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by mombie on Sat Aug 15, 2020 5:08 pm
I have to piggy-back off of nonconformingrole. Without people, roleplay is just... writing with yourself and your own stories. The surprises of collaborative stories, like roleplay, make a unique and exciting experience. Everything is so dynamic. When you get a good RP partner or a great group, it can be an emotional roller-coaster akin to reading a great book or watching a television series. I love, love, love finding people that I can write with and bounce all the emotions and ideas off of. It's just fun.
My influence also comes from the fact that I have always been a bit of a roleplayer in my own little way since I was a child. Don't make fun of me, but children - it is time for mom to tell you a story. If you laugh, you'll have to sit in a corner or go to time-out. But I have been in love with Wolverine since I was like... 7 or 8 (I'm old, okay and I would still leave my husband for him if he existed). I used to watch the X-Men series with my dad when I was little, and I always romanced the idea of Storm and Wolverine. SO... I used to always pretend I was Storm wherever I went - whether it was swimming in a pool or riding in a car, I dramatically played on my own. I never did anything NAUGHTY, but I used to make-out with my pillow. I was a CHILD okay! INNOCENT CHILD!
So I guess, in a sense, I've been a roleplayer all my life. Lol. I've always pretended to be someone that I am not because my characters and fictional characters are more exciting than my own narrative and experiences. My imagination has always run very deeply. I discovered roleplay when I moved to the United States at 11 years old, and I learned a lot of my English writing from sitting in AOL chatrooms. I found a friend in HIGH SCHOOL (yes, high school - I was a nerd), and we used to do roleplay by pen and paper.
Roleplay is a world that I don't actually have to be completely myself in, yet I can experience different things in an... abstract way, I guess. It sounded a lot better in my head, honestly. Imagination inspires me. I'm such a child at heart. While I am at a level where I feel comfortable with myself, finally at the age of 32, I no longer roleplay because I feel depressed and horrible about my own self and my own life.
I roleplay for the people that surprise me all of the time. I roleplay because I don't have a social life outside of my family and my home, and I don't care because real life people don't give me the thrill and the enjoyment that my roleplay partners do when we write together. It's relaxing. It's a break from my children and my husband (I love them all, but they stress me out, too). I don't live a life that is creative outside of the internet. I am focused on mothering, bodybuilding, school, wifeing, blah blah blah - so roleplay is my only chance to show off my writing skill, to just take a creative break. Honestly... I've gotten through really, really, really, really rough moments in my life because roleplay helps my mind. I've roleplayed a lot of my personal tragedies, like a character that lost her husband through war as I did in real life, or a divorcee, or an exhausted single mother - whatever. My influence has always been that it's my little therapy. It isn't that I live through my characters or I fall in love with my RP partners or whatever, it's just that I don't have to be afraid of being a nerd or doing what I enjoy because you all understand me.
ANYWAY, that was corny, but you got it. For the people. For the experience of things that we never get to experience in real life. For the joy of it. That's all the influence I need as I write.
... I honestly don't listen to music as I write. I just let my emotions and imagination and fantasies run through my head. That's how I've always been. Everything else is distracting.
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