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Shinju

"A name can't begin to encompass the sum of all her parts. But that's the magic of names, isn't it? That the complex, contradictory individuals we are can be called up complete and whole in another mind through the simple sorcery of a name."

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a character in “Inuyasha: The Origins”, as played by Cheru-Chu

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"I remember when your name was just another name that rolled without thought off my tongue."
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Gemini || A Fire Inside (Said the Sky Remix)
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⌈N I C K N A M EβŒ‹
Ju ♦ A name she received from her fraternal twin, Shin, and the name she went by for nearly a hundred years. It was given as a result of their names being quite similar and constantly causing confusion for the two as well as others who came across them. Now, however, the name brings forth bittersweet memories and only a select few who knew her before her brother's passing still call her this.
Shin ♦ Shinju loves the original bearer of this name quite dearly, so much so she cannot stand to be called this name, as it feels to her like she is somehow replacing her brother.
Hotaru ♦ The name she's been going by for the last twenty years - for her it is imperative that her true name remains a well guarded secret due to her affinity for true names and their binding power. Before this name, she used Chie and Masuyo.

⌈A G EβŒ‹
200-250

⌈G E N D E RβŒ‹
Female

⌈S P E C I E SβŒ‹
Demon || Tsukumogami – Inari Shrine Fox || Suzaku’s Soul

"Now, I can’t look at your name without an abundance of sentiment attached to each brush stroke."

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Image⌈H A I RβŒ‹
White

⌈E Y E SβŒ‹
Red
⌈H E I G H TβŒ‹
Human: 5’6”
Fox: 3’11” from Head to Tail

⌈W E I G H TβŒ‹
Human: 120 lbs.
Fox: 30.1 lbs.







⌈P H Y S I C A LxA P P E A R A N C EβŒ‹
Shinju was originally an inanimate Inari Shrine Fox Statue, so as can be expected, she is often seen solely in the form of a white fox. It is her most natural state and the one she is most familiar with. Normally, her size is not that impressive and leaves a lot to be desired in the form of intimidation, which as a demon she probably should hope to be. Being no where near even the size of your average wolf and dainty in the way every natural fox is, she doesn’t seem born to guard anything. However, appearances can be quite deceiving especially when it comes to demons and it is quite clear from the get-go that is exactly what she is. Her snow-white and gently curling fur, which is as soft and silky as a newborn pup’s, is covered in scarlet demon markings that twist, knot, and curl across her entire body, the most prominent one being the ovular circle on her forehead. Not to be confused with a ninetails (as she often is), which grows a new tail as it gets older and can be quite large, Shinju will eternally only have one and she is unable to adjust her size. Nonetheless, when enraged she is just as terrifying as any other demon. The Jewel that she had at the end of her tail as a statue but now floats upon her back (further evidence she is no normal fox and certainly no ninetails) emits a fire like aura, normally it is a soft barely noticeable smolder, but incense her and it will ignite into a massive wildfire with shades of blue, red, orange, and yellow dancing among its flames.

Unlike others of her species, which are limited in their form, Shinju is special. Because Inari Shrine Foxes possess some of the magic of the Inari Kami at their creation, when Shinju, who also possesses the Suzaku's soul, was born a century later she was born with the ability to take human form – albeit it took her almost another century to figure out she could and how to do it. Nonetheless, she can take a human form, with the exception of the ever present white fox ears. As a human, Shinju is slightly above average in height, at least for the current time period, and certainly doesn’t mind that she is slightly taller or about the same height as many men. As if her height did not already garner enough attention, she carries herself with a sense of poise that helps her stand out even more than she already does. She has the figure of a woman in her prime, however, she is by no means voluptuous. In much the same way a fox is slender and quite dainty in appearance, she is as well. While she has noticeable and attractively shaped hips and bosom, they do not go far beyond noticeable, and the only reason they are noticeable is because of her extremely slim waist, which could make even the slightest curve apparent. She tends to dress herself in clothes that are perhaps a little too revealing, however, it is clear in the way she carries herself and the aura and attitude she possesses that she does not do so for the sake of seduction - likely it is more a result of her feeling more comfortable without layers and layers of cloth.

