Erorn got out of the bath and dried off. He put some clothes on and went down to the lounge. He was shocked at the amount of influence society had had on him and his way of thinking over the course of his life. All his life he had been told that being with someone of the same gender was wrong, and while it was a stigma that he was able to get over based on his own feelings, he didn't realize the other stigmas that he had put on himself. He always had dreamed about finding the man he would spend the rest of his life with, and now here he was with two men, one who he knew he loved and the other one he really liked, but he could see it becoming more. And because of the stigma that he put on himself, his mind was making him feel guilty about it when it was the exact thing that the man he loved wanted. He hated himself for feeling guilty. He put it out of his mind and figured that in time the unearned sense of guilt would fade. He went down stairs and started cooking, figuring that Luther was probably passed out after all the fun he just had, he made himself something simple, just a sandwich and some of the leftover soup from yesterday. The way it was starting to rain it seemed like the perfect comfort food. He sat down on the couch and stoked the fireplace. He had sense of happiness that he couldn't quite explain, like he had accomplished something that no one thought he could, but he wasn't sure what he had done to feel that way. He had an amazing time with Luther, but it didn't seem like he had broken down any of his walls. Erorn finished his food and laid down on the couch and stared at the fire. He always found it to be almost hypnotic, the way the flames danced and had such beauty, but yet they were so destructive. He let his mind drift. Maybe it wasn't about breaking down the walls, but getting him to let him in through the doors.
Luther woke up to a cold room and mumbled, he was freezing. Getting up he hurried and dressed before going down stairs and sitting right in front of the fire. He hadn't seen Erorn lying on the couch. "So warm. Maybe next time try not falling asleep in a towel while still wet, Luther." He said to himself. He could start to feel his fingers and toes. Luther laughed, "Stupid, kid... too damn cute to be here. That's for sure. James is going to get him killed and then who is the one who has to pick himself and James up. Me." Luther hugged his knees to his chest and sighed. "To think I actually like him... go fucking figure. Thanks, James. You know we are going to have to ditch him after a while. We can't let father get to him..." He said softly. He couldn't stand the thought of what his father would do if he got a hold of Erorn.
"Like hell you will." Erorn smirked. "You wouldn't be able to get rid of me when it was just James that liked me and I sure as fuck won't go now that I know you like me too." He sat up. "I know you're trying to protect me and I know that your father is ruthless, but here's the thing, I'm fucking stubborn. This is my life too, and I'm willing to put it on the line for either one of you or more likely both of you. No I'm not going to go out and do anything rash and rush into a fight I won't win, but I won't leave you two. We can fight him or whatever we have to do, devise a strategy and go in prepared. For once I'm thinking of the bigger picture here and I believe that I can make myself an asset to you and James, so please don't go throwing me away 'for my own good'. Not now, not ever. I made James a promise that I wouldn't run away from him ever, a promise that I will extend to you as well, so please do run away from me." He pleaded. He wanted to go grab him and hug him and not let go. He held back though to show he was serious.
Luther about jumped into the fire when Erorn spoke. "Fucking hell, kid! You could have made yourself known when I sat down." He said trying to calm himself down. His face was a bit red from being embarrassed that Erorn now knew he liked him, though he was pretty sure by the way he acted anyone would have figured it out. "I want to say okay, sure, let's do this together. I know very well how you can handle yourself. I told you... we lose either way. We always lose..." He stayed by the fire, but looked up at him. "I want to stay with you... and I know James would rather die than be without you. We will cross that bridge when we get there though." He smiled, deciding he didn't want to go down that path right now. He didn't want to be serious and have to open up anymore than he already had.
Erorn sighed he could see that Luther just wanted him to shut up at the moment. "Fine, but when we get there, just give me the information I need to be able to help you, sometimes a new set of eyes can help you see things you missed, there's always hope." He smiled. "Now I'll shut up about it." He got up and hugged Luther tight. He didn't like the thought of losing either of them and it was sweet to hear the words from his own mouth that he liked Erorn. He still didn't want to let go so he held on a little longer than a normal hug should go. He finally let go of him and went back to laying on the couch, his silly grin plastered on his face again. "You like me, you like me!" he taunted in his head and held back his laughter.
