Speech||ThoughtsLocationLevi's Shop
Interacting With/MentionedSerena, Levi, Lillian, Roman
Serena looked up just as Levi raise a brow at her incredulously and immediately knew she had screwed up.
"What? No, I'll shut the door, you should be fine, Serena, what is this about really, because honestly this can't have anything to do with what I did some years ago." Despite the obvious shit she had just gotten to she saw Lillian walk off and relief filled her. Because of this she didn't even notice that Levi had gently taken hold of her elbow and lead her to the office until he had let go to shut the door.
"Look," Serena flinched, knowing she was in for it.
"Truth be told, I didn't say anything because...I know you'd try to talk me out of it , try to talk me into the taking my father's place in the pack and I didn't want to hear. So I left. I'm so sorry, if I hurt you, but" Serena stared at him in shock as he continued on. She had expected an apology and maybe a comment about it wasn't her business but she had never expected this. During his slight pause Serena tried to let her mind catch up but he continued a moment later and she was lost again.
"I couldn't face you, because back then, you probably would have changed my mind and I would have spent my life wondering what could have been." He paused and by this point, Serena's mouth had fallen open just a bit, showing how truly shocked she was.
"So there, there's you're answers. I saw what life was like out there and sure I could have made it work out there, but my blood is here so I came back, like I said, I--I wasn't sure how to do it, but I was gonna come see you, once I finally decided on if I was going to stay or not." Levi gestured around them at the office but Serena was still trying to catch up and merely stared at him.
"I've decided to stay obviously." At this he chuckled and Serena flinched, looking away, trying to process what he said.
"But that's not what any of this is actually about, is it? If it were, you, You wouldn't give a single shit about whether or not Lillian heard us, Alpha or not." Serena flinched and mentally shook herself. Shifting her weight she heard the paper crinkle in her pocket and immediately shook her head, trying to physically refuse her thoughts to go there.
"What's up, Really?"
Serena frowned and looked back at him.
'Of course leave it to Levi to shock the shit out of me with a rant the onetime I'm counting on his stoic nature....' Serena sighed and shoved her hands into her pockets, grasping the letter in her hand tightly and deciding to at least respond to his 'answers'.
"It crushed me when you left but I eventually realized that it was something you needed to do." Before Levi could speak or even process the statement Serena rushed on, setting her jaw before she spoke, trying to keep her voice steady and tone firm.
"And you're right. Usually I wouldn't care. But I... I'm leaving." She paused for a second as she let what she said sink in, both for him and her.
Levi looked at her with an arched brow..
"Leaving?" "Wait what?" He thought and then realized that was a good response.
"Wait What?" He asked, before running his hand donw his face.
"Serena, You did not come all the way here, just to tell me you're leaving, I know it's been years, but you came here to tell me why, and to for me to talk you out of it, you don't want to leave,--" He stopped and realized. She was scared. He mentally kicked himself. He was jumping on her case, mostly because he was freaking out himself. This was not a situation he was used to being in. He was a loner, he didn't have to worry about others, not really besides his mom, and she was doing well, he'd almost forgotten what fear in others looked like.
He took a breath, and looked at her.
"What's got you spooked, I'm not going anywhere, I'll help you. Is someone after you?" He asked and then the worst thoughts crossed his thoughts and he examined her fore injury.
"Did someone hurt you, You know what I'll do..." He said, with a small growl in his voice.
Serena flinched and shook her head, forcing back memories that tried to claw their way to the surface of her mind.
'I've been in a haze for days I need to stay focused right now.' "No, I didn't come for you to talk me out of it I came to say good bye. I couldn't put you through what I went through. Though I doubt it'd be as hard on you. You always were better at controlling your emotions." Serena gave him a smile filled with irony that didn't meet her eyes.
"I hate that this had to happen now of all times, when you finally came back..." A bit of the sadness that she truely felt at the whole situation creeped into her voice but then she shook her head once more and her eyes glowed blue again. She spoke and as she did she smiled a Levi, a smile that didn't reach her eyes which glowed with an unidentifiable emotion, though fear was definatly mixed in their somewhere.
"But I have to go. I hope that i-..." She hesitated a moment, not wanting to say 'if'.
"When I come back, we can finally catch up." Serena knew she had to get out of the room as soon as possibly, which meant keeping this conversation as short as possible. Just having his firmiliar scent filling her nose was enough to make her want to start crying, something she refused to do now after how much she had cried after he left.
Levi shook his head and approached her, he didn't want to intimdate her but he had to get her wolf to stand down, and he wasn't her Alpha but he was one in his own right.
"Serena. You are not leaving this room until you tell me what's going on." He said, and he took her hand, his hands were soft and gentle, but he stood in front of her, his wolf reaching out to hers, a low growl, almost like a coo, urging her to stay and speak.
