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Never Gunna Fall In Love, Or Will I?.
11 Characters Here
Nikky Lavender Haulls [109] We all have feelings....no matter who i am at the moment...
Carrie Jones [69]
Ivan Harrper [63] I told you, I'm fine!
Skye Azriel [58] "Hi, Nice to Meet All of You!"
Matthew Rogers [21] "D-don't touch me."
Sarah Springson [17] I know you're following me.
Oliver Blue [13] "I'm sure no one will notice if I borrow this..."
Aily Sinder Svetlynn [10] " Just stay away from me..."
James Talon [8] "Just because I don't talk doesn't mean I don't speak."
Andrea Robertson (Andy) [1] A timid girl who struggles with halucinations
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"Nikky...S-she thinks im not afraid of anything...That...I only do it to make her upset...But..." he said and I watched as he took another drag. "She doesent have to...To remember...The way....I was...Bound...And helpless...She doesent know what it feels like to be dominated and...And..." he started to shake. I placed my arm around him, steadying him. "She doesent know....What it feels like....To....To be...To be locked in a cold dark room...Waiting for her father to come in...In and...Rape me....It may of been her body...But it was me he was raping....No matter....What I did...I even screamed...He..He would only..." he said. He shuddered and I frowned. "He would only hurt me even more..." his voice was angry now. He threw his cigarette down and stomped on it. I frowned and got up, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him into a hug. "I trust....That..You wont let..Anyone hurt her....If I accept this..." he said. I buried my head in his shoulder and gave a slight nod. "I won't let anything happen." I whispered in his ear. Even though what happened was horrible, I found it was kind of cute and nice to see this side of him... He must have endured it all though... Since he comes out when she is scared or angry. I started to slide my palm against his back, rubbing it reassuringly.
I'm still shaking as she rubbes my back, i hesetantly wrap my arms aroud her tucking my face into her shoulder...and for the first time in a long time....i cry...the memories are so fresh...like it just happened yesterday...i can feel all the places he hit me burn. i let out a choked sob and hug her tighter... "im realy...a selfish person...i only do that...so it wont be me..who has to get raped again...it wont be me who has to remember it..."
"she thinks im strong...shes whrong...im the weakest out of the three of us...i use my hands to hurt others in fear that they're going to hurt me...i dont do it in protection...i do it in fear..." i hold Carrie tighter feeling like she's the last human on earth. "please don't....dont tell anyone...dont even tell Nikky......youre the only one...i want to know...how weak i realy am..."
i fell the tears stop but i still cling to Carrie...
"she thinks im strong...shes whrong...im the weakest out of the three of us...i use my hands to hurt others in fear that they're going to hurt me...i dont do it in protection...i do it in fear..." i hold Carrie tighter feeling like she's the last human on earth. "please don't....dont tell anyone...dont even tell Nikky......youre the only one...i want to know...how weak i realy am..."
i fell the tears stop but i still cling to Carrie...
I was relatively still as he started to cry. I continued rubbing his back. "I'm realy...A selfish person...I only do that...So it wont be me..Who has to get raped again...It wont be me who has to remember it..." he said. "Its okay." I whisper. "She thinks I'm strong...Shes wrong...I'm the weakest out of the three of us...I use my hands to hurt others in fear that they're going to hurt me...I dont do it in protection...I do it in fear..." he says and I feel him gripping my tighter. Its borderline pain but its okay. I nuzzle up closer... It feels right. "Please don't....Dont tell anyone...Dont even tell Nikky...... You're the only one...I want to know...How weak I realy am..." He pleads. "Its alright, your secret is safe with me.... I don't betray those I love." I say and I hold him tightly, but not enough to hurt him. This moment. Was right.
"Its alright, your secret is safe with me.... I don't betray those I love."
that sentence...made my eyes widen...she...loves...me? I think to myself....she..loves...me....i losend my grip on her and pulled back slowly, i just looked at Carrie my eyes wide. "do you mean that...do you...love me..." i ask quietly...ive been told i was loved....by the one who hurt me...but...she...i feel right being here...with her...even though im a boy stuck in a girls body...i fell like i can trust her...like...i love her...alredy..
that sentence...made my eyes widen...she...loves...me? I think to myself....she..loves...me....i losend my grip on her and pulled back slowly, i just looked at Carrie my eyes wide. "do you mean that...do you...love me..." i ask quietly...ive been told i was loved....by the one who hurt me...but...she...i feel right being here...with her...even though im a boy stuck in a girls body...i fell like i can trust her...like...i love her...alredy..
"Do you mean that...Do you...Love me..." he asked. My face went neutral... "Well uh I mean..." I looked down, scratching my head. "I love all my friends and family.." I blushed... Did... He like me? I kind of said it vague but... I looked up. "Do you... Like me? I mean.. Oh its silly." I shook my head and sighed... I was falling in love with a boy's personality in a girl's body... It wasn't even the body's own personality... But then.. Part of me wanted him to say yes. I only knew him for a day... But I felt the need to protect him... I liked him... I really did... He made me feel happy... He made me forget about the depression and OCD... He gave me cigarettes which made me feel better. He was nice and kind and sweet. I was falling in love with him.