Luther hugged him back and when Erorn let go he didn't stop him. "What is that grin for? Do I even really want to know? I am a bit worried." Luther fidgeted in his spot. "Stahp, Erorn." He begged before laughing and walking over to him. He began tickling him. "Payback. Ohhh yes..." He smiled. "Sweet revenge... and plus bonus for me. I get to see you smile, beg, and laugh. Who would pass that up?" He asked while smirking evilly. He gave Erorn two seconds of rest before going back at it.
Erorn laughed and smiled begging him to stop, though secretly enjoying it as much as Luther was. "I know why you like me." He smirked. "It's not just the cuteness, my eyes or my smile or any of the other superficial stuff that doesn't matter. It's because I'm a challenge. You've gotten used to being in someone's head at all times, but you just can't quite figure me out. I intrigue you because I'm just so damn emotional and unpredictable. James fell for me and you're trying to figure out what's so special about me. Or at least that's my theory, I'm probably wrong. But I like you too so I guess it doesn't matter why." He smirked
Luther's smile slowly disappeared and a softer version of James' stern face appeared. "Or maybe it is just for your cuteness, smile, and your eyes. Maybe it is all the superficial stuff..." He said as his hand cupped Erorn's face and his thumb gently caressed his bottom lip. Luther regretted asking him anything. His heart was racing, "You should go cover the furniture on the other side of the house." He said before getting up and walking off. The kid was getting under his skin and Luther was scared. He didn't want this. James' feelings came bugging in trying to calm him down. "Fuck off, James." He growled.
Erorn's grin faded to an emotionless stare. "Sure, I'll get on that." he said before going to do exactly as he was told. He covered the furniture and went from one room to the next making sure everything was covered. After he was finished, he went to the lounge. He saw that the alcohol was already packed up so he went to his room. He wasn't mad just frustrated that he had managed to hit a nerve with Luther and alienated him a little. He hoped it wasn't something that would last too long, but James said that his walls were bigger so he probably put them all back up. He realized that he hadn't packed the music yet so he grabbed something randomly and it just happened fit his mood about how he had messed up. He also just happened to know the song so he closed his door and sang along with it. He didn't know where Luther had gone, but right now he figured it was best not to bother him right now.
Luther had gone to the attic and packed everything. He worked his way down to the second floor and placed everything in a box neatly against the walls. It took him a while, but he managed. When the attic was cleared out he stayed in there for a while. He could hear the music and Erorn singing along to it. He sat down where Erorn's room was and listened. He loved his voice, it was soothing. When one song was over he hoped the next one would be something Erorn would sing to and it was. He stayed like that for a while before getting up. He didn't want to fall asleep there. Luther wanted to go in, talk to Erorn, sing or dance... he wanted to do something, but a part of him screamed not too. That if he went in there Erorn would somehow find a way to crawl in through a crack in the wall and closer towards him. So Luther walked away. He went get him something to eat before taking back to his room. He started the fire up again and ate while listening to the muffled music.
After a few songs, he decided to get something to eat. He continued to sing as he walked down the stairs and the entire time he made his dinner. He ate a salad and then he went back to singing as he went to his room then he laid down in his bed after starting a fire and stoking it enough to keep the room warm for the rest of the night. He was happy there was no rain tonight. He got undressed and slid into bed. He grabbed one of his pillows and cuddled with it before he fell asleep. He had some interesting dreams, not any nightmares, but they were not the usual dreams. He had one where he basically relived the entire afternoon with Luther, then when Luther went to draw the bath, Erorn saw James sitting in a chair in the corner jerking off while watching. The rest he was unable to remember other than the fact that they were just odd.
