Damien Fox's Story

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Dustin smirked as Niki pulled away, there was nothing there between them, not that Niki could feel anyways. She felt nothing and the kiss was easily forgettable. Her eyes fell back on Damien and she was more than a little irritated with the look that he’d given her. Taunting, she hated that he knew her game, he’d had twelve years of watching her, studying her, and he’d done his homework.

She tried her best not to let her irritation show through, she shot him an equally as taunting smile. She already knew they were going to hurt each other tonight, she’d make him jealous but he could play the same game. His look said it all, whatever she was going to throw at him, he was going to do the same. She cocked her head to the side, crossing her arms in front of her, her red lips held a wicked smiled.

She downed her drink quickly, it burned down her throat and it was stronger than she expected, but her face showed now weakness to the strong liquor. She shoved the cup back at Dustin. “Mind getting me another.” She wasn’t asking, Dustin rolled his eyes.

“Nik, don’t you think you should pace…” he started but she cut him off harshly

“Dustin are you my babysitter.” She asked, never taking her eyes off Damien “Didn’t think so.” She said before he could answer, he huffed a bit, but obeyed his orders, leaving Damien and Niki alone once again. She waited until Dustin’s back was turned to them before she grabbed Damien pulling him roughly slipping out the back of the barn, knowing that no one would be back there. She’d have to be quick, she knew Dustin would be looking for her. She continued to drag him behind her, without a word rounding the side of the barn. The music could still be heard clearly, her adrenaline pumping through her veins like liquid fire as she pushed him against the barn harshly, though it was still playful she closed the space between them grabbing his shirt and pulling his lips to hers.

Kissing him deeply, but the kiss was different from the past ones they’d shared, it was the kind of kiss that felt like poison, but you couldn’t pull away. It was toxic, deadly, but in a good way. The kind of kiss that was territorial, possessive. She pulled away pushing him into the barn wall once again. She stepped…or more like stumbled back gaining her composure for a moment, the dirt was like quick sand to her high heels. She looked at him, smirking.

“Don’t do anything you’ll regret D.” The statement held several meanings. It was dark and threatening, her voice sounded foreign even to her own ears. She winked and before he could answer she disappeared back into the barn.

“Where the hell did you go?” Dustin said catching her off guard, she nearly jumped out of her skin, but she quickly collected herself.

“Sorry, Macho Man was acting up, had to go calm him down.” She said offering a fake smile.

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Jessie saw the other guy that had approached Kat which made him pick up his pace. He was ten times more aggressive and ten times more jealous when he had substance in his system. He could feel his whole body tense and his fist clench, read to punch the guy the second he got there, but by the time he’d gotten there he was walking away he watched him for a moment, placing his fists in his pocket.

"Welcome back babe." her voice brought him from his thoughts, he started to relax a little and he brought his deep blue eyes to look into hers, allowing a smirk. "How's the slut?" he heard her ask and h winced a bit.

“Fine, bitch won’t leave me alone.” He meant it, cause the truth was Olive had been up his ass since he’d gotten here, but at the same time she was good to have around as a fall back, he hated himself for thinking that way, but that was Jessie for you. “She doesn’t get the hint.” He said taking a swig of the heavy alcohol. It felt good to him as it burned down his throat and he glanced back to Kitty. “It’s scary how well you know me Kitten” he said gesturing to his drink.

He glanced up his eyes falling back on the guy who’d been with Kitty a few moments ago. He was with three or four other guys. He recognized them all of them, the guy who’d approached Kitty was the captain of the football team , he was also the guy he’d walked in on with Kitty and practically beat the shit out of than drug Kat at of the room. The rest of the guys were his group of jock-asshole friends. The way they were talking and carrying on glancing over at Jessie every now and again. He wasn’t stupid he knew they were going to try something tonight, catch him in a corner and gang up on him. He smirked at the thought, if they were stupid enough to fight him, then they obviously didn’t have much common sense. Jessie had taken on more guys then there little group, bigger guys even.

