xxi feel so damn worthless
xxanother day is gone
xxand all my faces are alibis
xxand me, iām half the man I wanted to be
"I'll come with you. If you want. Just... I'm not ready for you to go yet," he said, the words coming out before he had even time to really dwell on them. In the moment he didn't care about the hospital, he didn't care about being seen. All he knew was that the thought of being alone right now, the thought of Jake walking out and never coming back was bigger and more terrifying than being recognised. There was that one small part of him that asked if it was Jake or if Ben was just so goddamn lonely that he needed somebody, anybody. But right then he didn't care either.
"If you still want to go, I'll understand. I'm... not the easiest to deal with. I'm a bit of a mess, but... I'll come with you to the hospital. You can stay, just for tonight. If that's what you want," he said, for the first time realising that Jake might still say no and feeling completely unprepared for that.