Much like her fur, her hair as a human is luscious and soft to the touch. Gently curling and a silvery white, it is known for capturing rays of sunlight and moonlight then releasing them in technicolor patterns reminiscent of the flames upon her back as a fox. She rarely embellishes her hair in any way, allowing it to remain free of bindings and adornments instead. The ends of the white strands easily feather against her waist, except around her face. There her hair is far shorter and wisps around her small features, framing them and adding an air of softness to the forms as well as reflecting a soft glow that easily makes her seem less demonic and more angelic.

Her eyes, though an inhuman red, are not terrifying. Rather, there is something wise yet strangely bittersweet to be found in their depths. Though young by demon standards, she has seen and experienced more than any human could and each and every experience, emotion, thought, dream, and hope can be found reflecting just as clearly now as they did at the time she lived through the experience, felt the emotion, thought the thought, dreamed the dream, and had the hope. The two orbs are beautiful in a mystical way as it is not the shades of color or the way they reflect light that makes someone unable to turn away, instead it is the uniquely deep expression of more accumulated feelings than most mortals could possibly possess that makes an onlooker unable to turn away.

Her skin, though it does have a healthy glow to it, is an almost papery white that also tends to reflect light ever so slightly. Combined with her white hair and from a distance Shinju might be mistaken for a ghost - especially at night. Up close, however, and one can easily see the rosy hue of her cheeks when she smiles, which, as a side note, does reveal her elongated fangs common to demon kind, and the faint ever present blush to her skin. Upon her skin are the expected marking of a demon. The placement, design, and color of the markings are identical to the markings she possesses as a fox and certainly help people recognize her no matter the form she takes (if they are smart enough to put two and two together.) Along with these markings are two more blemishes to her skin, which can be found on her left side. A scar, similar in shape to a stone fracture is present and grows very slightly whenever she engages in heavy combat. The second blemish is yet another scar, which crosses over the last and is clearly the more recent of the two. Unlike the first, this scar looks far more like a normal scar caused by a blade and does not change size or shape.

"Your name, which I played with so carelessly, so easily, has somehow become sacred to my lips."

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⌈A M O R O U SxV I E WβŒ‹
For Shinju, Love is a word that brings to mind thoughts of joy, of fulfillment, of hope, and of belonging. Yet, just the same she believes it is also one of the most painful and terrifying words in existence. It's something she both desires and is fearful of. When Shinju loves someone, even family, she gives them a piece of herself - she fully believes that is the meaning of love. To permanently sacrifice a part of herself for the sake of another. To willingly give a piece of herself to someone else for their use. And true love is so much more, because with true love she gives away every part of herself. Including the pieces she's given to others, which means shes doesn't simply trust them with herself, but even with the others she holds dear. Love is totally selfless, and when it is returned it is the most greatest experience and gift anyone can receive. But when it's not it's the most painful curse. Furthermore, when it is lost...is recovering possible, or will she eternally remain a broken shadow of who she once was?

⌈Q U I R K SβŒ‹
Inari Sushi
♦ Perhaps the quickest way to gain Shinju's favor is by feeding her Inari Sushi. She isn't sure why she loves it so much, and frankly she doesn't even remember the first time she ate it, however that does not change the fact that she does passionately adore its taste. Though, if you were to watch her eat it you might be quite concerned for her since often when she eats it she cries. This snack, which she is so fond of, also tends to bring forth bittersweet memories as it was often a treat she shared with her brother. It might be fair to say also that she could be convinced to do almost anything (as clearly there are limitations to how far she will go for the sake of a well-loved food) by offering her just a single piece - though she certainly won't appreciate you for bribing her.

Fractured Statue
♦ Shinju is irreparably damaged. Yes, her heart is pained by the loss of her brother, but even such a terrible scar may one day heal, no it is her body that is damaged beyond fixing. Before her birth, while her body was still that of a statue, her left side was fractured by a demon. The crack remained even after her birth in the form of the crack-like scar on her abdomen. Unfortunately, as it was something that was present at the moment of her birth and received before she gained a living body capable of healing, the scar is more like an open wound that doesn't bleed. It causes her pain especially at times when she over exerts herself physically, and it is constantly expanding causing more damage and pain as it does so. It is likely that with enough time it will kill her. Furthermore, the fracture was made far worse by the attack that left the second scar over top it.