"Do you... Like me? I mean.. Oh its silly."
i just nodded slowly... "i-its not silly....i..i know...i know...im....i dont have my own body...but...i...do..like you..." i took hold of her face and gently pressed my lips to hers, she smelled faintly of perfume and her lips where soft and warm....
i just stood my eyes closed waiting for her to do anything...to slap me, kiss back....stab me...anything...just...to have her reackt....i was shaking still afraid to be hit...but i would accept it...if i was going out of bounds...then i deserved to be slaped...we had only just meet each other after all.
i just nodded slowly... "i-its not silly....i..i know...i know...im....i dont have my own body...but...i...do..like you..." i took hold of her face and gently pressed my lips to hers, she smelled faintly of perfume and her lips where soft and warm....
i just stood my eyes closed waiting for her to do anything...to slap me, kiss back....stab me...anything...just...to have her reackt....i was shaking still afraid to be hit...but i would accept it...if i was going out of bounds...then i deserved to be slaped...we had only just meet each other after all.
"I-Its not silly....I..I know...I know...I'm....I dont have my own body...But...I...Do..Like you..."he said. He placed his hands on my face and brought me to his face. The kiss was interesting... Kissing a girl... Yet it was a boy inside. The lips were soft and I didn't protest. I.... Was scared... And nervous... But.... I liked it. At the last moment I kissed back, forcing pressure where our lips met and I pulled back and looked at the green eyed girl which Zeak called home to. I didn't know what to say. I love you? No. I like you? No. It was.... I don't know. Words couldn't describe it. I looked at him, breathless. My mind struggled for words to tell him so I just said it. "I love you." I said, wrapping my arms around him.
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"I love you."
I huged back.... "i...i love you too..."
I let go anf took a step back, "what to do now?" i asked smiling gently...smiling a realy happy...true smile... "i geuss me have to wait till dinner to eat....we could alwaise...i dont know...what do you want to do?" i asked running my hand through my hair...the long hair i had grown use to having.
"its going to be pretty boring in this place..." i sat donw on my bed and streched, "what do you do in youre spare time?" i asked, "i paint...Nikky reads or whrights....and Layla...does whatever 5 year old kids do..i dont know....eat dirt?"
I huged back.... "i...i love you too..."
I let go anf took a step back, "what to do now?" i asked smiling gently...smiling a realy happy...true smile... "i geuss me have to wait till dinner to eat....we could alwaise...i dont know...what do you want to do?" i asked running my hand through my hair...the long hair i had grown use to having.
"its going to be pretty boring in this place..." i sat donw on my bed and streched, "what do you do in youre spare time?" i asked, "i paint...Nikky reads or whrights....and Layla...does whatever 5 year old kids do..i dont know....eat dirt?"
"I love you."
I huged back.... "i...i love you too..."
I let go anf took a step back, "what to do now?" i asked smiling gently...smiling a realy happy...true smile... "i geuss me have to wait till dinner to eat....we could alwaise...i dont know...what do you want to do?" i asked running my hand through my hair...the long hair i had grown use to having.
"its going to be pretty boring in this place..." i sat donw on my bed and streched, "what do you do in youre spare time?" i asked, "i paint...Nikky reads or whrights....and Layla...does whatever 5 year old kids do..i dont know....eats dirt?"
I huged back.... "i...i love you too..."
I let go anf took a step back, "what to do now?" i asked smiling gently...smiling a realy happy...true smile... "i geuss me have to wait till dinner to eat....we could alwaise...i dont know...what do you want to do?" i asked running my hand through my hair...the long hair i had grown use to having.
"its going to be pretty boring in this place..." i sat donw on my bed and streched, "what do you do in youre spare time?" i asked, "i paint...Nikky reads or whrights....and Layla...does whatever 5 year old kids do..i dont know....eats dirt?"
I smiled as he hugged me, telling me he liked me too... Well duh otherwise he wouldn't have kissed me. He let go and stepped back. "I geuss me have to wait till dinner to eat....We could always...I dont know...What do you want to do?" he asked me. "Its going to be pretty boring in this place..." he said, laying down on his bed. I nodded. "At least we have each other." I said, walking over and curling up next to him in his bed. "What do you do in you're spare time?" he asked. Self Harm was the first to come to my mind. But I couldn't say that, "I paint...Nikky reads or writes....And Layla...Does whatever 5 year old kids do..I dont know....Eat dirt?" he said. I laughed about the dirt. "I... Like to paint. And listen to music..." I say, fiddling with my hair. "Could I have another cigarette?" I asked... I just needed it. I moved my arm closer to him so he could drop the cigarette in my hand.
"yeah sure" i reach my hand into my pocket and pull the pack and my lighter out and hand them to her... "just give the lighter back...i have more cigarets..."
"my paintings....are..good...but..ususaly dark...Nikky doesnt like them...but..i do enjoy it...more than anything..."
"i should..let NIkky out soon...i know she hates it when she looses hours of time...but...i like...being around you...youre the first person...who..i feel safe....to tell things..." i smiled and streched again... "sometimes...i wish i had my own body.." i said quietly... "ever since i was created...ive alwaise wanted my own body...but...that cant happen.." i skratched my nose and yawned..
