Mamimi K.
To be blunt Cazuki, i'd say get over being dumped, realize you need a roof over your head, and dedicate every waking hour to finding a job.
Everyone has the right to sit with their misery for a moment and/or grieve a lost, but at some point, like being homeless, you have to just..........get over it.
I was cheated on and dumped before, lost every thing from my childhood - including pictures, had to bust my ass for a job to help my mum with things at 14....i've also experienced being jobless. Hell, i have a job now and still can't afford things others take for granted, such as cellphones, because i'm busy paying for rent, food, and school things.
But anyways, i'll tell you now, you will NOT find a job, and subsequently a place to stay, by wallowing in your guilt for a prolonged period of time. When i lost my job at a pharmacy a few years back, i would walk the streets EVERY SINGLE DAY, until i found a job. And i didn't just put in applications or sit down for interviews, at places i liked. I've never been paid minimum wage in my life. I was lucky as hell to start off above Min. wage, and i'm far above it now...........but when i was jobless, i still applied for min. wage jobs.......flipping burgers, cleaning gyms, etc........of course i didn't WANT those jobs, but i applied any freakin ways, because i knew ANYTHING was better than NOTHING. So first things first, wipe any sense of "i'm too good for that" off your shoulders, and second, get you a nice cute outfit, some comfy shoes/heels, and get to marching![or driving lol] ONLY filling out apps online is useless........you have a better shot at getting job if you go in and introduce yourself face to face!
You can't just sit around feeling bad for yourself and expect much to change........and you SURE as hell can't do so over something like being dumped. Do you really think your ex is sitting around wasting their time feeling all down? No! So don't let them ruin your days, and disrupt your life! You were put on Earth to live for yourself, not others.......and if you're in America, you're blessed to have a lot of freakin options, so get off your bum and get to job hunting![which yes, might feel like job in and of itself!]
That should definitely be the first thing hun...........get yourself straight financially, and get a roof over your head.......even if it's a little room in a boarding house, and THEN worry about romance. I've been single for over a year, it's not fun - i know. [especially when all your friends are in long term relationships and are all over each other non-stop! rofl]........but it's the furthest thing from the end of the world.
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Now, to the topic......
Life, i believe, is worth living because it's a rare gem you're likely to never get again. Sure, who am i to say something such as reincarnation, is a myth.......i don't know. But by all reasonable expectations, you've got one shot at life, which is something absolutely amazing......so why waste it?.
Now to me, my reason for living can largely be found in my family and aspirations for the future. I have high hopes.....and dreams.......that i'd like to see if i could live out, in a nation that i know will give me every fair chance to reach them! I have a family that the word awesome just doesn't cover, they're amazing and awesome times infinity and beyond!![lol] I come from multiple cultures, and therefore have multiple points of views and traditions all around me......but the one thing that surrounds them ALL, is LOVE.
And the ability to feel that love for decades to come, to strive for my highest dreams, and to then hopefully pass that love an ability to dream down to my own children one day..........well that's my reason for finding life worth living.
And on a much grander scale, in an odd way, i think those of us lucky enough to live healthy lives, owe it to those who didn't have that shot, or blessing, to try our best. I find it utterly frustrating, when people inside America or Canada or other likewise countries, complain about their horrible horrible lives in the suburbs, while children are fighting and dying for their right to exist in the slums of Russia, the ghettos of China, the vast wastelands of Africa. These people, with real UNIMAGINABLE struggles, fight every day to survive and live their lives out in a place that many of us couldn't survive in for a week. So i think those in more fortunate locales, really owe it to those who aren't, to at least TRY and live to their best ability.......because you've been given a gift, a level of citizen-based worth via the Bill of Rights if American, that others would DIE for.