“What is it that you guys do?” Jessie looked at Kat a little confused “You and Niki I mean, it’s like you guys have some kind of Vacancy sign, all the guys just can’t stay away.” He smirked “Don’t be surprised when I beat your little boyfriends face in.” he said in a more serious tone.

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Dustin grabbed her around her waist pulling her to him and as much as she wanted to fight him and push him away, she simply couldn’t, that kiss had literally taken everything out of her. She gave him a weak smile, luckily Dustin wasn’t exactly good at reading people or else she’d be shit out of luck.

“Non potrò mai rimpianto di baciarti, Kota.” She heard Damien whisper and her heart nearly stopped. He meant it and she had to keep herself from breaking down and completely creaking at that moment.
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It was well into the party, time seemed to be flying by, time always seemed to go by faster when Niki just wanted it to slow down. Dustin had left her alone and she was thankful for that. He wasn’t drunk but he’d had enough that he was acting like he was drunk. Her eyes drifted over the party, Dustin talking amongst his rich, college friends. Kat and Jessie seemed to surprisingly be getting along, she wasn’t exactly sure what had gotten into the two, but it seemed for the moment they were in perfect harmony. Her father and step-mother were making their rounds socializing with everyone, her father might as well be the damn mayor the way he talked and socialized. Then her eyes fell on Damien and Jamie.

They actually looked happy or Damien was a really good actor. The way they were laughing and carrying on and for a moment she felt as though he didn’t even know who she was and he didn’t care. He been so good at pretending they didn’t even know each other for the past few hours. She hated the way he made her feel so...helpless. Last year she wouldn’t have cared, last year she wouldn’t have even paid attention to him. She would have been 2 sheets to the wind and hooking up with The quarter back or one of the other jocks, boys her own age. But, that wasn’t the case this year she sat alone, by herself at a table. She wasn’t sulking though, Niki didn’t sulk it was something that was below her, she was just lost in her own thoughts.

She was brought from her thoughts, when the loud country song faded into a softer song, a slower song, that was surprisingly not country. She let out a soft sigh, before watching as Dustin crossed the floor to where Damien and Jamie stood with a group of their friends or more so Jamie’s friends. Dustin was good for keeping his promises, even ones he hated. Jamie happily accepted his request for her to dance with him and Niki looked away, hoping maybe Damien had forgotten. She wasn’t sure if she could dance with him with so many eyes on them and not creak. She looked down at her hands, wishing for the first time in her life she could simply disappear.

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“You’re sexy when you’re jealous, you know that?” Jessie smirked at this and he lend down kissing her gently, but passionately. Making sure she knew that the kiss meant more than just a kiss, the kiss told her he loved her. He pulled away though leaving his forehead pressed to hers. Looking her in the eyes.

“Your sexier” he smirked winking at her kissing her again.
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Jessie was seemingly impressed with the fact that him and Kat were still getting along. He was convinced this was the longest they’d ever been normal it was scaring him. Good things didn’t happen to Jessie Blackburn and when they did, it was sure to be followed by something awful. It was like for every moment he was happy, their would be double the consequence and he could feel it like heavy cloud hanging over head. He choose to ignore it though, best he could.

He was slowly coming sown from his heavy high from earlier, but he hadn’t noticed. He’d been too busy paying attention to Kitty to even care. They were actually talking...laughing...appreciating each other. It felt good better than any drug he’d ever taken, he was desperate to make the moment last as long as it could in fear they’d never be this way again. He took another sip of his beer, he’d drunken so much over the that it took more then a few beers and a couple shots to get him drunk. Though he was starting to feel a buzz. The two were sitting at one of the back tables, he pulled Kat to him so that she was sitting on his lap. He wrapped his arm around her waist, giving her a smile.

“There’s something seriously wrong here.” he teased “What the hell happened?” he said kissing her cheek “Us not fighting...I think hell froze over babe.” he let out a light laugh. “and it’s all your fault.” he smirked kissing her lips.