Yōki ♦ All demons possess some level of Yōki, and Ju is no exception to this. Quite the contrary to being an exception, she possesses a very potent Yōki. So potent and dense is her demonic energy that, especially when angered, it's almost always visible as the colorful flames on her back. However, demonic energy is usually very destructive - but in Shinju's case it is not. Strangely enough, there is something almost gentle about her normal demonic energy, even when angry. As a result it actually tends to invigorate other demons of equal or greater strength than her - although she must be careful as the invigorating effect can be very addictive to power hungry yōkai. Furthermore, it can also be extremely soothing but also cause drug like effects - that hinder a demon's mental and physical capacity in much the same way alcohol numbs the senses and mind - for demons weaker than herself . Humans are occasionally effected by it, but only when she is in her fox form or it is extremely dense or potent. Furthermore, unlike most demons who possess an ever present Jaki (evil energy) the level of which is usually in accordance to their strength, Shinju possesses almost none. Only once in her life has she ever emitted a Jaki strong enough to effect her surroundings and that occurred the day her brother died. At that time, the flames on her back turned a grayish hue and began expanding, poisoning and killing any plant and animal life it made contact with.


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⌈C A P A B I L I T YβŒ‹
Cartography
♦ Ever since the death of Shin, her brother, Shinju has frequently left the shrine she was meant to guard in order to spend time exploring Japan. Every time she swears she won't return, but she always does with a multitude of maps in hand. As a result the shrine she 'lives' in is full of maps of Japan and every time she leaves she makes a new one. A strange hobby, yes, but one she actually quite enjoys as it allows her to chart and record the change that is constantly occurring throughout the land. With as much practice as she has had, she is quite the skilled scenic artist and cartographer.

Sutras
♦ She learned to create Sutras about fifty years ago from a traveling monk, though how and why he chose to teach her she is not certain, however, if she had to take a guess she might say it was because he recognized that she was a shrine guardian. The motives of the monk will always be uncertain, however, that does not change the fact she is skilled in making them. While they will never be as powerful as a monk's or priestess's, as they actually possess spiritual power and she must use her demonic energy to activate them (thus contaminating their effectiveness), they are still useful in expelling or driving away low-level demons (and even some humans) and she often makes use of them for the sake of avoiding combat in general.

Hand-to-Hand Combat ♦ She has been tasked with guarding a shrine for over two hundred years, of course she would have some physical combat ability - even if her body struggles to handle it. While many demons, especially those that take human shape, learn to wield weapons for the first fifty years after she gained human form she didn't spend enough time in civilization to receive or find and subsequently learn to wield a weapon. And for the first one hundred years of her life she didn't know she could take human form, as a result she learned to fight with her clawed hands and demonic strength. Before her brother past away, he was her training partner, and though he was far more capable than her, especially since physical combat is quite taxing on her fractured body, she can hold her own against a skilled demon even without her unique abilities.

⌈N A T U R A LxA P T I T U D EβŒ‹
Demon's Physique ♦ Ju is a demon and with that comes certain physical abilities. As with all demons she is naturally stronger and faster than a human. While she is not the fastest nor the strongest demon around, that is not to say she is a weak one. Her strength and speed is average for demons of her level or demons who can take almost completely human form. She can pull a tree out of the ground, roots and all, for example, though she can hardly think why in the world she would ever do that, but that is about her limit. She is more agile than she is strong, so comparatively speaking she is faster than she is powerful. Furthermore, with the exception of her fracture and wounds caused by purification and spiritual energy, which slow her healing rate down to that of an average human, she heals relatively quickly (but again, no faster than your average demon). Also her five senses are heightened and thus better than a human's, specifically her hearing and sense of smell are fairly impressive. Her most impressive physical attribute, however, would be her skin, which though soft to the touch, is almost as hard as diamond. She was stone to begin with after all - as a result injuring her with a blade is quite difficult and few humans can do it. Even against demons, the amount of strength required to even cause a small cut is far higher than most would expect. That is not to say she can't be cut - as her scars prove otherwise, it simply means its much more difficult. Often times in combat, you will find her blocking blades with her bare hands, fore-arms, and even feet and legs, and escaping relatively unscathed. Furthermore, because her skin is so hard, though her claws are sharp and deadly as well, so are her fists and feet - you feel it when she hits you. Generally blunt objects tend to be more effective against her than a simple blade.

