The sun was just beginning to set under the western horizon of Lake Tahoe, a calming burst of oranges, reds and yellows emanated by dual fireballs burning softly, one amongst the billowing, sherbet tinted clouds in the sky, and the other dancing upon the rippling surface of the sparkling waters of the lake. Birds were singing their afternoon songs, a daily ritual recalling the events of the day, the passing on of messages concerning where to find the crispest seeds, and how to pluck the freshest, juiciest worms from the soil on the forest floor.
For all the peace and tranquility surrounding him, Shane Hennessey was far from at peace. Alyssa Lockhart, the woman he would soon marry, had shouted him out the front door of his own house, cursing his stupidity for purchasing exactly the wrong pair of panties from the mall.
“I wanted Victoria’s Secret, not these... these… I don’t even know what to call these f*ing trash rags!” she bellowed, throwing the offending undergarments in his direction before storming into her room and slamming the door, the lock jangling noisily as she fumbled in trying to secure it in her unreasonable anger.
Instead of trying to console her as he often futilely did (and pointing out the fact that the item he had purchased was indeed a product of exalted VS), Shane had had enough of her relentless whining and decided to enjoy some fresh air on the spacious outdoor deck of his home. A small shot glass sat on a round wooden table next to him, the contents recently emptied to subdue the urge to break something into minuscule pieces.
He desired to escape from this nonsense, but he wasn’t sure how. His parents had disappeared on a three month long trip to Europe, leaving Shane alone to care for the house and “watch after” Alyssa, the bride to be that his mother had so “graciously” chosen for him.
“More like f*ing baby sit,” Shane grumbled out loud, slamming his open palm on the arm of the lounge chair in which he sat. The pain felt good – it helped to numb the frustration constantly bearing down on him. Once more he attacked the defenseless chair, this time clenching his fists tightly as he did so, the resulting blow splintering the soft polished wood.
Being a Friday afternoon, Shane would normally have had football practice, but his coach had put him on temporary suspension due to his rapidly developing drinking problem. “That f*ing bitch is ruining my f*ing football career,” he spat, picking up his glass and hurling it into the lake, the impact tossing water several feet into the air and disrupting the mesmerizing ballet of the sun’s reflection on the surface.
But Shane knew it was his own fault. Why couldn’t he just stand up to Alyssa, or to his parents, for that matter? Why’d he have to be such a f*ing idiot? He supposed there once was a time that he really loved the girl, but back then, she had purposefully concealed her true colors. Because he was so gullible, and because she had thoroughly convinced him that she truly had love for him, she used his weakness to her advantage and slithered her way into his parents’ favor, essentially becoming virtually untouchable. Shane had discovered in the worst way that all she wanted was his money, or his parents’ money, rather.
This, among other inexplicable, confusing emotions beginning to simmer agonizingly within him, led Shane to contact his long time childhood friend, Manny Kildriech, and invite him to a round of drinks at Turner’s Bar & Dance Club, a friendly neighborhood lounge on 10th Avenue. The conversation was admittedly a bit awkward; he hadn’t talked to Manny for nearly 3 months, but hearing his friend’s voice had cheered him up considerably, and he was looking forward to spending some time with him.
Ignoring Alyssa’s screeching coming from the den, a terrible sound that frightened a flock of birds to flight, Shane reentered the house and went to his room, cursing softly as he nearly slipped on the discarded pair of underwear on the way. Shane’s room was typically messy – football gear lay strewn about the wooden floor; his school helmet, two unwashed uniforms, shoulder pads, cups and jockstraps, socks, and his pair of shoes, all unmoved since he was suspended from the football team. The bed sat unmade, sheets and bedspread bundled together in a messy heap, and the closet looked as if it had vomited its contents onto the navy blue area rug lying in front of it.
Shane examined himself in the square mirror perched on top of his mahogany dresser, noticing a faint stubble that had grown on his chin and subsequently crawled up his cheeks since the day before. Not having enough time to shave, he changed into a baby blue long sleeve front buttoned shirt, a pair of crisp white khakis, removed his gold engagement ring (with a smirk), and put on his favorite black cap. After a few squirts of Ralph Lauren Double Black, he checked his reflection one last time, grabbed his brown leather jacket and snuck quietly out the front door.
Instead of getting into his Lamborghini, he decided to take the short leisurely stroll down West Lake Boulevard, making the right onto 10th Avenue after cheerfully greeting a pair of his female classmates. The bright, slightly gaudy neon sign outside of Turner’s – a depiction of a scantily clad woman holding a martini topped with a bright green olive – flashed on an off, the club’s subtle notification that it was Happy Hour.
