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Friday 4th September â 6:30 PM â Club
Nate looked incredibly disheartened and a small once they'd stepped out the door and everything hit him, the single sentence that passed Ellie's lips came down on him but with the impact of a thousand tonnes of bricks rather than words. He kept his distance from the two girls, completely ignoring Bella entirely not in a malicious way but she just wasn't his priority.
He knew he'd messed up if the ache in his jaw didn't tell him that, Ellie's face did and he didn't even want hr to understand why he did it because she was so much of a better person than him he didn't want to degrade her to that and pull her down to his level of maturity and intelligence but what he did want her to remember is that most of the time, he was just trying to protect her- be the best friend he could be to her but if he was going to do that, he'd stop smoking because he knew she kind of hated it and he'd go to school more of the time so she was never even left with a chance of being alone and he'd listen in class so when she needed him to, he could actually say something remotely intelligent but he never did and he wasn't sure why. It's what he wanted to do, maybe he was just so much of a loser in his own head he knew better than to try.
"I know,"
His breath came out more rugged than usually and slightly harsh and there was little tone in his voice except for remorse and it made Bella cringe because all she could see was the desperation and guilt radiating off Nate but at the same time, she knew where Ellie was coming from, she knew exactly where she was coming from and she could see why she was upset but se could even more obviously see that Nate's heart was in the best of places and he was probably the most selfless person she knew. She also knew that Nate had been brought up the old fashion way but for someone was independent and self assured as Ellie, that just wasn't admirable- it was just an insult.
She knew Nate was oblivious to her, so she didn't bother mentioning to him she was going inside but she touched Ellie's arm to try and reassure her and offered an empathetic smile. "I'm going to inside and support Jamie, I don't think you guys need a spectator but I'll be inside if you need me," She told her understandingly and purely as a friendly gesture but not wanting her to forget one o the most important things she looked at Ellie sincerely. "I know where you're coming from but just remember where his heart is yeah?" She whispered softly so Nate wouldn't overhear. "I'll see you in a minute, text me if you can't see me," She suggested before heading back inside.
Being as petite as she was, he made parting the crowd to get closer to the front look effortless and she bobbed casually along in the pit just looking up at the band and although she was worried and upset about what had happened with Ellie and Nate and that she was terrified of going home and her stomach burnt like a Salem witch in church, just standing there surrounding by people who didn't care who she was and staring up at the person she cared most about- it took a lot of the pain away enough for her to smile. Nate and Ellie would fix things they always did- like an old married couple and that was he only thing stopping her from a good night so she neglected the thought and selfishly, she just took the time to appreciate the band instead.