Retro-Cognition ♦ The opposite of Precognition, which is the ability to see the future and one of the abilities her twin brother Shin possessed, Retro-Cognition is the ability to see the past. It might seem less useful to some than precognition, however, to her it is just as useful if not more so. Unlike the future, which is not set in stone - obviously as not every image her brother saw came to pass, History is unchanging and reliable. Whatever she sees in a dream (because yes her visions do come to her in dreams), at least from the point of view she sees it from, is the permanent truth and often the past holds just as many clues to the future as an uncertain vision of might be said future. Unfortunately, this ability is not something she can control and often, unless she can clearly see 'herself' in a reflection of some kind, she is uncertain whose past she is seeing. When she has one of her dreams, she has it from the point of view of a single person, she becomes that person and lives through those events as that person and because of that she can't see that person any better than she can see herself.

True Name ♦ A true name. What is it? A true name is the name by which a creature identifies itself. The name that, whether they consciously realize it or not, they recognize as being the single word (or however many words are in their true name) that encompass who they are. It is not always their given name or their original name (sometimes it can be a nickname, if that is the name the bearer consciously or subconsciously defines their self with), but most of the time it is. In Shinju's case, her true name is her name Shinju, which is the reason she has so many other names (in order to keep her true name a secret). Fortunately or unfortunately, Shinju has the ability to command and be commanded by true names. In other words, if she knows the full true name of someone she can command them to do something and they must do it, to a certain extent. She cannot force someone to do something totally and utterly against their normal demeanor. Someone who would never ever hurt a soul could not be commanded to do so by her since their true name encompasses that gentle aspect of their personality or existence as well. However, she could tell that person to stop moving and they would since their true name in no way limits that command. Due to this aspect of true names, most commands she issues are very simply such as don't speak, don't move, slow down, etc. Unfortunately, an affinity for true names works both ways. Just as she can command others using their true name, she can be commanded in the same way - the difference is, unlike others who are usually unaffected by their true name unless spoken by her, she must follow any and every command issued to her by any person as long as they know her true name and it doesn't defy the limitations of who or what she is. Yet another problem is that in order to use this ability she must know the victim's true name and she isn't psychic, she must learn it through normal means and often that takes time and cunning. As for the source of this ability, for a hundred years, while Shinju was a statue she held in her mouth a sutra roll that had the true name of the Shrine's God on it. Over time, the magic of the God's true name eventually bonded to her stone tongue. Or at least that what she says happened.


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⌈D I S P O S I T I O NβŒ‹

Trying to define a person without simply calling their name has never been an easy task. Such is the power of a name, of a single word, to totally define and call to mind a single person. This power, Shinju has great respect for. Words in general, she is truly and utterly amazed by, no matter the language. For that reason, she is very careful with her words, especially the words she uses to call upon or define others. Meaning is often negotiable, and words don’t always mean what they should, a negative could be a positive and a positive a negative simply by a change in tone or facial expression. Words have power, the power to communicate ideas, attitudes, and so much more. All of this, she understands. This does not mean however she is totally and completely honest. After all, words have to power to deceive as well – it’s part of their nature.

Perhaps it is part of her nature as a demon, but Shinju is not a particularly open person. She likes her privacy and doesn’t like it when people try to delve too deep into business and a past that she doesn’t want dug up. Sometimes this means she is quite secretive. She can be reticent in unnoticeable ways, such as outright lying, and sometimes she is openly enigmatic by simply not answering or ignoring a question. Like most demons, she is perfectly capable of lying and when she does mislead others she rarely feels guilty for it, however this is often due to the motives behind her dishonesty. While she doesn’t lie out of habit or lightly, sometimes she finds that the truth can sometimes do more damage than a lie. Telling a dying man that he has no hope of living won’t ease his pain. Telling a village about to be slaughtered by demons with no escape that they will face unimaginable pain won’t help them live what’s left of their life in comfort. Moreover, if she is in pain, making others worry for her will not bring her relief. This may stem from her desire for privacy, or it may stem from her strangely caring nature, but Shinju is the type to hide pain, both hers and others. Though a demon, she is a gentle creature who loves life and its joys dearly, the simplest things and the most extraordinary she adores, and hates to see living things suffer. As a result, she offers comfort in whatever way she can – even if this sometimes means putting a creature with no hope of survival out of its misery.