Because it was still early, the interior was nearly empty. The dark entrance way lead straight into the main room, a comfortable space with leather couches in intimate booths, a large dance floor featuring a platform for the DJ, and a full service bar at the back. Instead of taking his usual seat at the counter, Shane sat at the booth closest to the bar, a nice private space with soft lightning from the flickering candles serving as the centerpiece.
“How’s it goin’, Shay Shay?” a silky voice said from behind the counter. The slender, smiling bartender had coined the playful nickname for Shane, something that was a bit of an embarrassment when he was with his college buddies.
“Alright, Rick. Doing alright,” Shane responded, trying his best to smile convincingly.
“Why so far away? Don’t care to keep me company today?”
“Nah, I’ve got a friend coming. Need a place we can just talk, tha’s all.”
Rick the bartender grinned suggestively. “So, a lady friend, is it? Did you finally take my advice and dump that tramp, Alyssa?”
Shane laughed. “Nah, no f*ing way. Just an old friend I invited for drinks. F*k, wouldn’t mind, though,” he sighed, taking his cell phone out of his pocket in case Manny called.
“Well, just mosey on over if you get lonely, Shay Shay. Care for your usual?”
“Yeah, thanks Rick,” Shane replied, resting his head in his hands while he waited for his friend to arrive…
~*~
Shane's call had been quite unexpected. It had been monthes since the two had last spoke to each other, but Manny was happy to hear from his old friend. It was a rather brief, awkward conversation, but Manny could sense something was badley wrong. He accepted Shane's invitation to Turner's in a heartbeat. He would find out was wrong then, when the pair talked to face to face.
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Manny pulled his t-shirt roughly over his head and examined himself in the mirror. His hair looked a bit scruffy in an oddly attractive sort of way; He had that just-out-of-bed look that so many strived for without even trying. He was wearing a tight fitting black t-shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. He was a long limbed, wiry sort of person, so his choice of clothing suited him perfectly. Happy with his overall appearance, Manny headed for the door and slipped on his shoes: a worn pair of high tops that desperatly needed a bath.
Before leaving, Manny grabbed his keys and wallet off the hallway table, checking his wallet before placing it in his back pocket. He had about fifty dollars in cash on him, which would be more than enough for his little visit downtown. With that he headed out the door, making sure it was securely locked before making his way to the parking lot.
Manny drove a simple little black car. It was an ancient Cutlass and looked more like something a senior citizen should be driving. Perhaps it wasn't the prettiest damn thing on the road, but it was reliable.
He pulled up outside the club about ten minutes after Shane had arrived. It was early so he had no trouble finding a parking place. He checked his watch as he stepped inside the club, wondering if his friend had made it here before he did. Manny glanced at the bar. No Shane there. He probably decided on a booth...
~*~
The waitress on duty, a beautiful young woman named Victoria, picked up the Mojito, a sprig of fresh mint hanging off the rim, and walked it over to Shane’s booth, a graceful and elegant rhythm in her steps.
“Hi, Shane,” she greeted, placing the glass on the table. “How are you?” She swished aside a strand of jet black hair that had fallen across her face, and draped it over her left ear.
“Been better, Vic,” Shane replied, enjoying a sip of his drink. “Bitch at home f*ing up my life.”
Victoria shook her head pitifully and touched Shane gently on the shoulder. “Are you still with Alyssa? What are you thinking, Shane? You’re a big boy, you can make your own choices, you know.”
Shane grunted in response, removed a $10 bill from his wallet, and shoved it into Victoria hand. Knowing that the subject was closed, Victoria took the money and strutted back to the counter, her heels clicking noisily. She quickly exchanged hushed words with the bartender before moving on to her next table, and Rick gazed concernedly in Shane’s direction while wiping down a pitcher.
After a few minutes of gazing absentmindedly at a group of obviously underage teenage boys undergoing an interrogation at the entrance by the bouncer, Shane heard the telltale sound of Manny’s ancient vehicle pulling into the parking lot. When Manny walked through the front door (the group of would be law breakers eying him with jealousy), Shane jumped up and hailed his friend over to his booth.
“’Sup, Manny,” Shane greeted happily, grasping his friend’s hand and shaking it roughly before sitting down. Something about Manny had always made him smile, whether it was the haphazard way his friend’s hair managed to fall into place despite not being combed, the rugged wardrobe that included jeans and figure hugging t-shirts (something that Shane was reluctant to wear despite his athletic figure), or his eccentric choice in footwear and accessories.
“What would you like?” Shane jumped nervously when Victoria spoke, not having noticed her arrival. “What was that, Shane?” she asked with a polite giggle.
