
Nickname:
Cass
Age:
15
Gender:
Definitely male!
Sexuality:
Err um, well, I guess youād probably say Iām gay.
Love Interest:
I canāt tell you that!
Personality:
So many questions! Iām⦠just me, I guess? Iām sort of shy. Not really. Well, itās hard to explain. I actually really like talking to people and getting to know them, but itās that first step thatās always the hardest. I never know what to say when I meet someone, but, well, I havenāt met anyone new in a really long time so it doesnāt actually come up any more. Iām not even sure why I mentioned it. See what I mean though! If someone else gets the ball rolling, or if itās someone I already know, Iām fine, but otherwise Iāll do this nervous rambling thing, and I canāt tell if someoneās bored or annoyed without touching their face, and that usually doesnāt go over really well, so⦠yeah. Iāll just say Iām shy and awkward. Thatās easier. Phew.
People usually say Iām pretty smart. I guess I am? Itās not like Iām some math genius or computer whiz or anything like that. Iām just good at figuring stuff out. Cause and effect, you know? If you ask me, Iād just say I think differently than most people because of, well, you know. Iāve had to find a lot of really weird complex ways to do stuff that everyone else doesnāt even need to worry about, so I can be pretty creative. I also donāt mind taking my time and really considering every angle, probably because Iām so used to taking things slow.
I can be sort of⦠emotional. I try not to let it affect things too much, but itās hard sometimes. Random stuff makes me feel really sad or really happy. I worry about what people think of me. A lot. I probably think about that more than anything else. Maybe itās because I canāt go off expressions or body language most of the time, but I can end up getting hurt by things that werenāt meant to hurt me. Things people say, I mean.
Relationships:
Kanari: Ri is alright. I think I'm finally getting used to his ambush-hugs. I kind of like them. I wish I could show affection like that, I suppose. His hair is really long, huh?
Oliver: Oh, um, Olly? He... well, he's really great. At first I thought he was such a pain, always bossing us around and steering me or asking if I needed this or that... but then I realized that someone has to be in charge, and he's actually kinda good at it. And he'll never admit it, but he's only so helpful because he cares. It makes me feel... I don't know. Never mind. Forget I said anything!
Ivonne: Eve can be... well, I mean, he always thinks he's right. Always. I like him most of the time, a lot actually, we've had fun conversations, but when he thinks he's right but isn't? I just have to walk away, because... well, it's just better if I do.
Drew: I don't get this guy at all. He's... well, he's kind of a jerk. I don't think he means to be, but he just is, and sometimes I wish he'd just leave me alone. Don't tell anyone, but umm... I sortofmaybekindof figured out that he takes off whenever I act like he's hurt my feelings. He used to hurt them for real, but then I realized he's just an ass, so since then I... well, I'm not proud of it, but sometimes I just want to listen to my music!
Fears:
I'm scared of losing another sense. I know it's stupid, but I don't know how I'd survive. I have to keep music playing when I go to sleep, because if I wake up and it's silent, I practically have a panic attack. It's actually pretty hard to sneak up on me, but it really creeps me out when someone touches me but doesn't say anything to identify themselves. When people walk normally, I can usually tell who they are, but if they try to sneak it's harder. I'm... not really afraid of much normal stuff though. Like... the dark, or snakes, or spiders.
Likes:
- Music- Sound is a big deal to me. I think Iād die without music, and I just love it all. Iām never without my headphones and CD player.
- Reading- Iām so glad that the⦠whatever it is⦠can make Braille books. Stories help me get out of my head. My favorites are ones about love. No no no, not like that!
- Knots- I like having something to do with my hands, so I have this little, um, well, cord, I guess youād say. I tie it up in knots, sometimes real ones, sometimes just messy ones, and then I untangle it and start again.
- Massages- Giving them, getting them, theyāre just⦠really nice. My sense of touch is really important to me, and itās, well, sometimes it can be really intense.
- Words- I like weird, interesting words, and playing around with words, like⦠puns, and that kind of thing. I know, I know, Iām a dork.
- Weird Food- Combinations of stuff, or⦠I mean, itās kind of a game I play, trying to figure out all the ingredients in something. Iāll eat just about anything though.
Dislikes:
- Surprises- I hate when people try to scare me, or they move stuff around without telling me. It makes me get all panicked and frustrated and itās really just mean, so please donāt do anything like that!
- Being Helped- If I ask for it, thatās one thing, but Iām not helpless. Iāve been getting by just fine.
- Whispering- I have really good hearing, but itās practically all I have to stay involved with people. I get really paranoid when I canāt understand what people are saying, because that means itās usually about me.
- Being Excluded- Thereās some stuff I just canāt really do well. Sports, for example. Iād never say it because I donāt want to make people feel bad, but it really sucks when everyone else is doing something I just canāt.
Other:
In case you havenāt figured it out by now, Iām blind. I have LCA. I could see when I was really young, but most of my life has been spent completely without sight. Itās okay though. Really. Especially here. Iāve counted the steps to and from almost everywhere, I donāt really even need my cane anymore. I can write, I can read Braille, the computers have the kind of software I need to use them, so⦠itās just a part of me. It can make things hard sometimes, but Iām used to things being hard. Um. That came out wrong. Iām used to things being difficult. Difficult is my normal, so just⦠donāt worry about me, alright? If I need help Iāll ask for it. But if Iām about to walk into something, definitely let me know.