielded his eyes, a shadow falling across his distinguished features. Suddenly, voices erupted all around in deafening cheers and she stooped low, cringing at the auditory disruption.
“He’s murdering the children of God!” she heard a voice say clearly in Arabic, and felt herself shoved forward, emerging almost from the crowd, just enough to see the furrow in the priest’s brow and the enlightenment in the eyes of his companion, and the people began to applaud vociferously, and she drew her gun and did not think but pulled the trigger again and again.
When the men on either side of her realized what she was doing and moved to stop her, it was too late. They were torn helplessly between crossing the barrier and aiding too many fallen men whose blood already leaked out of them so fast, so damn fast, faster than blood should leave a body, and chasing after the tiny figure already disappearing, shaken, into the crowd, where she lost the gun and her orientation.
In only moments, the procession had turned to chaos, but Tahira Ali had neither the will nor the way to observe the aftermath of her destruction. She was already away from the city with its houses identical in style to the white men’s mansions at home and its language of harsh, guttural sounds. Her al ayrhabeiyah was so much more beautiful. It was a language of life.
13 December 1968
To have fallen so far and so fast, the last six months were quite literally a blur in her mind, a sea of terror and violence and death she wanted nothing more than to eras, but the fury, the fury ignited by some passion within, blinded her to the necessity of ending this rampage, and she had struck again and again. No amount of confession and prayer could cleanse her soul now.
In six months she had traversed eight countries, many of which she had not learned the names of, and in three of them, in three of them she had murdered, with the very hands that so fearfully clutched the blood-stained knife. Her clothes hung loose on her frame, and she must have looked a fright to any who saw her, yet those thoughts were out of her range of comprehension.
All around her she was in a sea of people, and none spoke a word of French she could understand. This was another barrier, another wall that separated her from these people, the women and the men mingling in the crowds. This country, she knew, or had reasoned, was France. Here, perhaps, she would have peace. Or, more likely, she would be drawn once more into the murderous frenzy that had already taken so many lives.
By nightfall, there was no one in the streets of this place, a smaller village, and Tahira Ali stopped across from a church, desire pulling her to enter, but fear keeping her from approaching the doors. She sat in silence, wishing for all the world someone would come to end the curse of loneliness, but that was a wish she had already crumpled and thrown into the trash, long ago. After an hour or perhaps two of patient silence, she was rewarded, when the priest exited the church, a woman with him. Perhaps she had left after a particularly lengthy confession.
The woman and the priest remained in the doorway for a time, oblivious to the tiny woman hidden from them, just across the street, her minuscule figure obscured in the shadows. For them, she might have been just another shadow. She watched, emotions rising unbidden, as the priest and the woman in the doorway reached for each other, and then drew close, kissing passionately. The rage manifested itself again, and she barely restrained herself, the knife hand shaking, until the priest withdrew into the church.
When she left the church, the woman lay dead, her blood spilled into the street on the church steps.
23 December 1968<br /> Washington D.C.
“Something must be done about Tahira Ali,” said the FBI official, mispronouncing her name. “It has already been four and a half months. Why has no one found the damn woman? We need to publicize this fugitive. . . more than she already has been. We need to offer a larger reward. We need to create a task force. Whatever it takes. If she murders once more, we will be just as guilty for not stopping her. We have a warrant for the murders of the Americans?”
“Judge Doherty signed it this morning,” said the lawyer from the prosecutor’s office.
“Good,” said the FBI official. “If anyone sees her anywhere, they can call us in and we’ll make the arrest. It doesn’t matter where she is. There’s no statute of limitations on murder. And if I’m not mistaken, Director Hoover has approved her addition to the Ten Most Wanted List. She’ll be the first woman. The news goes out tomorrow.”
5 January 1969<br /> New York City
She descended the stairs from the airplane, frightened and overwhelmed by the scent of Lysol and body odor and a woman’s sickeningly sweet perfume, the Americans conversing loudly in rapid English too fast for her to follow, the vastness of this space, called an airport, or so the nice man had told her.
“Let me walk with you, Fatima,” said the nice man, for that was the name she had given him. “I’ll escort you to the street and you can call a cab there. Walking might be a bad idea, especially if you’ve never been to America before.”
So they navigated through the throng of passengers, separating only at customs, and she handed over her documents to the customs officer, who gave them a cursory glance and waved her onwards, where she rejoined the nice man. She held onto his arm, uncertain of what to do in this strange city. When they emerged into sunlight, the nice man pointed to the skyline, and she looked, her breath taken away. What tall buildings! They seemed to stretch forever into the sky, daring God to look down from heaven. And so many buildings and people, in one city. New York seemed a thousand times bigger than home.
