My Persistent Friend

My puncuation is off, there might be grammatical errors, and I might have missed typos......the structure is not meant to be proper, this just poured out of me right now so it is what it is....

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My Persistent Friend

Here we are again,
My persistent and adversarial friend,
Who truly isn't a friend,
But Iets not pretend,

We can't quite stay away from one another,
As soon as things look better, again you begin to smother,
My every thought, My every move
Despite my desire, you're completely ingrooved,

Leave me be, let me go, let me cope, let me heal
I wish to break free from this emotional pinwheel
I don't want to go, I really do want to stay
Though I'm finding it harder with each and every day

Who would care if go, who really wants me to stay
I don't think I matter much to anyone these days
So here we are again, my persistent and adversarial friend,
My mental state has deteriorated into you again,

I tell you all no, I'll never give in
But In reality I'm scared I just can't win
See my friend is persistent, and I don't have the cure
To fight where he's pushing me more and more

My current state is pure hell,
I'm in my own mental jail,
My thoughts is my friend,
And my life it wants to end

I'm starting to question why I fight
Why I persist every night,
Is it destined, should I just quit
My friend says why deal with any of it,

But despite how close we are, we can never quite agree
Though my friend wants me dead, I just want to be free
I want to be loved, I want to liked
I want to be happy, I don't want to die

So here we are again,
My persistent and adversarial friend,
But lets not pretend,
You truly aren't a friend.

You're the wolf in sheeps clothing, you don't want me to try
But I don't wanna give up , I don't want to die
My struggle is hard, especially alone
But I will beat my friend, even if on my own

Because if I have nobody, I have no choice
I'll keep fighting my friend, he'll never steal my voice
So here we are again,
My persistent and adversarial friend,
I hate to break it to you,
but I can't let you win.