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N A M E
James Castiel Baylee Whitman
N I C K N A M E (S)
Cass | Common | Preferred
Cassie | Common | Unliked
James | Common | Hates
B I R T H D A Y & A G E
April 1st | Seventeen
S E X U A L I T Y
Closeted Bisexual ( Heavily Prefers Men )
E T H N I C I T Y
25% Danish | 25% Irish | 50% German
H E X
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S T Y L E
Not caring for a physical appearance, he leaves his hair as it it when he wakes up. With minor raking through it, and he simply throws on whatever aesthetically pleases him. Which, might involve something he has monikered "floor fashion chic". Often throwing on flannels with blue coloring, and ripped jeans. He dresses to defy his parents in the only way he is sure he can without too-much trouble. He seems to always carrie a pair of headphones, due to his love of music.
H E I G H T & W E I G H T
5'7" | 142lbs.
A P P E A R A N C E
A smile is often his accessory, to hide the feelings he has within. His hair is dark brown colored, that ge keeps brushed back (when it is brushed) to avoid the curly mop he calls hair covering his eyes. Whiskey colored eyes, that showcase all of his emotions. Changing the shade and tones within each emotion's range. A childish face, that often is the blunt of his own jokes. His skin is a fairly light peach, capable of showing blushes of the faintest color. His face and shoulders sparsely covered in freckles, that resemble constellations.
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L I K E S
Within obvious reason, Cass is a big fan of comedy, reflected in his personality and daily life. He is always making jokes or sarcastic comments. He has a seemingly fond interest in making music, aspiring to be like great comedic singers such as Bo Burnham. White flowers have always been a favorite of his, since his older brother brought him some, when he did his first comedic performance. Singing even if offkey, has always been a favorite of Cass's, he loves feeling his emotions rise through his voice with every inflection. Castiel feels a person's eyes can tell so much about them, without words. Among other things Cass likes, dancing, playing piano, people who are confident about themselves, and the color green.
D I S L I K E S
Hyprocrites, like his mother seem to spark rage within the child. He doesn't seem to like cherry-flavored anything, refusing to consume it. Religion has never been his thing, since he saw through most people being hypocritical liars. Being restrained by his parents creates an eternal discomfort inside of Cass, which he uses as his comedic nature. His parents in general, Cass has never seemed to get along with. They are always judging with the holier than thou vibe that the often give off. He simply hates himself, in terms of he's insecure and feels like he's not living up to his potential. Others things that fall under Cass's dislikes are, whole milk, spicy foods, bullies, and heights.
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Humorous | Insecure | Kind | Passionate | Protective
Rarely seen without a smile upon his face, Cass is a kind and humorous soul. Cracking jokes or sarcastic comments towards, well anyone really, he enjoys being the focus of attention. Becaus if he has an audience, it's harder for him to focus on himself....right? He seems to find solace in being the "class clown" because it gives him a more healthier way to vent. Although, such as anyone with insecurities, when he is with close friends he makes self deprecating jokes about himself.
A child who hates his own skin, from the constant influence of a religious upbringing, Cass feels so uncomfortable with who he is. While not being a religious person, he feels like, he's lying to himself. He's harming himself for not being open, and saying "hey I fucking like guys". He's not as confident with his sexuality, because he feels like "it's a mistake" not him, he couldn't be.
However, throughout the insecurities, is a kind person. He's always willing to help others, even if they are complete and utter jerks, he feels everyone deserves that chance to show their true person. Never tell Cass he can't do something. He will use his passion to prove you wrong. He hates it when people tell him what he can't do, or won't succeed at. He's a protective person, over his friends, over his brothers. In fact, most of the fights he and his parents get into are about his older brother. He doesn't think they should treat him in such a manner.
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Judas Whitman | Father | 44 | Pastor/Writer
xx In general, Cass has a very tumultous relationship with his parents. His father, is much less infuriating than his mother, but he does constantly spark Cass's nerves. Never calling him by his preferred name, and calling him James, the two seem to have a misunderstanding. While. Judas wants the best for his son, he wants him to follow the path of Christ, and be pure. He doesn't want yet another, sinner as a son.
Mary Whitman (nee. Green) | Mother | 42 | Worship Singer/Real-Estate Agent
xx Ahh, have you heard the saying Mother knows best? Well, Cass has, and he greatly disagrees with such a statement. He views his mother as a selfish, and drama obsessed hyprocrite. His mother finds anyway to make herself seem like the victim, and nobody seems to notice it except her sons. Her husband is so blindly obssessed with it, he doesn't see that his own wife is having an affair on him. He feels like his mother is the worst type of person. She lies, and cheats, and pretends she's all holy in the eyes of the lord. For this is the reason, Cass isn't fond of religion.