"Serena, Talk to me, Please?" He pleaded.
Serena's wolf acted far quicker than her mind in this situation and her eyes blazed as a snarl ripped free from her throat. Serena could almost hear it in her mind, 'This male has been gone far too long to give orders'. Despite this, and the tensing of every muscle in her body, she didn't yank her hands away like her wolf wanted her too. Instead Serena closed her eyes and spoke slowly, trying to keep the growl out of her voice as much as possible.
"I can't. This is my burden and mine alone. I refuse to bring anyone else into it." Serena paused, knowing that, with Levi blocking her way, she would either have to force her way out of the room or shock the crap out of him, neither sounding very appealing as she glanced at the door behing him.
"Not anymore," Levi said, standing his ground. [b]"Serena, I owe you this much." He told her.
"I left you before, and now you're stuck in some situation, you want to run from. I owe you. It's not your burden anymore, it's mine now too." He said, giving her hands a gentle squeeze. His wolf was begging hers now, whimpering for hers to stay, so much that it trickeled out into his voice, his ears shifting back a little, his hair blanching a bit but he didn't Turn.
"Serena....I'm not letting you leave like this, if I learned anything, running isn't going to solve the problem, it'll just halt it, for a moment." He said, his eyes flashing red a bit, but not for anger, but for his uniting with his wolf, mid form. It was a risky move, without a full moon, but he had to stop her, and it wasn't like it was intenationally.
"Serena...I'm not letting you go."Serena finally yanked her hands from Levi's, baring her fangs at him.
"It's not a choice you get to make! You gave up that right when you let me here without a word! And I'm not running! I'm going to take care of a problem that followed me here!" Without thinking Serena pulled out the still closed envelope and shoved it towards his face.
"This could get us all killed, probably worse! No one needs to go through that! I'd die rather die than lead these people to the packs. I never should have stayed here!" Serena let her hand drop as she shoved past Levi, reaching for the door with the letter still in her hand.
Levi growled, viciously, whirling on the girl and before she knew it, he grabbed her by the hand, spun her into his chest, and held her there. He was stronger then her, that much was certain, and while his grip was tight, it wasn't enough to hurt her, just slightly restrain her. She could bit him, or struggle, but he had no intention on letting her go.
"You can bark, and scratch and claw but I'm not letting you take on the world yourself. You came here for a reason whether you want to admit it or not, you came to me, you knew what I'd do, you knew I'd stop you, you don't want to go it alone, you don't want your pack invovled, you went to the one person, that was not in your pack or any other. This is what you want, you wanted me, You made it my problem the moment you came to my shop, I'm here, Deal with it." He said with that, he let her go, her letter in his hand now, preparing to face her wolf, or worse. Her tears.
"You tell me what's in this letter, and I won't invovle Lillian, or Willow, you and I will handle it ourselves, but If I have to open this, I'll invovle everyone, either way, I'm in this now." He told her.
"Choose."Serena was a bit shocked that Levi would grab her but then, years had passed and the two of them had obviously changed quite a bit. Despite the fact that she was the beta of her pack, and with good reason, agility and speed didn't do shit against pure strength though visciousness might have. Though she knew that if she had really wanted to she could have gotten away Serena couldn't help but wonder if some small part of her brain had been doing exactly what Levi had said. The thought distracted her just long enough for himto grab the latter and let her go but at the sight of it in his hand she froze. At first it was just a complete stillness of her body but as the word open left Levi's mouth she tensed. Two days, not counting the whole day before the failed hunt, she had sat looking at her name written in the hand writing that had set off alarm bells in her head. Two days of metally reliving months of torture, of fighing to stay sane, all at the sight of her name and adress on the outside of an envelope. At the thought of opening the letter and actually reading what HE had said... Serena started to shake, her muscles so tense that the shivers that ran up her spine became an almost visible thing.
Diane, Serena's wolf, having been so close to the surface in the first place Serena's panic attack gave her the perfect oppertunity she needed to break free. As she shifted Serena's mind shut down, trying to cope with the panic and Diane's overpowering will all at once. In result, leaving Levi with a agitated, snarling dark brown wolf with in the room with him.
Levi watched her Turn, but all this did was secure his thoughts. Something truely had her spooked. He wasn't ready to Change yet, he was still half mortal and Turning on the Full Moon, hurt like a son of a bitch, but before, the pain would be immeasurably, but Serena was loosing it. He had to.
"You....ugh..." He rolled his eyes, her wolf was not in the mood for him, He'd already challenged her, and he wasn't ready to accept the defeat. So he let the Change take him.
His skin rippled and curled, his lips peeled back, his hair stiffened and spread over his body, his black hair blanching into white fur, white as snow and his once deep brown eyes, began to glow a heavy red.
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