He was relived when a softer, less country song began to drift through the barn. He carefully stood up, though keeping Kat close to him. He let out a breath almost as if he was defeated, rubbing the back of his neck. “Listen, I don’t really know how to do this whole asking thing, but you want to dance?” he smiled.

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Damien hadn’t forgotten and she hadn’t been paying attention but the moment his hand touched hers, she knew it was him. He let her to the dance floor and just as she opened her mouth to object he reminded her that she had promised, which made her smile. He pulled her in and she rested her head on his chest. Taking in the moment, to everyone around them, who knew the D’ Angelo’s, they would see a brother and sister sharing a very cute Kodak moment. Though between her an Damien they knew it was more and she kind of liked the that they were the only ones who knew more than everyone else.

“Ti amo, Kota.” he whispered, causing her to freeze though Damien was still guiding her. She was sure she’d imagined it, but she knew she hadn’t. She wanted to pull away from him, it made her so made, why would he lie to her. But, she knew all to well Damien wasn’t one for lying, avoiding the truth yes, but lying wasn’t something he did or could do especially not to Niki of all people.She felt tears escape from her eyes, she hated him for saying that. She pulled away from him just enough so she could see his eyes, she could careless if he saw her crying.

“You don’t” she said softly refusing to believe him “You...you can’t.” she was begging him to to love her, for both there sakes. She loved him to though, she’d always loved him. How could she not, he’d always been right beside her and she was just now realizing it all of it. The song ended, she immediately felt eyes on her, Dustin’s judging. She glanced to see both Jamie and Dustin headed their way. She could tell by the look on Dustin’s face he was pissed, because in his eyes it didn’t matter what was going on, all that matter was Niki was crying and Damien was there. Niki felt so stupid. She quickly whipped her tears, Dustin stepped between her and Damien, protectively.

“You okay Nik?” he whispered to her, whipping her tears.

“Dustin, it’s not...” Niki tried to explain but Dustin was clearly ignoring her he’d made up his mind. His fist clenched.

“Stay the fuck away from her Fox.” his tone was deadly, as he threatened Damien.

“Dustin Stop.” Niki ordered him and for once he wasn’t listening to her.

“Both of you knock it off.” Jamie cooed, placing a hand on Damien’s chest, causing Niki to wince as she fought back a waterfall of insults. “I’m sure Niki is just being over dramatic, like always.” she said sweetly, flashing Niki a smile “Right Nik?” she smirked.

Niki swallowed hard, nodding gently. "Yeah. That's it." she whispered in defeat.

"That's bull shit and you know it Nikota. What he do to you." Dustin was ordering Niki.

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“I love you” her words seemed fake, yet so real. It was as if he was dreaming. He pulled her closer even, then she was and kissed the top of her head.

“I love you too Kitten.” his words were soft, meaning full.

The music ended and he wished it hadn’t, but it did and he needed to tell her. He needed to be honest with her about Olive and the drugs. He knew it hurt her, but he’d hoped she’d at least give him the benefit of the doubt, for telling her, though he already knew that was highly unlikely. She deserved to hear it from him, not Olive.

“What do you say we just get out of here.” her voice was desperate, matching the way he felt.

For the first time in years he had a clear head, he was well aware of everything going on around him and it terrified him more then he knew. He felt weak, the drugs and alcohol had been his crutch for so long, it was what drove him, it was who he was. He didn’t answer her. He simple locked his fingers with hers and that was all it took as he led her out of the barn to the front. Their was no one around and the road was dark, with only the lights from inside the barn to illuminate them. He stood there in silence for a moment debating on which direction they’d go...where they’d go.

He could feel himself growing paranoid, that’s why he did the drugs or started doing them, he was always paranoid. Looking over his shoulder, sleeping with a gun under his pillow. He decide to take a right, it would lead them to the main road. They walked in silence for a few moments, before they stopped, headlights blinding them. The car stopped a few feet in front of them and he immediately pushed Kat behind him protectively.