"god...when do we get to sleep around here?"
"my paintings....are..good...but..ususaly dark...Nikky doesnt like them...but..i do enjoy it...more than anything..."
"i should..let NIkky out soon...i know she hates it when she looses hours of time...but...i like...being around you...youre the first person...who..i feel safe....to tell things..." i smiled and streched again... "sometimes...i wish i had my own body.." i said quietly... "ever since i was created...ive alwaise wanted my own body...but...that cant happen.." i skratched my nose and yawned..
"god...when do we get to sleep around here?"
"Yeah sure." he said. I smiled as he put the pack and lighter in my hand. I didn't wait to hear what he said and I sat up with my knees to my chest. I took the cigarette and lit it, taking a drag. I felt good... But still not the satisfaction from the first time... I needed it... I craved it. I held the cigarette with my left hand and glanced out the window for a second before looking at Zeak. I hand the pack and Lighter back to him. "My paintings....Are..Good...But..Usually dark...Nikky doesnt like them...But..I do enjoy it...More than anything..." he said. I nodded, taking another drag. "Do you do portraits?" I asked, giving a shy smile and then I start coughing a little from the smoke. "I should..Let Nikky out soon...I know she hates it when she looses hours of time...But...I like...Being around you...You're the first person...Who..I feel safe....To tell things..." he says. I smiled... "Sometimes... I wish I had my own body.." he said quietly. "I do too." I blushed and looked down. "Ever since I was created...I've always wanted my own body...But...That cant happen.." he said. I felt sad. I didn't know how to feel about being a male personality stuck in a woman's body, having to share with 2 other personalities... I watched as he yawned and scratched his nose... It was pretty cute. "God...When do we get to sleep around here?" he asked. "Probably at night." I chuckled, taking one last drag from the cigarette.
"Probably at night." she laughed.
i laughed a bit too, "smart ass..."
"but...i think should go...bye...i...love you" saying that was a bit new and i felt myself being pulled in...
i blinked and felt someone beside me, i looked and saw Carrie, "oh..hi...how long...was Layla out?" i asked feeling a bit stuffed, Zeak has obviously been smoking... "gosh...im tired....Layla was right....it was pretty foggy in there....but it whore off"
i sat up streching, "oh...and how are you?"
i laughed a bit too, "smart ass..."
"but...i think should go...bye...i...love you" saying that was a bit new and i felt myself being pulled in...
i blinked and felt someone beside me, i looked and saw Carrie, "oh..hi...how long...was Layla out?" i asked feeling a bit stuffed, Zeak has obviously been smoking... "gosh...im tired....Layla was right....it was pretty foggy in there....but it whore off"
i sat up streching, "oh...and how are you?"
“This is the best for you,” her mother said as she gently pushed her out of the car. “I’ll come and see you in a couple months… Love you.”
It didn’t seem real to her as her mother drove off without another word. Leaving her there – alone. How was this the best thing for her? She would be alone; why would people want to get to know her? A stupid, timid girl who didn’t know what reality was and what was her mind playing tricks on her. The small suitcase at Andy’s side seemed heavier as she reached down to pick it up, making her way to the front door of this large building. Who would she meet here? What would her life come down to? Andy didn’t know much about this place; it was her mom that told her one day that she was to move here, and to come to terms with the difficulties in life. Truthfully, it was the fact that she herself was depressed, and seeing her own daughter go through the same thing was too much for her to bear. Now Andy was here; alone and afraid. Knocking on the door, she just prayed people would kill her as she entered.
It didn’t seem real to her as her mother drove off without another word. Leaving her there – alone. How was this the best thing for her? She would be alone; why would people want to get to know her? A stupid, timid girl who didn’t know what reality was and what was her mind playing tricks on her. The small suitcase at Andy’s side seemed heavier as she reached down to pick it up, making her way to the front door of this large building. Who would she meet here? What would her life come down to? Andy didn’t know much about this place; it was her mom that told her one day that she was to move here, and to come to terms with the difficulties in life. Truthfully, it was the fact that she herself was depressed, and seeing her own daughter go through the same thing was too much for her to bear. Now Andy was here; alone and afraid. Knocking on the door, she just prayed people would kill her as she entered.
"Smart ass..." Zeak said and I giggled, crashing against him and nuzzling into his side. "But...I think should go...Bye...I...Love you" He said and I frowned... I didn't want him to go..... I watched as Zeak blinked, signalling the new personality. "oh..hi...how long...was Layla out?" Nikky said. I quickly scrambled off of her and I fell off the edge, crashing to the floor. I hit it with a thud and a gasp escaped me, I felt winded. "Not.... Long." I wheezed, gasping for air. "Gosh...I'm tired....Layla was right....It was pretty foggy in there....But it wore off" Nikky said. I sat up and started to breathe normally again. "Thats good." I say. I watched as Nikky sat up and started to stretch. "Oh...And how are you?" she asked me. I blushed thinking of earlier but I hid it.... I didn't want her to know incase she thought it was creepy that I technically "kissed" her... But Zeak's personality. "I'm good." I gave her a smile.