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"You should probably be nicer to the pigeons. They hold grudges."xSomewhere Only We Know Goodbye Brother Vor í Vaglaskógi
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F U L LXN A M E
Benjamin Alexander Lewis.
N I C K N A M E (S)
“Benji”
B I R T H D A Y
October 23rd.
A G E
Looks barely Twenty (20).
Actually Twenty-Two (22)
R O L E
Revenant
S E X U A L I T Y
Demisexual
E T H N I C I T Y
Caucasian.
H O M E T O W N
Blackwater
H E X
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S T Y L E
Most people see Benji as at least a little bit eccentric, and his wardrobe tends to highlight this. If Benji has been coaxed to wear clothes at all (Darcy is pretty insistent about that around people.) he generally prefers light breathable layers. He will usually ditch shoes when he is able, but has conceded that in town they are necessary. Color wise, Benji doesn’t have a real preperance, though Darcy generally buys him a patchwork of earth tones. Revenants are supposed to wear dark colors he recalls. The stuffy she buys him never is.
H E I G H T & W E I G H T
5’11, 168 lbs.
A P P E A R A N C E
Benji isn’t always the most put together looking. He isn’t dirty or unkempt, but his appearance, what he wears, is clearly an afterthought. His sister puts more effort into it than he does, always to minimize, hide in plain sight. She doesn’t want him to draw attention. He even understands why, but it’s hard sometimes. This feeling that he doesn’t quite fit in this skin she’s wrapped him in. His hair would probably be shoulder length if Darcy would let him, but she keeps it trimmed to a shorter, more classic cut that would never stand out in Blackwater. There’s no hiding his eyes though. Purest silver pear out where there was once light blue. He knows it unnerves people, even Darcy, and she loves him. His face is too open, hiding nothing from those who care to look, and some have even described his mannerisms as doglike. Once, people thought of him as friendly, a little odd, but harmless. Benji doesn’t feel like that part of him has changed, but no one looks at him that way anymore.
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L I K E S
Potatoes //
Being Outside//
Quiet Places //
Animals // They're a lot less complicated than people.
D I S L I K E S
Large Crowds //
Close Quarters //
Alcohol //
Shoes // "But why do I have to wear them?"
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Benji, to most casual observers' eyes, is a little odd. He stares too much, at people, animals, ...trees. He sees things other people don’t, growing up some people were sure the kid was touched in the head, but no one really looked at Benji Lewis and thought dangerous. Gentle is more often the description that comes to mind. He’s friendly, almost stupidly so in a town like Blackwater, and his inability to read social cues has caused a fair share of awkward moments. He doesn’t mean to though, and his earnest demeanor in the past was usually enough to keep it from turning into something ugly. These days people have a very different reaction once they catch a glimpse of his silver eyes. He’s trying to remember not to stare, but Benji’s not always good about it. Sometimes Darcy makes him wear a hat, but he doesn’t think it really helps. Most people in town know what he is by now.
Benji isn’t really a people person, he knows this, but he’s not entirely oblivious either. Most folks think of Darcy as the perceptive one. She understands people, can work a room in a way that makes his skin itch to watch. Benji doesn’t really do well in crowds like that, he can never string together those pointless words of pleasantries that mean nothing. But he can see. He has a good instinct about people, good, bad, or otherwise. He generally knows to trust it, and that instinct is rarely wrong.
Curious and easily amused, Benji is notorious for wandering off, or living a little too comfortably in his own head. He’s restless, and there’s a part of him that longs to just...roam. If it were only him, Benji privately acknowledges he would have left Blackwater a long time ago. But he’s not, so he stays, and does the best he can not to feel pinned in. Like most negative emotions, Benji tends to push that down, along with anger, especially anger. That isn’t always safe for him to feel. He keeps that locked down securely deep inside, away from others. But sometimes that lockbox feels like a powder keg, one stray match and the whole thing could blow.
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H I S T O R Y
Hate isn’t a very clean emotion. It’s like pine sap. Once you let it touch you, it starts to stick to every part of your life if you’re not careful. Even when you think it’s finally gone, finally scrubbed clean, you’ll find it in unexpected places, sometimes it’s just the scent lingering to remind you. Ben knows about hate. He’s spent enough time covered in it’s earthy sweet embrace. Rationally, Ben knows there was a time when he didn’t hate his father, where the thought of him didn’t evoke the sharp tang of fear or helpless rage that consumes his memory today. It’s beyond him now. All Ben can do is try to keep the sap from spreading where it doesn’t belong.
People like to compare love and hate as two sides of a coin, but that isn’t really true. Love is more like fire, it can easily spread, fly out of your control, and then burn out quickly if you’re careless with it. If you want to keep it, it needs to be carefully fed, tended to often with a steady hand. Ben wonders if feeding the flame some of the sap could burn it away, leave his sister’s memory free of the taint. He loves his sister with the same devotion in which he hates his father, but it isn’t always easy. They remember some things so differently, a river forked in diverging paths before meeting up again as a whole. Their father was a monster, and no one, not even his sister, was willing to really see it. Even today she honors his memory, the creature that stalked their home. A predatory who ate away at pieces of them in places until there was nothing left but bone.
