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xxx"now it's four in the morning
xxxi'm just trying to find myself.
xxxwhat the hell did i do?
xxxi'm the life of the party."
The moment Link's arms closed around Lee, he felt like he could breathe again. He'd always found comfort in physical contact. Or for years he had anyway. Being manipulated into having sex with strangers had kinda taken that away. But now with Link there, holding him, Lee never wanted to be let go. He pressed his face into Link's shoulder, breathing deeply. He was so nearly calm- and then it hit him again like a wave. If Link found out, this might never happen again. If people found out, nobody would hold him like this. He would be mocked and ostracised and lose everyone he had.
He forced himself to take a deep breath, moving his head to press his face against Link's neck. He couldn't see any way in which it would work out and he wouldn't end up heartbroken. But he didn't know what that person wanted and didn't know if he would even be able to stop it from getting it out. He didn't know it would. He didn't know if that person even had it. But he'd gone so long without that fear being so present, so strong. Sure, it had always been at the back of his mind, always a concern, but now it was there and immediate and present.
He wasn't even quite sure what he was thinking when he looked up at Link. And was even less sure what he was thinking, what he was doing, when he leaned up to kiss Link. He had never been one for PDA. But his desire for comfort, for physical comfort was driving him to do stupid things.
He forced himself to take a deep breath, moving his head to press his face against Link's neck. He couldn't see any way in which it would work out and he wouldn't end up heartbroken. But he didn't know what that person wanted and didn't know if he would even be able to stop it from getting it out. He didn't know it would. He didn't know if that person even had it. But he'd gone so long without that fear being so present, so strong. Sure, it had always been at the back of his mind, always a concern, but now it was there and immediate and present.
He wasn't even quite sure what he was thinking when he looked up at Link. And was even less sure what he was thinking, what he was doing, when he leaned up to kiss Link. He had never been one for PDA. But his desire for comfort, for physical comfort was driving him to do stupid things.