I couldn't believe that we were going to the beach. The beach! The last time I'd been on holiday was.. was... You know, I can't even remember the last time I went on holiday. And with my friends too! Mum and dad were a little bit sketchy about me going at first, what because of the whole fainting thing? But if I'm honest, it doesn't bother me. Sure, I want to know what illness I have but if the doctors don't know then there's no way that I'm gonna is there? And I certainly refuse to spend my time fretting over it when there's much more fun things to be doing. Like going to the beach with my friends. And with Noah...
It's kind of scary how much I like that boy, especially when he only sees us as friends right? I can't help it though. My friends are always telling me to live life to the fullest and that's what I want to do, in fact it's what I usually do but in this case I can't seem to kick my ass into action. I suck when it comes to things like that, I really, really do.
But anyway, as we all sit in this cramped train carriage I can't stop a sigh from escaping my lips. I really hate travelling, it's one of the only things that I do hate. Don't get me wrong, at first it's fun and I like to sit back and chill with my ipod on but when it begins to get more than an hour I get restless and fidgety and... kind of annoying I guess. I can't help but flick at Brodie and tease Camilla. Anything to pass the time!
But then finally, the train stopped. It stopped! I very nearly let out a whoop of relief but held it back thinking it might be most inappropriate for such a confined space. Knowing me I'd poke someone's eye out in the process.
So instead, I let my joyfulness show with a beaming smile as I followed the others out of the carriage, a bag of belongings hooked over my shoulder. But then all of a sudden it hit me kind of hard. Damn.
The world seemed to move in front of me, yet my feet were still stationary and everything took on an echoey kind of sound. Not here.. please, not now.
I'd never told my friends about my illness because I don't want them all to worry about me, which I know they probably would do. Or treat me any different, or spend their time watching over me and just waiting until I go all funny again. No, I don't want to live my life like that. But this holiday's going to be so hard to control if this keeps happening to me. And it's getting more frequent.
As I stand there like an idiot, focusing my gaze on the black car behind the first, the world eventually stops moving and I blink rapidly a couple of times to clear my vision. And much to my relief nobody seems to have noticed as Tyler's comical shouts hit my ears. I giggle at him and Paige, the sound slightly out of relief as well as amusement before I wander over to the other black car. I hate the idea of having to split up but I guess we don't have much choice.
"Well if you get dibs on Paige I get dibs on a window seat!" Sticking my tongue out at the two and then flashing Noah, Brodie and Camilla a cheeky grin, I sling my bag into the boot of the car before slipping into the back and sliding up to the far seat by the window. I wouldn't want to miss this car journey's views for the world!