“Whatever you get, it’s on me,” Shane insisted to Manny, ignoring Victoria’s question, and placed a pair of $20 bills on the table.
“So, tell me how you’ve been. You already know the sh*t tha’s goin’ on with me. Same old crap from the same old bitch. Man, I so need you right now,” he admitted, though he wished he had used a different choice of words as his ears turned a bright red. “Not like that, you know,” he added quickly, covering both his ears with his hands.
“F*k, Manny. Don’t know why I’m so f*ing stupid,” he continued after a moment of recovery. “Being alone with Alyssa for three months is gonna f*in’ kill me, sh*t,” he swore, taking a large gulp of his Mojito, the burning in his throat soothing.
~*~
"Hey, man!" Manny greeted, taking the seat across from his friend in the booth. The dark circles under Shane's eyes didn't escape his attention. Maybe Alyssa was finally starting to wear the poor guy down?
“What would you like?”
Manny looked up at the pretty waitress and smiled, though Shane seemed startled by her sudden arrival. "A bloody mary for me, if you don't mind." He didn't fight his friend's insistance on paying. Manny knew it was a battle he couldn't win -- no matter how stubborn he was.
With a nod, the waitress strolled off to get his drink, leaving the pair of them alone.
“So, tell me how you’ve been. You already know the sh*t tha’s goin’ on with me. Same old crap from the same old bitch. Man, I so need you right now,” he admitted, though he wished he had used a different choice of words as his ears turned a bright red. “Not like that, you know,” he added quickly, covering both his ears with his hands.
“F*k, Manny. Don’t know why I’m so f*ing stupid,” he continued after a moment of recovery. “Being alone with Alyssa for three months is gonna f*in’ kill me, sh*t,” he swore, taking a large gulp of his Mojito, the burning in his throat soothing.
There it was. Of course he was still with Alyssa. Manny just didn't understand why on earth Shane allowed himself to be pushed around by that selfish woman. It was obvious she could care less about Shane. Just so long as she could leech off the wealth of his family, nothing else mattered. Manny had always hated her from the start. She always put on that innocent little smile, but Manny always so through her act. Her eyes and snide little remarks told him everything. Despite all his warnings, the two had stayed together even after they both graduated from high school. And when their engagement was announced, Manny had been absolutely dumbstruck.
What was keeping Shane from just breaking it off?!
"Same old same for me as well. College and such. You know how it goes."
"And its nice to talk to you again. It really is. You know you can call me anytime you need me." He couldn't help but smirk a little at Shane's ever so slightly homophobic interjection, but for the most part he just shrugged it off. Me thinks the lady doth protest to much. He held back his little jest and continued on with the conversation.
"But really, the whole Alyssa thing! Just end it, for fuck's sake!" He growled, trying to stear things back to If you're going around saying things like that about the woman you're supposed to be marrying then you obviously don't want to be with her. You never really have. She's a repugnant, selfish person and you know it."
~*~
"But really, the whole Alyssa thing! Just end it, for f*k's sake!"
“Ah, you don’t understand my f*ing parents, Manny,” Shane responded, exasperatedly rubbing his forehead with both hands. “If you were threatened to be cut off from all of your money for the rest of your f*ing life if you broke up with a girl, wouldn’t you be sh*ttin’ your pants about it?”
Shane was happy that Manny was there with him, despite the spouting of the same advice that all of his other friends had been giving him – just break it off. It seemed logical enough – dump the bitch and tell her to f*k off, but there were other factors, other troubling financial factors, weighing Shane down. But was all that money really worth this misery? Was having a good relationship with his parents worth it, either? Was he just thinking too f*ing much?
“To tell you the f*ing truth, Manny, I don’t know why the hell I’m still with her. Sh*t, I must seem like a f*ing dumbass to you,” Shane said, taking another gulp of his drink.
“Hey Vic, can you fill me up?” Shane asked the waitress as she flitted by, her tray half full of empty glasses.
“Alright, Shane. Be right back,” she assented, picking up his glass and adding it to the tray. She beamed when he handed her another $10 without asking for change, and he smiled warmly in return. If there was anything Shane was good at, it was giving away his money to people who needed it, although that was exactly the kind of charity that his father didn’t take too kindly to.
Shane sat silently for a few minutes, staring blankly at a piece of white lint on the front of Manny’s shirt, mulling things over in his head. “What do you think I should do, Manny?” Shane asked of his friend, downing nearly all of his drink in one breathless gulp.
