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located in Los Angeles, a part of The Ballad of St. Jimmy, one of the many universes on RPG.

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Caden spent most of his day in a constant high. He did not move from his bed, simply choosing to remain on the broke in mattress. He tried so hard not to think about the events of earlier, however he found his mind constantly drifting to Baby's words. “You’re a fucking poser. No one likes you Jimmy…why don’t you do us all a favor and kill yourself.” The more he thought about her words, the more he agreed with them. He thought that Jay and Pretty Boy liked him..but perhaps that was just him being wishful. Had he been blind all this time? Did those that he did consider friends only keep him around because he was so good at what he did? If that was the case..then really..what point was there to remaining alive? It would be so simple.

He rose from his bed at last and made his way into the small, crappy looking bathroom. Once in there, Caden slowly made his way over to the small tub and sat down on the edge. He did not move, he simply sat there..staring at the few items that lay about the edge. His eyes kept coming back to a small piece of metal that lay near him..a razor blade.

It would be so easy for him to end everything. As Baby had said..no one would care. Really..what was keeping him there? Sure, he had Sarah when he wanted her but there was nothing between them besides lust. Slowly, Caden picked up the blade, studying it intently. He'd cut before though he'd been trying to stop. For about a month he'd not had the urge to harm himself but now..that was all that he could think about.

Suddenly, Caden ran the cold blade across his wrist, barely missing his tattoo. He dug deep and he couldn't really say that he felt all that much pain. He watched as more and more blood poured out of the open wound. The color almost seemed to mesmerize him. He couldn't look away. Caden gently sad the blade back down on the tub and simply watched as more and more of his crimson blood ran down his hand, dripping to the ground.

Caden felt his head spinning and before he knew it he was laying on the ground, looking up at the ceiling. Was this it, then? Had he finally gone to far? In all honesty, Caden did not care. He was ready for the end..for all of his pain and suffering to go away. His vision began going black and he felt..excited. He was more than ready for the next step. Caden tried to allow his soul to lift from his body but as he closed his eyes he could hear the faint beep beeping. He ignored it, feeling all awareness leave his body.





Caden awoke with a start, breathing heavily. He'd dreamed of ending his life..again. He tried to calm himself, though it was not a easy thing to do. Though he'd often cut when he was younger, it was truly something that he didn't want to do anymore. Finally breathing normally, Caden got up and changed his clothing. Once he was ready, he gathered his supplies and headed out the door.

He left a bit earlier than he needed to, but he just really didn't want to stay at his place. He was afraid of what would happen if he did. He arrived at the location the race was supposed to take place at and he began working. However, Caden was forced to keep a eye out of Baby. He would have done anything to get out of being her 'bodyguard' for the night. It was the last thing that he wanted to do. Hell..he didn't even want to see her face.

Caden felt his mood immediately drop, getting even more depressed, if that was possible. He sighed as he spotted the young woman that he was supposed to be watching out for. He supposed that meant that he would need to join her. He finished up the deal that he handling before slowly making his way towards Baby. When he reached her, he spoke. "Hey, bitch. You're late. I thought that I told you to be here on time." In all honesty, the woman that stood before him really wasn't that late. Only a few minutes at most. After he'd allowed her time to reply, he spoke again. "Whatever. Look, I'm going to be over there," he said, pointing to where he'd been before walking over to her, "When you're not in your car, stay in my sight..got it? I can't control what happens to you if I can't see you."

With that, Caden left Baby's side, making his way back to where he'd been earlier. He began dealing once again, though this time he kept glancing at Baby every once in a while. He couldn't figure out why Jay liked her as much as he did. Caden was no idiot. He knew that his friend cared for her somewhat but to what extent..he still did not know. It was none of his business, after all. He normally didn't come to the races and so he was actually a bit excited to see what would happen. Once he was done selling everything that he'd brought with him, Caden turned his gaze to the cars. It seemed to him that they were getting ready to start.