Snippet #2114416

Raven looked back down when Decker stood up, furiously blinking back the stinging she felt in her eyes. This was the first time she felt close to crying since she was taken by the Gatherers, all the time since then she'd just spent mostly in a state of terrified numbness. But why was all of this emotion threatening to spill out now? Was it the guilt of lying for such selfish reasons, the fear of being abandoned again, or that Decker was so close to discovering the truth and sending her away and back onto the streets? Or was it just that all of this was finally catching up on her?
She closed her eyes, turning her face away from Decker and willing that teary feeling to just disappear. 'If you don't mind, I have to talk to Shelby.' She did mind. she minded a lot. Why couldn't he just let this whole thing go and return to how they were before? When his face lit up when they talked about books, when they were both smiling and she didn't feel half as petrified speaking as she normally did, when he was so close to kissing her...Why did anything have to come between that?

((OOC: Can I just ask why you're so adamant on Decker finding out? After the first time, didn't we all kind of agree it was a bad idea for that to happen so early on? It'll just ruin the story and make things so horrible and awkward. Is it so bad he remain ignorant for a little while before that bomb's dropped?))