“This is...wrong.” he breath, there was pure terror in his voice something he knew Kat had never heard.

“Dad! No! Just leave him alone!” the voice frantic, crying, but it was familiar to him, he hadn’t heard it in years. His stomach turned and his heart raced, he suddenly felt as though he was going to throw up, his breathing was heavy and his whole body was tense.
He turned to Kat, fear in his eyes. “Please, just this once listen to me.” he begged “run and don’t look back.” he said kissing her quickly before pushing her back in the direction of the barn.

He stepped forward, his sister’s silhouette, lit by the headlights of his fathers SUV. His brother followed behind his father, even in the dark he could see the defeat written all over his brothers body. His sister screamed begging their father. He seen his brother the day Mr. D’ Angelo had brought him back to the ranch, they’d had only a few moments to catch up and he’d stupidly let it slip where he was, his brother had slipped to he assumed.

“Jessie.” his father’s voice was like thunder.

“Daddy please.” Jade begged now standing in front of Jessie.

He was frozen he hopped he was going to wake up at any moment, from this bad dream. Jessie was only scared of two things in this entire world. His father and loosing Kattrina.

He watched his father shove his sister to the ground, he took a few steps back, before feeling a hard blow to his stomach causing him to gasp for air.

“What the fuck do you think your doing. Trying to run from me you worthless piece of shit!” his father yelled, whisky and cigars on his breath. His father pulled him close, with a rough grasp, keeping him doubled over before kneeing him in the chest. Jessie gasped for air again. He’d hopped Kat was gone, that she hadn’t been watching this.

Their was a click, Jessie knew the sound well it was a the sound of someone cocking a gun. Jessie closed his eyes, his father had always promised he’d kill him and he figured he’d finally be following through with his promise. Everything seemed to slow down and Kat came to mind, in fact that was the only thing he could think about.

“Let him go.” the voice brought him from his thoughts and he watched as his father backed away. Jessie struggled to stand up straight though he was sure he had at least one broken rib. “I suggest if you want to live, you’ll get your ass in the fucking car and drive.” He couldn’t believe what he was seeing.His father looked at him, hands in the air surrendering to his drug dealer, Ricky.

“Mark my words Jessie, Your dead. You may have friends in high places son, but so do I” his father threatened before roughly grabbing his sister forcing her in the car followed by his brother.

Ricky waited until the car pulled away before putting his gun away and making his way over to Jessie “Hey Man...you alright. What the hells wrong with you?” he asked confused “The Jessie I know would have had his ass.” he teased a bit. He’d wondered for a moment why he was their, but then remembered, the whole damn community, including low lives like Ricky showed up to this thing. He just happened to show up at the right time. Jessie glanced around, seeing if Kat was still there.

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"I could never take out my anger on you Nik." she rolled her eyes as he grabbed her pulling her into a rough kiss and as much as she wanted to pull away, to lecture him more she could bring herself to pull away from his kiss, she kissed back, hating herself for enjoying it.

"Oh God Nik, what are we going to do?" He said pulling away "I can't even go one night without knocking your boyfriend's lights out." She stepped back, smirking at the thought of Dustin whimpering.

“First of all, he’s not my boyfriend, call him that again and you’ll be the next one getting you lights knocked out.” she was being serious “Second of all, that was probably the sexiest thing I’ve seen in a while.” She said playfully before becoming more serious.

She let out a soft sigh as she lend against the wooden fence line. Stepping out of her heels, shrinking five inches, it was quite between them for a moment. It was weird, being with him made her think before speaking, something she had never been able to accomplish until she started this whole secret affair with him, if a couple make out sessions counted as a secret affair.