When the music stopped the house went silent and the silent meant he was alone with his own thoughts. It was late when Luther decided to go to Erorn's room. He walked into the room without knocking. He was asleep like Luther knew he would be. Gently closing the door he walked over and watched him for a bit. He looked so innocent and adorable. Luther crawled over him careful and slid under the covers. He laid facing him, his hand cupped Erorn's cheek. He studied every feature of his face as he slept. Luther leaned in and kissed Erorn softly and passionately, like Erorn was all he craved. "Wake up, please." He begged softly.
Erorn felt the kiss and woke before he heard Luther speaking in a sweet sounding soft voice. "I'm awake, what's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked, worried about him.
"I am sorry for acting the way I did earlier... I do like you for more than your looks. I like your company and I like how you are a challenge. I am also so scared... because I crave you, Erorn. I crave you more than anyone and I am afraid of what comes in the long run. I hate how you easily walk in and pass my walls right up like there aren't even there." He whispered. "I was thinking of just sending you home by yourself tomorrow... and I would stay here by myself for a bit." They were so close to each other and yet Luther still felt so far from him.
Erorn looked at him with care in his eyes. "It's cute that you think getting past your walls was easy. I was sure I had at least five or six ... dozen more to go." He smiled. "I'm sorry that you fear for my safety, and I know you're thinking about the long run, but what about what happens to me in the long run. How do you think I will feel if I lose either one of you? How do you think I will feel if I'm denied my right to fight for the two of you? My greatest weakness is my greatest strength. If you and your brother keep underestimating me, your father and any of his men definitely will too. I would really rather not go without you to my the mansion. I... crave you as well. I worked hard to get to you, I don't want to have to do it all over again when you get to the mansion, or worse have you getting ideas in your head about not coming at all." He smiled.
Luther didn't say anything for a while. He just took Erorn in. "I don't want to leave you Erorn..." He took a deep breath and he could feel the warmth of his tears falling down. "Great... I am turning into you." He joked.
Erorn smiled, seeing Luther cry triggered his own water works. "Damnit, you got me going too." he laughed. He bent in and kissed him passionately like when he was woken up. "I'll go as long as you promise me you'll come back. Don't you dare go getting yourself killed. If you do I will find a way to raise your ass from the grave and kill you again myself." He joked. He pulled him in closer and hugged him tight. Now more than ever he didn't want to let him go.
Luther laughed softly after kissing him back, "I couldn't leave you, Erorn... I don't know how to get to your home. I get lost easily... I am a mess." He held Erorn before running his hand down his side. "You fit so perfectly." He whispered before kissing the tip of his nose and down to his lips and traced his jaw with kisses.
Erorn nearly melted. "You might be a mess, but you're my mess." Erorn smirked. He liked the comment about how perfectly he fit. He was so cute when his walls were down, he could see why he would want to protect something so precious. He stared into his eyes, they were so deep, like pools of molten gold, he felt like he could see Luther's whole life in them, they were mesmerizing. "You always are telling me how cute my eyes are, but yours... they're so beautiful." he said still staring. "You're beautiful in general." He smiled.
Luther blushed and hoped the room was too dark for him to see. "Well yeah because they are cute. I just have those scary eyes and that scary face from James." He smiled. "But thank you anyway..." He wondered why Erorn never asked about why he had an eyepatch on when he didn't need one. Luther gently pushed Erorn on his back and Luther gently pressed down on him. "I have never been called beautiful before... I don't know how I am supposed to feel about that." He chuckled. Luther wanted to tease Erorn.... his face from before started popping back into his head. Luther reached up and gently rubbed his ear.
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He wanted to say it, he felt the words clawing at his throat trying to get out, but he didn't want to be the first one to say it this time. He was willing to wait as long as it took. He didn't want to rush the words, he wanted Luther to know that he meant it when he finally said it.
Luther smiled and gently kissed him. "Mmm your lips... I could get drunk off them." He had once again blocked James out from what he was doing with Erorn. He knew he was being selfish, but for once he wanted to. He wanted to have someone to himself that he actually liked. James was going probably be mad, but he didn't care right now. He saw Erorn's face, "You okay? I know I am heavy." He chuckled softly.
