My birth name is: Elspeth Zoi Jackson
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In Infinity I am known as: Elspeth, or El.
I killed myself at age: 19
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My suicide was brought upon because: I became pregnant.
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I like:
•Music
•Fire
•Night Time
•Being barefoot
•Lizards
•Drinking
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I dislike:
•Bright Light
•Food
•My reason for dying
•Losing my child
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I’ve made a lot of friends in Infinity, including: TBA
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The people here are great but I dislike some, including: TBA
People tell me that I am: Skittish. They Say that I am Skittish and i don't fully disagree with them. I don't like it when a stranger touches me, it makes me feel as if I am about to become hurt again.. even in this purgatory. They've also said that have always had a certain sadness in my eyes, They are right. My blue eyes are haunted from my death and from knowing it is my fault I lost my child.... I am often told I seem to stay away from large groups of people and wander off in my own mind. Maybe I just need someone to pull me out... Hah I guess I could say I'm a bit imaginative if I believe love still exists. I don't actually see much hope here but I'm not going to stop trying to get back in time to stop myself. Then again I couldn't stop my biggest mistake.
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Back at home my life was: Precise. I was supposed to have a big future ahead of me. Well now we both see how that turned out, eh?
Every single second of every single day was planned out in advanced for me. Except for the party. The drinking. And my baby. I lived up to my expectations only in front others, I made perfect grades, never dressed inappropriately, and all things like that. I had a few fatal flaws though....Under the pressure of my parents and everyone else to be this perfect, sociably acceptable girl; I cracked. When I became pregnant it was different because everyone thought I was some tightass. Well apparently I was. I kind of like it here in Purgatory though, i get to live a life of fun. Something I never knew and never really tried... I guess for once, (on purpose that is) it's time to bend some rules..
I am: girl #3