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((Eep. Sorry for replying so late. I've been tired and busy.))

"These reckless and violent people are my friends just remember. A lot of them don't have valid family's or safe places to go back to so The Shards is the only place where they get the slightest bit of emotional warmth. There's a lot more than first meets the eye you know..."

Elisa frowned at that but didn't say anything. She didn't exactly have a great home life either. Her parents were pretty cold and unforgiving, but she didn't run off to join a gang because of it. Even though she wasn't great at it, she was sure they could all make friends. Hell, they could just be friends with a hang out. She would never understand why they became a gang or why Beck joined up no matter how hard he tried to explain it. Maybe it was how she grew up, maybe she just just heartless bitch, but she didn't get it.

"Why don't you ever talk about your home life?" She said, switching topics. She couldn't recall Beck ever talking about his parents or where he lived. He knew all about her fucked up parents but never really shared anything about his family. He could have seven sisters or be a twin and she wouldn't even know it. It struck her that the situation might be a bit touchy so she tacked on: "You don't have to if you don't want to."

She winced when Beck started to kiss her bandages. Not because it hurt, but because it was embarrassing for her to have to deal with. She couldn't deal with her life, she tried to find a way out, and she failed. Elisa briefly wondered if he thought she was pathetic because of it.

"Sometimes you just need to focus on the reasons to stay and be safe...there is always a reason and always someone who cares..."

She wanted to believe his words and say that she would do that from now on, but sometimes those reasons she could find just weren't enough; not in the heat of the moment, not when those dark and depressive thoughts were screaming out inside her head.

"Would you like me to leave you alone sexy?"

She didn't, she really, really didn't want him to leave her alone. Even though she was hurt over Millie and sad that he didn't love her like she wanted him to, she still wanted him there. While she faced the wall and still refused to look at him, she did whisper a quiet "Please stay."