Erorn smiled and chuckled a little. "You aren't that heavy and I'm better than you can imagine." He said before kissing him again. He looked into his eyes again, there was something there that he still couldn't figure out, that one last wall. He wasn't worried about it though, he knew if things stayed like this, he would be let in eventually. This was something he never could have imagined only a few months ago, now here he was with two men that he was crazy about that were crazy about him as well. And the best part was that it was what they all of them wanted. He flet like he had won some kind of karmic lottery and all the shit that had happened in his life was to balance out the good that he was getting right now. "Worth it." he whispered to himself.
Luther laid with him like this for a bit when he heard him whisper 'worth it." He smiled and nipped his ear softly before getting up and getting dressed. He stretched before running his fingers through his hair. "You are worth it." Luther said before leaning down and kissing him. He cupped Erorn's face and deepened the kiss, "Your damn lips..." He whispered before pulling away and walking the door. "Let me leave before I ask more of you." He smiled.
"Go now then or I will give it too you and then some." He chuckled. Erorn felt like he was coming down from the most amazing high. He went to the bathroom and took a shower.
Luther started the fire before he went shower. He then dried off and went to bed. The next morning he got up early and started to load the wagon. He put Erorn and last night out of his head, he needed to get everything done without interruption. He got most of the things in, except for Erorn's stuff, and sighed as he dropped on the couch. He ended up falling asleep on the couch. He was exhausted. He wondered how far the house would be and hoped Erorn knew how to drive horses.
Erorn woke up to the sound of things being moved downstairs. He heard a loud thump then silence. He got dressed quickly and ran down stairs to see that Luther had fallen asleep on the couch. He must have fallen onto it and that was the thump he heard. He cursed his sensitive hearing at times. He saw all the work that he had done and realized that must be why he was so tired. He loaded the rest of his own stuff in the wagon and then looked around to see if there was anything else they needed to take. He didn't want to wake Luther but he wasn't sure if there was anything else that he knew they needed that Erorn didn't. He kissed him gently on the forehead. "Hey there, babe, you ready to go?" He smiled and watched him get up. "I got all my stuff and the rest of the things you had by the door all packed into the wagon for us. I wasn't sure if you needed anything else or I would have just picked you up and put you in the wagon too and let you sleep, you're so cute when you sleep." he grinned.
Luther mumbled and pulled Erorn down before cuddling him. "Shhh... we both know you can't carry me." He sleepily mumbles against Erorn's ear. "Plus the house and the wagon can wait." He said softly. Luther's hand traveled up Erorn's shirt and over. "Be my snuggle bunny for a few minutes... or hours." He said sleepily.
"I'll be your snuggle bunny if you be my cuddle bear." He replied as he laid down on the couch with Luther cuddling up next to him as Luther held him tight. "And I could too carry you. If I weren't so damn comfy right now I'd prove it." He mumbled.
He smiled. Luther loved the way they fit perfectly on the couch. He looked over Erorn before teasing his ear. "I mean... I am what... a foot taller?" He said while rubbing his ear. "Even if you could it would be really awkward." Luther had to stop himself from laughing.
Erorn enjoyed the way he seemed to fit as though he were made for Luther as well. "Mmmmm, that's nice." He whispered. "Yeah, I never said it wouldn't be awkward, I said I could do it." He said with a grin. He stayed there like that in Luther's arm for quite a while. He could have stayed there for the rest of his life and been perfectly content. He shut his eyes, he knew that it would only take about half the day, so he was okay with relaxing with Luther for a while.
Luther and Erorn stayed like that for a while before Luther got up and dragged Erorn with him. "Okay... we should get going before I actually fall asleep and then we wouldn't be leaving here till later than I would like." He shuffled Erorn out the house before looking it over. He was going to miss it, but he had a feeling he would be coming back here in the future. So, walked over to the wagon and sat up on it before snapping the horses to go.