“That,” said the nice man, pointing to two particularly tall towers that appeared not quite finished, “is the World Trade Center. It won’t be done for several years. Less if we’re lucky. Those will be the Twin Towers. They will stand forever, in testament to the greatness of the Big Apple. Groovy, eh? Well, I’ll leave you here. You can call a cab to take you to your hotel, if you already have a reservation. If you’re just visiting family, you might want to find a pay phone and call. Good day, now.” The nice man tipped his hat and walked off at a brisk pace.
She wandered the streets, alone in the crowds, unsure of herself or her place. When she was sufficiently lost, she turned a corner and caught her reflection in the glass of some store. It sparkled inside for a moment, and Tahira Ali realized it was a jewelry store. She entered, a bell ringing softly as she opened the door. A young American woman appeared at the counter and smiled a false smile, dripping acid with her fake polite words. “May I help you?”
She did not respond, but was distinctly conscious of her threadbare clothing and sleepless eyes. Instead, she admired the necklaces, her fingers lingering over the glass where several gold chains were interlaid against a mannequin.
“Do I know you?” the attendant asked snobbishly, cocking her head with a dignified frown. “You seem familiar, somehow.”
Before she was forced to answer, the little bell chimed again, and another American, a man older than the female attendant, strode inside. The attendant smiled as soon as she saw him. “Mike!” she exclaimed, stepping from behind the counter, embracing the man in a hug. “Have you heard? All these murders! What if that maniac came here? To America?”
“Hey!” the man shouted strangely. “It’s her! That murderer! Omigod, Irina, get outta here! A murderer on the loose, in New York, of all places! This will be the end. . . Irina, GO!”
Tahira Ali had inched up against the glass display. The gun was in her hands. She closed her eyes briefly, then opened them again, her hand on the trigger. Bam. The man went down, swearing. Bam. Another shot to the man. Suddenly, he was silent. The girl, the girl. Tahira Ali looked up and in her blurred vision saw the attendant trying to drag the man with her towards the door, the expression on her face no longer full of condescension. Bam. Bam. Bam. She too went down, and fell across the man with a strangled cry.
Outside, she heard voices, and Tahira Ali found another door, climbing unsteadily over the counter, in her confusion, leaving the gun behind. The door. She pushed it open and stumbled, suddenly enervated, into the street. Two more, she thought numbly. Two more dead.
Present Day
Invited, he told her. Invited to a conference with Usama bin Ladin. "It is an honor, Shaykhah," he said, giving her that title usually reserved for Islamic scholars and feudal lords. "Few women, if any, other than his wives, are ever permitted an audience. And you--you never requested an audience. He has requested you. We leave in one hour, on this plane, should you choose to come. The Director wishes to speak with you. He has been waiting a long time."
What did she know of Usama bin Ladin? Another name, an Arab man or a converted Moslem, she supposed. But looking intently at the man who had found her, the only one in so long, she saw an Arab dressed like the whites she remembered from long ago. He wore those pants, the denim ones. Jeans, she thought, but was not sure. And a collared shirt. His hair was cut short; there was neither beard nor mustache to speak of, and certainly no head covering. From a distance, he looked white. Closer, she thought, he looked like her mother.
Finally, she nodded, and she joined the man, who showed her to a private cabin in the back of the airplane, and shut a curtain separating her from the messenger and two other men, both of whom clasped AK-47s in their dark hands. From behind the curtain, though she could not see the others, she heard their voices, and the familiar cadence of Arabic, which she had not heard spoken in some time.
"Camp Mumeet," one of the men said. "The Director said Camp Mumeet."
"And that is where we are taking Tahira Ali?"
"Of course, brother. Let me see. . . four hours journey. When we arrive, it will be quite the meeting."
Tahira Ali had no need to listen anymore; she found a pile of books, scholarly tomes on Islamic jurisprudence, shelved against the back wall of the cabin. Above them, on its own special shelf, and wrapped in a hand painted cloth, sat a Qur'an. She ignored the Qur'an, and lifted the first book on the lower shelf.
"Al-Wahhab's Argument for Institution of Sharia". Flipping through it, the book was of marginal interest, an old man demanding that Medieval Islamic law be imposed on all nations. The text, however, was beautiful, the Arabic script designed by a distant, perhaps dead typesetter. Tahira Ali smiled sadly. How she longed for simple beauty. More, she longed for love, the passion of Rumi. But there was not a Sufi text to be found.