An idea suddenly came to him, but he wasn’t sure if Manny would be amicable to it. Hell, he knew Alyssa wouldn’t like it, and she’d likely blab to his parents, but maybe if he talked to them first…
“How’d you like to stay at my place for awhile?” Shane blurted out. “I could use the company, and we can just hang together, like when we were kids. Just for a few days, so I can have someone to talk to besides that f*ing bitch.”
~*~
The waitress sat Manny's drink down on the table as she took away Shane's empty glass. He took a grateful sip of his drink as he listened to his old friend talk.
Money.
Hadn't Shane ever thought of getting out on his own? He could get a job and start saving. It really was a terrible though - having to give up all that money! But Manny liked to think there were more important things than that. Shane was miserable as things were, being poor for awhile wouldn't hurt him would it? Things would be tough, but it was doable. Manny wouldn't even mind sharing his apartment with his friend until he got things together. Wouldn't that be better than living with that woman? Manny was able to deal with living on his own... so why couldn't Shane? He wasn't that much of a spoiled rich kid was he?
Before Manny could make his suggestion, Shane blurted out, “How’d you like to stay at my place for awhile?”
That certainly wasn't going to fix things, but at least it would give his friend a little bit of releif. Manny couldn't help but cringe at the thought of having to live with Alyssa for any length of time. Even if it was for just a few days.
"Alyssa probably won't appreciate that... and you know I can't stand her. I'll end up snapping on her. What about my place? Its not a big apartment, but it's cozy. Really, its up to you though," Manny offered, pulling the celery stalk from his drink and taking a big bite.
~*~
"Alyssa probably won't appreciate that... and you know I can't stand her. I'll end up snapping on her. What about my place? It’s not a big apartment, but it's cozy. Really, it’s up to you though.”
There was a lot of noise and motion coming from the dance floor, now reasonably packed with people dancing to the spinning of a local DJ named WHI-TE. Shane flagged down Victoria for another refill, and he noticed two other waitresses had joined her in serving the customers, Bianca and Tiffany, two girls that cheered for his college football team, and they both gave him a playful wink as they moved between tables. Shane downed the glass that Victoria brought in one gulp, determined to maintain the warm buzz he had so effectively established.
“Stay at your place? F*k, would be nice to get outta the house,” Shane said, wiping his lips on his sleeve. “Sh*t, you know what, Manny? That would be really f*ing nice. Can I go with you tonight, right after this? I say f*k it, I’m not even going to go home and pick up nothin’.”
Feeling a renewed sense of… well, a renewed sense of something, Shane stood up forcefully and slammed his thighs on the table, the resulting jolt knocking his glass to the floor. The area rug below the table prevented any shattering, although Shane did receive a slightly reproachful look from Rick.
“Sorry,” Shane said loudly, and Rick couldn’t help but smile broadly back.
“No worries, Shay Shay. No harm done,” he replied. “Are you alright?”
“Fine, fine. Hey, Rick, can you do me a big f*ing favor? Can you take care of my bike for a few days? I’m leaving town for a little bit and I’m not going home first.”
“Oh, may I ask where you’re going?”
“To my friend’s place. More importantly, away from f*ing Alyssa.”
Rick smiled. “Good for you.”
As Shane walked back towards the table, he nearly stumbled and grabbed onto Manny’s shoulder to prevent himself from falling headfirst into the corner of the table. “Sh*t, tha’s what I get for not eating anything first. I’m so f*ing ready to go. Can we get outta here, Manny?”
Victoria had come back to the counter and saw Shane almost topple over. “That boy really can’t hold his liquor too well, can he?” she chuckled to Rick, who smiled in response.
“Yes, he’s quite the character, that Shane. It’s too bad he can be such a knucklehead sometimes,” Rick replied, skillfully assembling a Lava Flow as he spoke.
“It looks like they’re leaving. I’m going to say my goodbyes.” He placed the Lava Flow on Tiffany’s tray, opened the counter flap, and walked over to Shane’s booth.
“Hi. Manny, right? I must say that I’m rather jealous of you. Taking a drunken Shane home with me has always been a dream of mine,” he said playfully, winking at Manny. “But in all seriousness, please take care of him. The poor boy has been having a lot problems lately, and I don’t think he has much emotional strength left.”
“What are you talkin’ about?” Shane sputtered, obviously more than a little tipsy.
Rick laughed and steadied Shane by firmly grasping his elbow. “None of your concern, Shay Shay. I think you’ve had enough. No more for you, now. Manny, you can drive him to wherever he needs to go, I assume? You seem much more level headed than he does, at the moment. You might have to walk him to your car, unless you want him to fall and scrape his knees.”
~*~
To have loved and lost is better than never having loved at all...