This last point would certainly make her seem otherwise, but Shinju is also very friendly. She loves to communicate and meet new people. She is neither quiet nor loud when she talks and generally quite polite. Furthermore, while she is not shy, she is not extremely talkative either – rather she is average. Loving communication doesn’t necessarily mean loving to speak; listening is of equal importance and just as enjoyable. As well as being friendly, she can also be very playful - even slightly mischievous. Sometimes this results in sarcasm or playful banter, on particularly immature moments (that every person is capable of having) she might even play a little prank.

Shinju is a very dynamic person with an immeasurable number of emotions, some may even say that because of her age she can feel in greater abundance and depth a range of emotions humans simply can't because of their far shorter lifespan. Whether or not this is true is up for debate, that being said she does feel deeply and she does show these emotions in ways that are generally appropriate for the situation. In much the same way she speaks her mind, she isn't afraid to show that she is happy, content, angry, or any other emotion in most cases, although she never does so in an over-the-top fashion. As with all things, there are exceptions for example pain and sadness is something she tends not to reveal. Furthermore, she is a good judge of situations and what is appropriate for each individual situation, as a result she acts in a suitable manner and may choose not to reveal how she feels at that moment.

Evident from her ability to accurately judge a situation and act accordingly, Ju is wise beyond even her years, likely as a result of her ability to see dreams of the past, which is often not her own. Furthermore, she grows in her understanding of nature and the world everyday. Since she is very intelligent, cunning, and extremely patient, she has the unique ability not just to know, but also to act upon that knowledge and experience even if it means leaving her own desires unfulfilled and often she has.

Shinju is a demon. A demon who was designed to protect and destroy if necessary. Do not let her gentle nature lead you to forget that. Her natural instincts lead her to territorial behavior and rage, and if she does not properly maintain it and take care to suppress it, that rage will lead to deadly ferocity. Even in a joyful state, a sad state, and even when she seems perfectly calm despite the danger, threats, and irritations that surround her, there is a slow ever present smolder of anger and blood thirst that she simply can't be rid of. In her youth, it was less apparent then it is now, almost non-existent. But an injured and cornered animal tends to show their fangs far easier and Shinju's body and heart has been beaten and bloodied nearly beyond repair. Normally, her rage is of little concern as rarely is there a spark large enough to incite a hellfire, but sometimes someone or something does or says something and she will lash out. Moreover, while she never seeks fulfillment of this desire, she is vengeful, hateful of those that scarred her so deeply.

Inari Shrine Fox Statues always come in pairs. The Left one Male, the Right one Female - inseparable twins that share more than simply a shrine. Even their souls connect. While not necessarily soul mates they are two sides of the same coin and one is not created alone. Shinju was once the same way. She was not created to be alone and now that she is she is unbearably lonely. The feeling of incompleteness weighs heavy upon her shoulders at all times, and when she is alone she mourns her lost brother and her own agony endlessly. She longs for an end to the pain or something to soothe it, but human life is fleeting and further ails her while demons simply aren't designed for that task. Death seems to be her only cure, but she does not long for death nor welcome it.

She fears it. Her life was given her at the cost of another and to make light of that sacrifice and willingly enter into the after life would be like saying the life that was exchanged for hers was of little to no value. Dying would be the greatest insult to the one she cares so deeply for and she fears hurting him by dying. As a result of this fear, she has grown to accept living and her own helplessness at curing her pain. Yet, beneath the surface she strongly desires change. She does not wish to forget, but she can't help her selfish desire to be happy.

Almost in rebellion against that subconscious selfishness, Shinju has become rather selfless. She lived side by side with her brother for a century, and during that time she learned how to care for others well-being physically and emotionally. Rather she learned how to care and give of herself for the sake of another. Furthermore, she learned teamwork skills, how to get along with a person you don't always agree with, and she learned to listen to the ideologies, thoughts, and experiences of another. Of course, the latter wasn't difficult for her. As a lover of knowledge and adventure, Shinju is always willing to hear new ideas and have open-minded conversation. Well, as long as the other party is willing to do the same.

"And if ever I speak of you, I use the Japanese language to describe who you were to me. You are nameless, because those brush strokes grouped together in that familiar form….. carries too much meaning for my capricious heart."

