Brief Description
Astra is average height and weightā¦ Sheās also average build. Thereās nothing extravagant about her body type in the least. The main stunning attribute to her appearance are her bright, green eyes and her hair which fades from electric blue to deep sea blue. Her skin is fairly pale and she has long eyelashes. All in all, Astra is very beautiful. To some people, she might have to lose weight in order to be beautiful, because they like skinny people and she is just average. However, to people who like healthy weight, she is very stunning. Her typical numb mixed with sad expression greatly brings down the sparkle in her appearance, because most people love it when people smile and it makes people think more highly of their appearance.
Role
The Blue Girl
Love Interest
No one at this point in time.
Has to protect
Eldest Prince
Age
17
Personality
Typically, Astra is very numb or very sad. She forces herself into a numb state, because she does not want to fee anymore pain. She has felt more pain in her 17 years than most people feel in their entire life. The only person who ever loved her was tortured and murdered right in front of her very eyes. Astra has never been loved or cherished since and feels no love toward others. However, she does not try to hurt people. In fact, she refuses to attack anyone at all, but she will defend them from others. All in all, Astra just maintains her distance from all people in general.
Oddly enough, Astra has a theory that if she were ever to gain what people called a friend; she wouldnāt have to flush herself of all emotions. The girl knows she will be emotionally unstable for a short time, but slowly and surely, she would become normal. Unfortunately no one could ever love her enough to deal with her pain and so, there is absolutely no reason to try to befriend people.
Something Astra enjoys more than anything in the world is reading. When she reads books, she relates to the characters within the books and sometimes she even lets down her numb barrier and feels things for the characters within the stories. She feels that if she cannot have relationships with real people, at least she can have feelings about book characters.
Very typically, Astra lurks in shadows. And for some people, the might be camouflaged, but with this girlās electric blue hair, she tends to stand out against the darkness. When bored, Astra plays with electric butterflies that she taught herself how to make. She is trying to teach herself how to make other creatures from electricity and lightning.
The past is a ghost. No matter how she tries to forget it, the events of the past always come to haunt her. During the day, she never thinks of the history of her life. She only thinks of the future and current events, and very effectively. However, every night she is haunted by nightmares which bring all that she wants to leave behind her right to her door. For about an hour after each dream, she feels immense pain, guilt and sorrow. After that time, she is capable of fully ridding her emotions once again.
Sometimes little things will force Astraās emotions to run wild. Such as if something reminds her of her mother. Since she doesnāt exactly get angry, she doesnāt go on a rage and try and kill people. All she feels when her emotions are unlocked is immense sorrow and pain. It wouldnāt be unlikely that she would just sit in a ball screaming and crying.
If Astra ever were to gain a friend, It wouldnāt be impossible for her to start feeling happiness or anger again. It is also possible that she would begin to love as well.
Preferred Clothing
Anything with a lot of metal in itā¦ She like armor, fancy clothes (because she can wear a lot of jewelry with it) and the gypsy type clothes with all the little metal disks on it. Whether it is conservative or showy, she really doesnāt care as long as metal is included somewhere in her outfit. Astra doesnāt exactly like casual clothes, because thereās not a lot you can add in the means of metal. She likes either super bright colors or super dark colorsā¦ Like apple green, electric blue, jet black and midnight blue. She especially loves outfits with high-contrast color schemes.
Special Ability
Describe what they can do. Just say which element they can control, this has to do with their hair color. And you can not have the same element as someone else. Astra controls lightning. Her powers are almost purely used for defense though. She uses her electric animals, most often butterflies, to swarm around her or go wherever they are needed to protect. When they come in contact with the enemy, the enemy is jolted back a little and numbed. Astra does not take offensive positions, because even though she doesnāt like people, she doesnāt want to see anyone hurt ever again. Astra is in full control of her power. She has had nothing to do in life since discovering them other than to refine them and to read, as she has had no friends or anything else to occupy her time. Astra is currently experimenting with figuring out what else she can do with her powers. The main thing she does is tries to make various animals with her electricity. The more she makes the electric animals, the better formed they are and the longer she can keep them. The larger the animal, the shorter she can wield it.
Likes
Books, water, metal, darkness, light, vivid colors, being alone, making lightning animals
Dislikes
crowds, dull colors, blood, pain, being around people in general, talking, rubber
Fears
Hematophobia- the fear of blood and Agliophobia- the fear of pain
Charm Point
Probably the one thing that is cute about Astra is that she plays with electric animals such as her electric butterflies. She typically isolates herself and sheās very numb, so her personality is far from what most consider cute.
