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xxxlocation: apartmentxxxxxxoutfit: here
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xxx"i know i should walk away
xxxbut i just want to let you break my brain.
xxxand i can't seem to get a grip
xxxno matter how i live with it."
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Risβ physical proximity was almost a bit of a comfort in and of itself. For a moment, Samuel considered going for a hug- then, sharp and clear as broken glass, he saw Ris kissing Lexei, and suddenly, it all feels wrong. This does nothing to help Samuelβs mood, and he has to take a deep breath and turn back to face the lights to stop himself from crying.
βIt was my fault,β he said after a few moments. βI know that much but I still... I had to go and ruin it.β It had been so perfect. The evening, the feeling of Jamieβs arm around his shoulders as they watched the lights go by, that feeling of just being in their own little world. And then heβd had to be selfish. Was the evening just a summary of their entire relationship?
βDonβt let this happen to you, Ris. Just... donβt let yourself get caught up in something like this. Where you just fight and fight and fight, and like a goddamn fool, you still canβt... something just makes you hold on. Tells you the next time will be different.β He knew that seeing Ris in a happy relationship would probably just highlight the cracks in his and Jamieβs, but... he just wanted Ris to be happy. Even if it didnβt make him totally happy.