Trevor gave no reaction as Lily left, her words cut him deep. He wanted to tell her he was sorry, he wanted to tell her to stay. But those words didn't come out. None came out. Once she was out of sight Debra came over to him. "Are you just gonna let her go you dumb son of a bitch? Are you just gonna let her hate you?" She growled at him. Trevor sighed. "How many times has her, and Lawrence's life been in danger because of this world? Because I dragged her into it? If her hating me keeps them safe, and out of harm's way, so be it." He stated in a cold, and calm tone.
"She'll hurt, I know it, but her, and Lawrence being away from me is the best thing. She'll see." Debra merely shook her head. "She won't, you ripped her heart out, and yours too." She replied. Trevor sighed once more. "My feelings are irrelavent. As long as they're safe....that's what's important to me. With this....monster scratching at the walls, trying to get out, they aren't safe around me. No one is." He added. Debra sighed in annoyance, and ran her hand down her face. "You're sounding more, and more like your father."
"Then you're going to have to leave." She stated. Trevor turned to face her with a raised eyebrow. "You'll have to learn to control that beast....like I did." She stated. "And hows that?" He asked with a skepicial look. "You're going to go see an old friend in Romania." She answered. "Romania? What the hell's in Romania that I need to see?" He questioned. "That I can't tell you. Only that you'll be seeing an old friend of mine. And that if you do this, there is no turning back. You will go through hell, and you won't be the same when you come back. Are you prepared for this?" She stated, almost trying to talk him out of it. "I can't live like this, with this guilt. I need to do this, for my family's sake. I'll do whatever it takes."
After two, almost three months in Romania Trevor finally returned to Jasper. He, and Debra decided that it was best for him to just leave without telling the pack where he was going. And so he did. Trevor returned to the camp, having a noticably different air to him, a more calmer, serene one, as well as wearing more gypsy necklaces, and being noticably more scraffy looking, and having slightly longer hair. As he walked into camp many were surprised. "Trevor!" Michelle called out to him as soon as she saw him. She, and Lizzy both ran to him, almost tackling with their hugs. "We missed you so much. We thought you weren't coming back."
"It's alright. I'm back now. I missed you guys too." He said as he pryed them off of him. Jack soon came over, and gave him a big bear hug. "I missed you too Boss Man. It sucks being in charge. I was a day away from blowing my brains out." Jack stated. Trevor patted him on the back, and smiled. "Heavy is the head that wears the crown." Trevor slightly smirked. "Yeah, well you are welcome to it."
After catching up with everyone Trevor had to leave once more to get some things in order. He stopped by the sheirffs station, and dropped off a application to be a deputy before he decided to go see his wife, and child. He drove over to her family's house, and stood at the door for a moment. A wave of fear crossed his body, fearing how Lily would react to his return after being gone for so long. He took a deep breath, and knocked on the door. When her siblings answered the door he gave no reaction to Jackson's attitude. He felt he deserved it. When Michayla told him where she was he smiled slightly at her. "Thank you. I'm....I'm sorry." And with that he left to the diner.
Trevor arrived at the diner, and entered with some hesitation along with a couple members of the pack who met him there. His eyes immediately went to Lawrence, which caused a smile to cross his face. He had grown up so much. As he walked over to them he could feel Lily's emotions, anger, sadness, and a little bit of relief. "Yeah." He replied to her statement about showing up. "So he's talking now?" He asked as he smiled at Lawrence, who in turn smiled, and giggled back, being happy to see him.
"Lily, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I left you two. I'm sorry that I yelled at you. I'm sorry I broke my promise about being there for you two. I'm sorry I'm not the husband, and father you two deserve. I'm....I'm just sorry." He apologized. "I...I was away, in Romania. I had to work through some stuff. I left to protect you, to protect all of you, but now, now I'm better." He stated. He looked over at Lawrence, and rubbed his cheek. On Trevor's wrist was a strange symbol branded on him. The symbol looked like it had been there for a while, but yet it hadn't healed one bit.
Trevor pulled his hand away from Lawrence, and sighed. "There wasn't a day, a second that I was gone that I didn't think of you two." He stated. "I....understand if you don't want to see me. If you don't want me in your life anymore. I just.....I just had to see you two. I've sent in an application to be a deputy." He stated. Lily had still not looked at his face. He let out a sigh. He placed his hands on the sides of her face, and forced her to look up at him. "I still love you with all my heart. I'm not asking for forgivness, I'm not sure I deserve it. But I'm here now." He then kissed her on the forehead, and then kissed Lawrence.
He wanted to do more. He wanted to kiss her passionately like they used to do nearly everyday, but he figured that she wouldn't want it. He turned away from her, facing the door. "I will always love you. No matter what, because you are perfect. If...if you want a divorce, and never want to see me again, I understand, I wouldn't blame you." He added without turning back to face her. "You should know, that I did this all for you two. Everything I've done, whether you agree with me or not, has been to protect you two."