History
Before Astra was even born, her mother eloped with a man her parents considered unworthy of marrying into the family. When she became pregnant, her husband left her, not wanting to deal with the burden of a child. Alone with her unborn child, she searched for a way she and her daughter could survive without her husband. At the time, there happened to be a traveling troupe of gypsies nearby. They welcomed her with open arms. Astra was raised with them and was very happy. Her mother showed her a necklaceā¦ One with a cracked, deep sea blue heart and bright, electric blue lightning bolts shooting out from it. It also had silver wings sprouting out. Astra could not think of a more beautiful necklaceā¦ And her mother had told her that when she was old enough not to lose it, she would give the necklace to her. Wide eyed, Astra dreamed of the day that she could keep the necklace with her always... Astra received the necklace far sooner than she would have ever imagined.
One day, her father found themā¦ And he was very angry. Astra could see the fear in her motherās eyes. In fear and anger for whatever that man was going to do, Astra learned of her powers for the very first time. After sending a bolt of lightning at her father which knocked him out, her mother grabbed her and ran. She ran until they reached her tent at the gypsy camp. Astraās mother was frightened for her little girlās life and hid her inside a chest. She handed her daughter the necklace and told her to hold it close and to never let go of it. The petrified mother asked her daughter never to forget her, but also to hide in the chest until it was safe to come out. At the moment her mother shut the chest, her father came storming in. Her mother tried to fight him, but he over powered her. Astra wanted so much to leave the chest... To burst out and help her mother overcome her fatherā¦ But she was completely frozen in fear. No matter how much she screamed at herself, she could not move. She watched in horror as her father destroyed the only one who loved her in the world.
After about 12 hours, Astraās father left. However, none of the gypsies had returned for another two daysā¦ So Astra stayed, petrified inside her little box grasping the necklace her mother gave her. Tears trickled down her face as she numbly looked at her motherās corpseā¦ When was she going to get up and let her daughter out of the chest? Astra waitedā¦ and waited. She didnāt dare get any close to her motherā¦ She was afraid of what she would see and the smell was becoming too much to bearā¦
When the gypsies returned, the one who was closest to her mom came in the tent to check on herā¦ She screamed in shock and horror at the sightā¦ She leaned down to look at Astraās mother, before screaming once again, collapsing to her knees and weeping. The others came in the tent at that point too and one of them could hear Astraās almost silent tears. He walked over and opened her little box to find her. He took her out and later that night, the gypsies tried to determine what to do with the girl. None of them really liked her muchā¦ Astraās motherās friend didnāt even care about her that much anymore. She had been screaming at herā¦ Calling her the devilās childā¦ Blaming her for what her father had done to her mother.
The gypsies looked around until they found a foster home that would take her in until someone wanted to adopt her. At the foster home, she was forced to clean all day. If she didnāt clean, her foster parents would beat her and if she did, they ignored her completely. By this point, Astra had already flushed herself of all emotions, but still had her sadness seep out from time to time. From then on, every spare second she had, she was reading to escape from the world and experimenting with her electrical powers, trying to figure out how to bring them forth and wield them.
After about a year of living in foster care, her grandparents found her. Her grandmother took her in because she was the last ere to their inheritance. Her grandfather agreed out of pity and guilt. From the age of 8, when she was taken in by them, she was raised to behave just like her grandmother. Cold and ruthless, but also proper. She was shown no love or compassion. Her grandfather would not speak to her, but he would look at her with eyes filled with pity. Her grandmother scolded her constantly and never talked to her unless she had too. All she would do was preach about how Astra should behave like a proper lady, which meant to behave exactly what her grandmother was. Astra was extremely confused as to what her grandmother wanted. Not matter what she did, it was wrong in her grandmotherās eyes. Constantly, she was threatened with having her inheritance taken away from her. However, Astra did not care about such meaningless things. What comfort could money bring her? It could not buy back her motherās life.
For a while, Astra tried very hard to make her grandmother happyā¦ She tried to fallow in her footsteps. No matter what the poor girl did, her grandmother would lecture her. With everything she did being a mistake, Astra was tired of trying to be like her grandmother and she gave up. She didnāt see why she had to behave like someone who forced her mother to run away. She wondered how much scolding her mother had to go throughā¦ She wondered how disappointed her mother was when she could not measure up to her grandmother.
After becoming sick of being like someone she didnāt care about, Astra decided that she wanted to find herself. The night Astra began to feel more rebellious than ever before, her grandfather sat her down on a sofa and explained to her that she had to leave the very next day to go to a castle where she would guard a prince. It all seemed like a fairy taleā¦ Some lies to try and seem more like he truly did care about her, but sure enough, the next day she was sent to a castle far from where she lived with her grandparents or her foster parents. However, when she got there, she was sure that her mother had taken her with the traveling gypsies once. She had never been inside though.
Numb by Linkin Park
Iām tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Donāt know what youāre expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Iāve become so numb, I canāt feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
Iām becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Canāt you see that youāre smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to loose control?
āCause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.
Iāve become so numb, I canāt feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
Iām becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
Iāve become so numb, I canāt feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
Iām becoming this all I want to do
is be more like me and be less like you
Iāve become so numb, I canāt feel you there
(Iām tired of being what you want me to be)
Iāve become so numb, I canāt feel you there
(Iām tired of being what you want me to be)