- Timeskip to the meeting -

Christan was sitting in a seperate room waiting to see Lucas, Danni had called him a few nights before to determine a set date for them to meet. If he was onest Christan had been putting off seeing him because he had heard how bad he had become over time. Wipping his hands on his trousers as they started to sweat.

Lucas was slowly walking down the corridor his hand latched onto Danni's hand tightly. "Y-your going to be t-t-there to...i-i- i don't think i want to b-be alone." He mumbled quietly as they came to the visitation room. Lucas was nervous and scared something which was part of the norm here.

Lucas watched as Danni wallked to a chair at the other end of the room. His head turned back to his dad as he asked him how he was. Looking down at the floor he opened his mouth slightly shaking his head quickly he ran his hand over his hair, groaning to himself. "Not safe.N-not s-safe...no" he hissed through his teeth folding his arms tightly burying his chin into his chest.

Christan watched with sadend eyes as he saw how the shadow of a son he used to have reacted to him. " what does he mean 'not safe' does he mean me?" he asked turning to Danni.

Christan nodded slowly. Looking at Lucas he forced a smile on his lips.

Lucas watched Danni as she reasured him about his dad, but he still wasn't sure.

"Danni's right Lucas i did come to see how you are and don't worry i am safe" he said softly reaching over he placed his hand on Lucas's knee softly.

Lucas froze as his dad touched him moaning to himself. His hands started to tremble then the chain reaction started, he got up quickly that chair he was sitting on fell back crashing to the floor, tipping the table over that was next to them. Running his hand through his hair he mumbled loudly walking around the room he groaned loudly throwing himself against the wall he slid down it tears streaming down him cheeks. he clamped his hand on his head " not safe, no-ones safe. No no no."

-timeskip-

"Lucas come on you got to eat something" a nurse pushed holding out the fork with a small bit of food on it to him. Lucas pushed the fork away groaning lightly. "Now i know you don't at like this for Danni but you know its her morning off today and she deserves it, now come on stop being silly" Lucas still refused pushing away the plate. "Fine then we try again later but, your going to eat sooner or later Lucas" the nurse sighed heavily picking the plate up along with the cutlelry.
Lucas folded his arms tightly, averting his gaze away from the nurse who had spent the last 45 minutes trying to force him to eat something, she was new and he didn't trust her one bit. His weight was still dangerously low but it wasnt smart to force him to eat it was the case of letting him eat on his own. Even if he had trouble eating and feeding himself.

"I dont know what to do with him" she said to a second nurse outside the room.
"I know how you feel you have to take it slow with him he has to gain trust in you before he'll let you give him anything. Otherwise he'll just freeze and deem you as 'not safe' " she replied.
"I wonder if anything gets through to him, and what on earth does he mean by 'not safe' " she responded nodding back towards the room.
"He blocks most of it out that why he acts like he does he doesnt like contact or a lot of things. He so dependent on us to do things for him he just like a child. scared and alone. Danni should be back soon so she may be able to sort him out or is just one of his bad days. The 'not safe' thing were not really sure about but we think its something inside his head that is triggered when he's given a new situation which he thinks is dangerous, the same when someone new is introduced to him and they either say the wrong thing or approached him in a way that scares the life out of him."
"Couldnt it be something to do with how much sleep he's getting? or even the eating if he continues not eating he knows he'll be put on a drip which no one here likes" the nurse asked
"I dont think so but we record the sleep patterns of each patient to see if there's a physical way for the way they act. and Lucas's sleep pattern's are strange.." she stopped talking as she pulled out a a chart with different lines " When he first came here he was sleeping close to the normal 7 or 8 hours but then as the months went on they dropped down to only 3 hours of sleep as you can see the frequent gaps are where he has gotten no sleep at all. So we think part of its to do with his sleep but it doesnt seem to bother him. The eating is something that's always been a problem, first it was just stubbourness then he claimed he just wasnt hungry, some days he wants to eat other days he'll just plain refuse. Holding a knife and fork was something we also had to work on, you've probably seen when he eats he holds his fork in a Palmer grasp when the whole hand grasps over the utensil, he should really be holding it with a Tripod grasp which involves the thumb and first two fingers which is similar to the way you'd hold a pen. But when he tries to use the Tripod grasp the fork would go all over the place and fall out of his hands. We've tried showing him placing his fingers the right way but nothing seems to work so the Palmer grasp is what he's most comfortable with you'll probably see that with some of the other paitents " the nurse said sighing to herself.
"What does his father say about him?" the nurse questioned.
"well his dad only came to see him yesterday the first time in two years since he came here, and that didn't really go well. Lucas hardly recognised him and vise versa and then he flipped out, completely trashed the room and broke down into a sobbing wreck in the corner. I think his father just couldnt handle seeing his son like this. I mean if your son turned into a paraniod, untrusting, rambling wreck would you want to see him?"
"I suppose not no"
"I thought so"
"Has he been with the other paitents at all?"
"Thats yet another problem he doesn't like crowds. i.e: to many people crowding him at once makes him feel insecure about everything, he either breaks down or lashes out at them and even us from time to time. So we keep him away for his own safety as well as the other paitents we have tried to get him to interact with the other paitent but he's just shut them out"

Lucas stared at a spot on the wall, walking towards it he watched it carefully placing his hand on it he dragged his fingers lightly down the cold wall amazed at the beam of sunlight sprayed through the windows to the wall. When the mark slowly faded away Lucas slid down the wall landing on the floor with a soft bump he rubbed his hands together quickly raising his hand up to his mouth he put his thumb into his mouth chewing it absentmindedly kind of like a child who was teething, not really applying any pressure but making samll indents with the teeth. Lucas kept his eyes fixated on the opposite wall it was something to watch in case it suddenly came closing in on him. Turning into the wall tightly he wrapped his free arm around his legs as they were pulled into his chest protectivly as a comfort and a sheild againsts everything else.