“You know that funny thing is.” She breathed glancing up at him “I usually have that answers to everything or at least I can pretend to have the answers.” She admitted with a small smile. She stepped closer to him “Damien, I don’t want you to think you have to be with me, because I’m you don’t want me to kill myself.” She signed “If you love Jamie. Then please don’t give her up. If I’m just some fling you’re going to get tired of save me the trouble and walk away now.” There was no hint of sadness in her voice, she just wanted him to be honest with himself.

“But, if what you said in there was true.” She hesitated “If you…really do love me.” She paused looking into his eyes. “Then will find a way to work it out.” She said with a genuine smile. For once no she wasn’t playing games, she wasn’t trying to avoid the inevitable. “Think about it, don’t just give me an answer now.” She said softly “I want to show you something.” She said taking his hand and interlocking her fingers with his.

She kept quiet, knowing he was more than a little confused when they went into the house. The music from the party, fading to almost nothing as she shut the front door behind them letting go of his hand and grabbing a set of keys from the key holder. Before motioning him to follow her. She stopped in front of a black door, it was a door everyone knew well. It had always been off limits and remained locked. The only time it had ever been used was when Mrs. D’ Angelo, Niki’s mother was still alive, but even then only Mrs. D’ Angelo and Niki had been allowed down there, Mr. D’ Angelo himself was even forbidden from the room upon Mrs. D’ Angelo’s request. Though after Niki’s mother had died, Niki been the only one to go down there. It wasn’t often and nobody ever asked what was down there.

Niki unlocked the door looking back at Damien giving him a smile as if letting him know it was okay. The door led straight into a staircase, Niki offered her hand to Damien waiting for him to take it before continuing down the stairs. When they reached the bottom of the stairs the room was surprisingly large, there was a large black piano to the right of them and to the left a whole recording studio. Niki made her way to the piano taking a set as she looked over the keys. She glanced up at him pat the spot next to her on the Piano’s bench.

“I don’t do this…like ever.” She started in a playfully threatening voice. “So just…don’t say anything until I’m finished.” She said placing her hands on the keys.

Thing about the D’ Angelo family is that even when you thought you knew them, they surprised you. They had so many secrets, they might as well be a mafia family, though Niki didn’t doubt her father had been involved at one point he just seemed like the type. That’s why Missy and Kat had fit in so well when her father had married Missy cause they had just as many secrets. This secret just happened to be one that Niki had hid her entire life even from Kat and Damien. It wasn’t that she was ashamed or embarrassed. This was just something that was intimate. Just like Kat and her studio, Niki had the recording studio.

She looked at the keys as if deciding what to play. Then slowly her fingers began to float across the keys the song wasn’t noticeable a first, then the familiar beat of popular Beyoncé song began and she took a deep breath in as she started to sing.

“Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they're tumbling down, And they didn't even put up a fight They didn't even make a sound I found a way to let you in, But, I never really had a doubt, Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now.” Her voice was pure and full of emotion, it was incredible. She could actually sing, she hit all of the notes perfectly.

“It's like I've been awakened, Every rule I had you breakin', It's the risk that I'm taking.” She glanced to him with a smile as if singing that part straight to him.

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"I hope you two are happy. Good luck carrying on a conversation." Jessie let out a breath irritated with the whole situation.
“Kat!” he yelled after her “Damn it!” he cursed, letting out a small pained noise.
“So Jessie what do you say?” Olive pushed him.
Jessie’s body started to tremble with rage, his fists clenching. He needed a hit of something, he knew exactly who her rebound was going to be and he wasn’t about to let it happen. The Jessie was very one sided when it came to him and Kat. He could cheat and she was supposed to be okay with that, but if she cheated he lost it, he could bear the thought of some other guys hands all over her.

“Ricky, you got something on you?” he asked coughing lightly in pain. “Something the will make me invincible.” He smirked wickedly.

“That’s the Jessie I know.” Ricky smirked as he pulled a bag out from his pocket “Here, this will have you up and going in seconds.” He said handing him a small white pill.

“Give me another on.” Jessie ordered “I’m going to need more than that.” He said

Ricky gave him a slightly worried look “Jay, one is enough, two might kill you.”