Ben knows his sister thinks he’s weak. He knows the way people look at him, even before he became what he is now. The unease, the whispers, like the rustling of wind through autumn leaves. But Ben knows that isn’t true. She needs him to be the boy who was dragged into those woods, the boy who hid under the table from the sounds of whimpered pleas, shattered glass, and breaking bone. He isn’t the fragile one, but she needs him to be, so he plays his part. There are things she’s better off not knowing. Like the fact the jagged scar on his left side wasn’t put there by a wendigo.
Ben can’t remember a time before the drinking, he doesn’t have any of those good memories of their dad. Deacon’s memory summons nothing but the dregs of anger and remembered fear. He remembered being terrified of his father, what he'd spew at them, what he’d break, what Darcy would do to herself next to clean up after him yet again. Quiet fury engulfed him on cold nights when they went hungry, or not, because his sister would leave, only to come back covered in bruises and the stench of shame. He remembered the helpless rage when Deacon would smash apart his box of treasures, lovingly collected when he escaped into the woods, or the time he’d burned down the old maple in the yard Ben often confided his troubles to. She had been his oldest friend, her only crime that she had kindly listened. It was never going to be sustainable. You can’t live in that state of prolonged fear and resentment forever, eventually it curls up inside of you and hatches into something scary. And Ben is something scary when he lets himself be.
The night Deacon Lewis put a knife in Ben’s gut, looking to rid the world of his shame, he let the monster that lived inside him out to face the one who’d preyed on his family so long. Benji had never wanted to be a hunter, but it didn’t mean he hadn’t learned. When the smell of blood choked the air, and the gaping cavity of Deacon's chest laid bare in a grizzley offering, Ben had dragged the barely heaving body to the clearing’s edge and waited. There was something that felt inherently right, poetic even, about a monster coming to claim one of its own. Ben had watched, bleeding out from his own wounds as the wendigo came and ate his father. He’d no longer felt the cold, and took comfort in the murmured reassurances of brother oak. He had expected to be next, made peace with it even. He was a monster now too. But when their eyes met, there had been something shrewd there, and the creature had taken what it could of its prize and dragged it away. Ben had slept for a time after that, he wasn’t sure how long. When the others arrived, he had opened newly silver eyes, expecting to feel different. The earth thrummed around him in anticipation, he waited to be condemned. They would know what he’d done. But of course they didn’t, because Benji was helpless, and needed to be protected. Darcy had a new monster to clean up after. Everything had changed, and nothing at all.
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R E L A T I O N S H I PXS T A T U S
Single
A B I L I T I E S
Like all revenants, Benji has enhanced senses and physical capabilities. He’s stronger, faster, and more durable than anyone truly human could claim to be, these days, he doesn’t really feel the cold, though he isn’t sure if that is something all revenants share, or if it’s unique to him. He hasn’t met any to ask. What he knows is unique to him though, is his connection to the natural world. He’s always had it, this attunement to nature and sense of the world, but becoming a revenants has enhanced that to a different level. He doesn’t just sense their intent anymore, it’s like they whisper to him, the spirits that exist in all living things.
T A L E N T S
Navigation // Benji don’t really get lost, especially out in the wilds. He had a generally sense of direction and where to find things in the forest that doesn’t strike people as being completely natural.
Scavenging // If you’re going to be caught out in the wild with someone, you probably want it to be Benji. He often finds food or other useful resources in the woods others overlook, and he generally has a good read for the environment around him. He can tell if it’s friendly or not, if preditors make a habit of lurking nearby, that sort of thing.
Green Thumb // Things just seem to grow for Benji.
Good with Animals // Animals are a lot easier to understand than people. They operate on instinct, their actions are logical, and Benji is very good with them.
S T R E N G T H S
Perception // Benji interacts with the world on something of a different wavelength than other people. He notices things, particularly out in the wild, that other people don’t, almost like he’s talking to the live thrumming through the woods. This makes him very useful to have in that environment.
Weapons // Benji has never really been keen on them, outside of a utility hunting knife he uses as more tool than offensive weapon, but he has been trained on how to use them. He has basic knowledge, and while he won’t be winning any awards for marksmanship, he’s pretty handy with a knife.
W E A K N E S S E S
Bad With People // People generally find Benji Odd, and this can translate easily to nuisance, or even threat. He's terrible at reading normal social cues, and doesn't always have a working understanding of boundaries. This can cause problems...
Easily Distracted // There may have been some comparisons made between Benji and Beagles. When he catches a trail of something interesting, he tends to just follow it, even when he’s been told explicitly not to.
Emotional Repression // Benji tends to bottle his negative emotions, particularly anger. He compartmentalizes it away, trying to distance himself from it, but that can only ever be a temporary measure. When Benji loses control of that anger, he’s dangerous.
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