Michael Whitman | Elder Brother | 20 | Actor/Dancer
xx Cass's closest bond lies within his elder brother, only three years older than him, the male has been there for him when most haven't. His brother came out three years ago, when he himself was a sophomore in high-school, and his parents kicked him out. The completely disowned them, and wouldn't allow Cass to really see him. But Cass never stopped talking to his brother, he's the one person he knows he can go to. After seeing his brother beaten by his father in a drunken rage, because he was gay, and his brother still tried to form a bond? Cass views his brother as a hero. His one person to look up to.
Gabriel Whitman | Younger Brother | 13 | Student
xx Adam and Cass, until recently were more acquaintances than they were brothers. In a sense, Cass tried to help his brother and watch over him, but his brother was never really accepting of it. But when Adam came to him about his own admission to kissing another boy, Cass immediately stepped into the role of the older brother. He told his brother not to worry, he wouldn't tell. He told his brother, that he had kissed another boy before (not fully admitting his attraction ) and they have been close ever since.
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H I S T O R Y
In the beginning, Mary and Judas loved each other very much. Being high-school sweethearts, who both followed under the the path of god, were very much in love. They both vehemently believed in the bible, and waited until they were out of high-school and got married. Shockingly a few years after their marriage, they were blessed with a baby boy. Michael Zachariah Whitman, they're pride and joy under all that "god owned". Three years after they gave birth to another boy, who is the focal point of our story.
Growing up, Cass was the middle child. He was the exact definition of a middle child, his parents rarely paid attention to him. Though, his older brother did, and they formed a tight bond. Cass as a child, was incapable of staying still. His focus was all over the place, his parents firmly believed he had some mental issuses, that the Lord challenged them with. Evenetually, he was diagnosed with ADHD and was put on medication. His mother put him in piano and singing lessons, because though it was a "girlish" thing in his father's words, all men should be able to sing the Lord's hymns. Unknowingly to their three children, Mary and Judas's marriage slowly fell apart. At least in a one-sided manner, it did.
As children of a pastor, Cass and his brothers were always perfect examples. Though, his older brother acted out in some ways. Cass channeled his feeling into comedy, becoming a talented little comedian. In youth group, he'd tell jokes (non-offensive ones) related to the religion or current topic. Making him well-liked among his church peers. He loved the center of attention, and Zachariah loved to encourage him. He loved seeing his brother do the things he loved, his bravery. So when Cass turned thirteen, Zachariah came out to him. Now, Castiel didn't understand it. He assumed that people were supposed to love everyone, so he brought up the subject with his parents and it turned into a warzone. His parents went off on tangents, and Castiel soon became afraid of even thinking. At this time, he had noticed that he liked other boys a bit more. But by his parent's rules, he forced himself to date girls.
When he started high school, his brother had gained the courage to come out of the closet to his family. The backlash was hurtful, and Zachariah was sent to live on the streets for all his parents could care. This seemed to even further the fact that Castiel could not be gay. He couldn't even look at boys the same way as he did girls. When he became a sophomore, he went to his mother's office and saw her and some man getting together intimately. Recognizing the man, as one of his classmate's father, he kept shut. But since then, he tried progressing his inner pain and his insecurities through comedy. Eventually being called the "class clown" he sort of assumes, everyone exepcts him to be funny. He can't focus on himself. He wont.
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T A L E N T S
Singing, though he sometimes refuses to acknowledge it, Cass is a very talented singer. Having been professionally trained, he's also talented at playing piano, guitar, and drums. Comedy has always been a talent for Cass, he can lighten the mood from the dark mysteries of life, and he loves to do it. He's a good listener, even though unable to handle his own issues. Cass seems to be very good at handling his friends' problems. He doesn't really see issues with such a thing because it distracts him from himself. Cass is a somewhat theater nerd, and often takes part in the school plays every spring. Something about it just makes him happy, and feel more connected to his brother.
W E A K N E S S E S
Even a mortal has weaknesses, and a jester like Cass is no exception. His own problems, Cass refuses to talk about them. He keeps his entire emotional state bottled up, and leaks out in small self-deprecating jokes. While comedy is a talent. Sarcasmis not, it's always been his quickest defense mechanism leaving him with black-eyes from time to time. While Cass may wish he's a rebellious child, he simply isn't,his parent's orders are final. He has trouble defending himself, either in ways of being bullied or just in general. Cass doesn't see the use. However, his biggest weakness of all are his insecurities, one day they may change his entire life. The may throw him down a path, he doesn't wish to live.
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