“Do I look like I care.” Jessie said darkly as two of the pills were placed in his hand.

Popped them in his mouth swallowing them dry. He breath heavily still in pain, he wasn’t sure what Ricky had given him, but as long as he made sure Marc didn’t touch Kat, he’d be fine. Even if he died at this point he didn’t care, in fact he was welcoming death. He could feel his skin start to crawl as if there were bugs just underneath his flesh. His body was hat and his mouth dry, his pain seemed to fade to nothing and his anger was growing. Jessie wasn’t sure if he’d ever truly been this fucked up on drugs, all he knew was Marc was going to wish he’d never touched Kat. He looked up to Ricky, his eyes almost appearing completely black, his smile was dark and sent chills through Ricky’s body.

“Jay maybe I should get you out...” he started But Jessie was already making his way into the barn.

There was a fire in his eyes and everyone could apparently see it as they stepped out of his way. They must have gotten a bad vibe off Jessie. Jessie glanced around looking for her before making a B line to the back of the barn until he was outside. He stepped outside, his senses were heightened, he could hear every little thing, feel everything. His head whipped to the side hearing whispers. He glanced to Ricky.
“Give me the gun.” He ordered in a low voice.

“Jessie that’s not a…” Ricky’s body slammed into the barn, there was terror in his eyes, which made Jessie smirk.

“Give…Me…the gun.” He whispered. Ricky’s hands were shaky as he handed Jessie the gun.

Jessie continued determined before spotting the two of them, Marc’s shirt off, as his hands danced all over Kat’s body freely getting ready to pull her dress off. Jessie anger boiled over, Ricky following close behind Jessie trying to calm him down, but Jessie was clearly not Jessie. Jessie placed his hand on Marc’s shoulder before pulling him off Kat and throwing him into the wall of the barn at a deadly force. Much like his father had, he sent his fist straight into the diaphragm, doubling him over. Then again and another time. The boy begged him to stop, trying to hold himself up. Jessie grabbed to boy by the back of his neck, pulling him until they were standing in front of Kat.

“Look at her.” Jessie growled “she’s belongs to me.” He said darkly “Your fucking with the wrong girl, I could kill you right now, hid your body no one would ever find you.” He threatened, flashing the gun.

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Once she’d finished playing the song, she took a breath. She hadn’t played in over a year, she’d had no reason to want to, but for some reason Damien made her want to. She was convinced he was her new Muse. For so long her muse had been her mother’s death and the horses. Then there was nothing…now there was him.

She couldn’t help but smile when he pulled her close kissing her deeply. She smiled against his lips. She kissed him back just as deeply, it was incredible the way she felt in his arms. Their situation may not exactly be Disney, but she was never really one for clique romances. She loved what they had right now, even if it didn’t last forever.

She pulled away from, interlocking her fingers behind his neck, her forehead rested against his as she looked into his brown eyes that seemed to hold meaning to them, it was different from the way he looked at Jamie and it made her skip a beat and she felt butterflies in her stomach.

“Ti amo dj, ho sempre e amerò sempre.” I love you Dj, I always have and I always will. She whisper

She placed her lips to his once again, although this time it was softer. There was no desperation in it, there was no need to be desperate this time. She had him, alone for the first time. No one would dare venture into the room that was off limits, so they were safe, from her father, from Dustin, and from Jamie.

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"So you can fuck whoever you want, but I can only fuck you?!" he heard Kitty yell as he watched Marc run off. "I don't belong to anyone Jessie. I'm not your pet." He turned his head slowly his eyes looking over her, he rubbed his jawline frustrated.
"Did you really think you were going to shoot someone Jessie?! he felt her take the gun and this mad him angry. Her grabbed her wrist harshly, hard enough to make her loosen her grip on the gun, feeling better when he had it.

He glared at her, taking a breath, before smirking. He quickly spun her around grabbing both her arms and crossing them in front of her, her back to his chest as he held her tightly.