(WOW i got bit carried away with that post, best one ive done whooo!)

Lucas looked up as Danni walked in with a sandwhich, he listened to her as she spoke "Not..H-hungry" he mumbled rubbing his hand together slowly.

"D-Danni...im starting to...remember things..." He began before looking around the room quickly then he looked at Danni. " Did..did i die Danni?... i had a dream and all i can hear is...s-screaming a-and a single gunshot" he said his one hand shaking the other resting on his head.

Lucas wrapped his arms around Danni tightly finnaly letting out a few quiet sobs every now and then. She had spoken fairly quickly and he didnt really catch or understand watch she was saying.

Groaning ligtly his body trembled as Danni held him, he was still getting used to people touching him. Some days he didn't want to be touched other days he didnt mind. His mind went over what Danni had said about him dying and becoming someone else even theough he was the same person as before.

Lucas looked around Danni house as he was led into her living room. His eyes darted around the room as she rooted round a bag. His attention was brought back when Danni spoke again holding up a picture to him. Shuffling closer to the picture Lucas pointed to himself then at Danni. "T-Thats me ...a-and you. was it...? i don't know Danni...i-i cant remember" He said looking down in defeat. He wanted to remember but he couldnt.

Folding his arms tightly he looked around the room with a mix of fear and curiosity.

Lucas looked away as Rick spoke words to him, scrucnhing his eyes up tightly he moaned queitly trying to get away but he was rooted to the spot. Then something played in his head.

His brother Aiden shouting at him and beating him just for being with Danni. Opening his eyes the flashback had only been for a few seconds but it felt so real, so painfull Looking at Danni and then a Rick quickly. Lucas felt this burning anger build up from his chest out towards his hands glncing down e could she they were shaking.

It only happened in a split second but the build up to Lucas's next move was seemingly well planned out. He leapt from the sofa tackling Rick to the floor holding onto him. It was obvious that Rick was much bigger than Lucas and he could easily throw him off and quite literally killed right there.

Lucas nodded quietly he averted his gaze to the floor. His chest felt tight as she held him. Twisting his body he broke from her grip and walked slowly to the sofa. Sitting down on the sofa Lucas curled his knees to his chest and folded his arms around himself, lifting his hand up he began chewing on his hand softly his eyes francticly searching the room.

((Yeah its short shoot me then))

-At Lucas's house -

Lucas groaned softly as his eyes opened grogily. Sitting up it took him a while to register where he was. Peeling the duvet of himself Lucas sat there for a while just thinking. He could remember going to sleep but he didn't feel like he had slept at all. Swingning his legs over the bed he looked around the room.Hisroom. Poster covered most of the walls and cd rack stood overflowed with too many cd's that most of them were piled either next to or on top of it.

Standing up slowly he walked over to the wardrobe swinging open the doors Lucas looked at all the different clothes he owned. Dragging his finger across the material he picked out a pair of skinny jeans and a black t-shirt. Walking to his bathroom Lucas walked toawrds the mirror. Staring at the complete thin stranger infront of him he placed his hand on the cool glass. "Is that really me?" he mumbled to himself, running a hand through his hair he sighed to himself it had become increasinly greasy and knotty due to the fact that he hadn't let anyone get close enough to him to wash his hair.

Stepping into the shower he gasped a quick breathas the water first drew cold then became warmer, washing his hair about 3 times repeatedly he steeped out quickly. Quickly towel drying his hair then giving it a quick blast with the hairdryer Lucas got dressed quickly and headed back to his room.

Sitting back down on the bed Lucas noticed two lips rings on the bedside table along with a black and white ear stretcher. Picking up one of the lip rings lucas brought it to his lips, Taking a deep breath and then closing his eyes he drove the shapr metal spike through his lips, letting out a deep groan afterwards. Repeating the action with the second lips ring Lucas wiped the blood of his lip. Sniffing slightly he closed his eyes as the scent of blood tazed his nostrils.

Making a desicon as to leave putting the ear stretcher in at the present time, Lucas walked out of his room going down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"Morning Luc. Do you want some breakfast?" A voice cut in behind him.
Looking up Lucas saw his dad standing on the otherside of the kitchen holding a pan with scrambled eggs inside.
Lucas nodded quickly sitting down on a stool.

- and after breakfast -

Lucas sat in the living room watching the televiosion with complete fasination, it was strange seeing things as normal again it would still take him some getting used to.