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⌈R E M I N I S C E N C EβŒ‹
Statues are not alive. They sit frozen in time, unmoving, and without thought. The only change they ever exhibit is the wear and tear of the wind, rain, animals, and simply the weakening of the stone they are carved from. And on the sunny day a young girl went to pay homage at a nearby Inari shrine that fact had not changed. The two fox statues that sat facing one another at the entrance to the shrine, guarding it faithfully, but motionlessly were inanimate soulless things. Even so, the young girl greeted them as she passed with a nod in each direction and small voice calling out, β€œgood morning, Shin and Shinju.”

This pattern repeated day after day, year after year for more than ninety years as visitor after visitor came to the shrine to revere the Inari god and greeted the two stone vixens. No one really knew where the names came from; they were written nowhere, yet everyone knew them. Somewhere in the past someone had uttered them and they remained. They weren’t fancy, nor were they the most creative, but the names and the statues were adored, the names because they represented the statues, and the statues because they shielded.

But, today was a special day. It was the New Year, on this day the Shrine and its guardians would be exactly ninety-nine years old. In one more year, they’d be a century old and that’s when it would really matter. But this day wasn’t special because of their age. This day was special because this was the day that all those that inhabit the village, the village of the visitors, would be slaughtered by a demon. The motives of the demon are uncertain. He didn’t eat the humans, didn’t steal anything, and didn’t harm the shrine itself. However, he left no survivors in his wake and left a crack in the left side of the right fox statue.

Furthermore, this was a day that would be remembered by none, because there was no one left to remember except the demon, who was certain not to, and two statues that could not.

A year would pass and the shrine would remain unscathed and unvisited while the massacred village would rot slowly away until nothing remained but scarcely visible remnants of where houses once stood. No graves were made for the dead so their skeletons would also remain vaguely visible but only to those who knew to look for them.

Then it would come that yet another special day would pass. Shin and Shinju’s birth day. As it were, the two statues had existed for a hundred years and for all but one of those years they were well tended and revered. That in of itself was enough to give birth to the two tsukumogamis, however, there is more to their story - to this whole story. Though neither knew nor know it. No matter the case, the forgotten village would remain forgotten, as these two newborn demons, though born into adult bodies that had existed for more than a hundred years, were nothing more than that: newborns. They had no knowledge of what had occurred before their birth, and if it hadn’t been for Shinju’s dreams and Shin’s discovery they never would have.

For ninety years the two lived alone together. Shin was Shinju’s everything and she his. They learned together, they grew together, they trained together, and even their dreams seemed to align. Though, they were two very different creatures. Shinju was gentle. Shin was vicious. Yet they loved one another, two sides of the same coins, each other’s opposites, and each other’s half.

They were not in love – they were all the other had while in isolation.

But Shinju was damaged and, unlike her brother, dying an extremely slow and agonizing death one that may take thousands of years to reach its conclusion but would eventually come. Shin could not allow for that. Shin could not allow himself to be alone, so he left to find someone or something that could repair his twin sister.

He was gone for ten years, and in those ten years Shinju made discoveries of her own. She had stumbled upon an unmarked mass graveyard and ruined village. At first, she thought little of it; it was an age of war, even in isolation she knew this, everyone knew this and the people that died here were of no relation to her. Or so she thought, but soon her retro-cognitive dreams began and the past she had not witnessed unraveled before her eyes.

She wept for days.

Then she raged against the demon.

It was difficult for her to accept she’d likely never find the monster and move on, but eventually she did and shortly after her brother returned bearing good news. He had found someone to cure her. A demon.

A demon she recognized.

A demon that lied.

Her warning would come too late though, as the yōkai would strike her down before she could utter it. He knew her true name and precisely where she was weakest, and she watched in horror as her brother was murdered while trying to protect her. She felt her heart freeze as she stood and watched, and soon after she felt her body break when he cut her down as well, yet she did not die and he did not kill her.

This time she wept for an immeasurable number of years.

That demon never gave his name, never gave his reason, for causing this pain. What he hopes to accomplish she could never know. But, she wants to. And when her tears finally ran dry she made it her mission to discover why.

For a hundred years now, she has wandered Japan, occasionally returning home to the shrine if only to visit her brother’s grave. She is searching, though after so many years she sometimes forgets what she’s searching for. Fortunately, whenever she momentarily is free from her pain, her dreams remind her of it and her journey continues.

Quotes Courtesy of: Coco J. Ginger

So begins...

Shinju's Story