“You will always be mine Kitten.” He whispered darkly “You signed your death certificate the day you meet me.” His words were toxic, as if he was the Grim Reaper himself. “You’ll always come back to me and I’ll always come back to you. It’s what we do…who we are.” He said kissing down her neck as he held her against him tightly.

After along moment of heavy tensions he released her, pushing her away from him with a wickedly dangerous smirk. “You may not be scared of me Kitten, but you scared of what I can do, what I will do.” His eyes were dark and his tone was threatening, he glanced to Ricky who stood by watching the whole thing even after Kat had screamed at him to leave.

“Come on Ricky, let’s get out of here.” He ordered, he was back to old Jessie, the Jessie that had bought him back to the ranch in the first place and he was without a doubt going to get himself in trouble. “You got a car?” he asked as he started walking back in the direction they’d come satisfied he’d stop Marc. He tucked the gun away and Ricky nodded “Good, cause I got some unfinished business.” There was determination in his voice, his tone had quickly changed to a bloodthirsty, murderous tone.

“Don’t wait up Kat” he called over his shoulder “See you at my funeral.” He joked, though half meant it. He stopped her from leaving the first time in the field, yesterday, but he was to strung out tonight for her to be able to stop him again.

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Niki’s breath was shallow as he kissed her neck, the spot tingling, making her tremble at his touch. She hated the fact that he made her weak in the knees, but at the same time she wouldn’t change it for anything.

"I love you too Niki." her heart fluttered as he whispered to her between kisses. "I don't want to hurt you..." he started which caused her to hesitate looking in to his until he pulled her into his lap and she surrendered willingly "But there's no way I'm giving this up." he said causing her to smile against his lips as he kissed her again.

Her hand rested on his cheek as she kissed back, turning her head to the side. She maneuvered herself slowly until she was straddling him, before she seductively kissed along his jawline, slow letting each one linger just enough to make him want more. She continued down his neck in the same slow motion, kissing along his collar bone. Her fingers unbutton his shirt with ease. It was clear she knew what she was doing. She pulled away with a playfully smirk.

“Daddy won’t approve of this.” She fake pouted with a wink.

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"You think beating up Marc is going to keep me from hooking up with someone?" he rolled his eyes, she stepped in front of him, demanding an answer of what he was going to do.

He grabbed her bicep tight enough to leave a bruise. Jessie never did quite realize how strong or rough he was and the way he’d grabbed her was dangerous as if he was going to toss her aside, but he pulled her in close.

“Kat believe me, I’d love to fuck up your little boyfriend.” He smirked his voice a low whisper. “But, you see I have bigger more grown up issues to deal with.” He said glancing up at Ricky “You may know me better than anyone in this world…but there are something’s you don’t know.” He said harshly. “Besides” that oh so familiar cocky smile light his face “I don’t think Marc or anyone else who sees what I did to him, will have anything else to do with you.” He released her walking past her.

The thing with Jessie was he was strong enough and feared enough in the gang world that he could very well start his own gang and they would more than likely be unstoppable. That’s why Ricky had folded so easily, he hadn’t tried fighting back, he’d just given in. Jessie was unpredictable in the worst way possible and that’s what made him so valuable to his gang, which also made him the main target of rival gangs.

“Jessie we can’t seriously do this alone.” Ricky whispered and Jessie shot a deadly shut the fuck up look. Jessie knew they were still near enough Kat would be able to hear what they were discussing.

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"Am I betraying him?" she could tell by his words he was questioning what they were about to do, her eyes meet his, he was worried.

She simply shrugged “I don’t know D…” she said softly “Are you?” she said casually unbuttoning the last button on his shirt. “Of course, your cheating on your wifey to.” She smirked at the thought of having something over Jamie for once.

She kissed his lips, then lend back a bit still straddling him. She felt guilty, she knew what she was doing, playing head games with him. She smiled stepping to the side and standing up in front of him, straightening out her dress.

“Guess we better get back before anyone get suspicious.” She sighed “I don’t want to make you choose.” She said honestly. She made her way towards the stairs, pausing at the bottom “Might want to straighten yourself out babe.” She winked before disappearing up the stairs.

She nearly froze right before reaching the top of the staircase, Dustin stood leaned in the doorway. There was a smug look on his face, though he looked quite ridiculous with his swollen nose. Her breathing deepened growing nerves. Had he heard everything? “Shit” she breathed slightly panicked hoping Damien wouldn’t come walking up behind her.

“Dustin…what are you doing” she made sure to say his name loud enough as a warning to Damien.

“Well, you ran off after Damien, when I was the one who’d been punched in the face.” He said rising his voice.

Niki rolled her eyes, Dustin could get angry, but he was mostly talk. “Well Dusty, you looked pretty cozy with Jamie, what is it with you two anyways.” She said with an attitude. “Always showing up at the right time together, always sticking up for each other.” She said continuing up the stairs until she was standing in front of Dustin, who now more than ever smelt of whisky and cigarettes.

“Whos down there with you…Kota?” he taunted stepping towards her. Causing her to step back, though there was really nowhere for her to go, her anger rising.

“I told you not to call me that.” She threated shoving him.

She let out a small yelp not in pain but in shock as he grabbed her arms and forced her against the wall just outside the door, he closed it in an attempt to keep whoever was down there from hearing. He pinned her against the wall, she struggled trying to get away, but he was surprisingly stronger than she thought.

“I’ll call you what I want.” He whispered darkly “I know your hiding something Niki and secrets are never a good thing to keep from people like us.” He smirked “Damien doesn’t walk on water, neither do you. So I advise you stop acting so much better than me, because the truth is, your broken.” Niki’s stomach turned and she fought back tears “You’ll be mine again. I can promise you that.” He said loosening his grip. “Because, I’m the only one who knows how psychotic you are, you think anyone’s going to stick around long when they find out, you should be locked up in a mental institution.” He said harshly “No one wants a freak Niki.” He said kissing her roughly.

She pushed him away as best she could, but she could feel herself on the verge of breaking down, but she didn't want to cry in front of him she couldn't.

"Fuck you." she spat, leaning against the wall for support.

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"If you leave tonight..." he stopped in his tracks and Ricky looked at him slightly confused. Jessie knew she was going to threaten him with something, he just wasn’t sure what and he was curious to know what she was going to say to try and make him stay. "If you leave tonight, I'll never talk to you again." he rolled his eyes already knowing that was a lie.

"You can consider us over." this made him wince even on drugs, that fact that she’d admitted that they were together.
He stood there for a moment, debating on what to do, whether or not to leave. He glanced to Ricky calmer than before “Get the car and bring in around I’ll be out there in a second.” He ordered, his dealer nodded before disappearing around the corner. Jessie waited for a moment to make sure he was really gone, before he spoke.

“I’m still leaving.” He said plainly “I have to take care of this Kat.” He said explain to her, though giving her very little information. “I’m fucked up right now.” He admitted “I don’t know what Ricky gave me and all I know is it’s making me crazy. Your making me crazy.” He breathed

He crossed his arms in front of her trying his hardest to clear his thoughts, to calm his reckless body and unclench his fists, but the drugs were still in control of his body.

“I’m going to be honest with you. Yeah I slept with Olive, because this morning I went out and got the drugs I promised you I wouldn’t take, I took them anyways.” He admitted angry at himself. “I’m a fucking idiot I get that and you have every right to hate me.” He said taking a deep breath his body shook from the drugs.

He knew deep down he’d taken too much, he knew now he should have listened to Ricky and only taken one. He wasn’t sure he’d wake up in the morning, he wasn’t even sure if he’d make it through the night.

“I gotta go.” He finally said, knowing he’d said too much, afraid that if he stayed any longer he’d hurt her more than he already had.