"It's a pretty basic name." Matthew James Gilbert
| Nickname |
"Nothing fancy." Matthew typically goes by Matt or, as his sister calls him sometimes, Matty.
| Age |
"Old enough." Twenty-two years old
| Gender |
"Are you blind?" Male
| Role |
"I like to move. I'm easily bored." Boy Two
"I've got a couple tattoos."
Piercings
No piercings at the moment
Scars
Matt has plenty of scars. He's got almost every scar there is from minor burn scars to bullet scars to stab scars. He's been a lot of places, fought a lot of people, and done a lot of things. His biggest scar has to be the knife scar from his wrist to his elbow. His most nearly fatal scar is the bullet scar on his heart.
Tattoos
When it comes to tattoos, he has a few. He's got a tiger tattoo on his left arm as well as a tribal tattoo on his right. He also has the words "fuck off" tattooed on on the inside of his middle finger.
"I like fighting."
♥ His sister
♥ Fighting
♥ Guns
♥ Fast cars
♥ Tyler
♥ Drinking
♥ Cigarettes
♥ Winning
♥ Women
♥ Sex
| Dislikes |
"I fucking hate cops."
✗ Cats
✗ Cold weather
✗ Waking up early
✗ Really loud people
✗ Being bossed around
✗ Not being respected
✗ Crowds
✗ Cops
✗ Annoying people
✗ Running
✗ Losing
| Fears |
"i"
☠ His sister dying ➛ Currently, his little sister is extremely sick, and he does nothing but worry about her. He's doing what he can, but he constantly feels like he's failing her and it would kill him if she died.
☠ Love ➛ Everyone he's ever loved has been taken away from him so he's got serious commitment issues.
☠ Fucking up his sister ➛ He's afraid that he's a terrible role model for his sister and he's ruining her life. Nothing kills him more than when she's pissed at him and he feels like shit knowing she deserves a better life.
"I'm not exactly the nicest guy." Matt can be a serious asshole. Unless you have something he wants, he's pretty hostile to everyone. He's done and said a lot of horrible things in his life and it's made him pretty closed off and hard. There's a softe part inside of him, but there's only one person in the entire world that can bring it out of him and that's Chelsea, his sister. She's what he lives for. He does everything he does for her. She's the only person that can really get to him.
Other than her though, he's pretty closed off to everyone else. The only friend he's ever really made was Tyler. He'd take a bullet for him, but he's pretty much the only person that can tolerate him. He's sarcastic about everything, acts like a jerk on purpose, and sometimes, just downright cruel.
Sure, he can pretend to be charming and interesting and funny, but this is only when he wants something from you. Any other day of the week he's cold.
He's pretty shut down to emotion. He deals with his pain in anger, and that makes him dangerous. When he's hurt, he'll snap, and when he does, there's no stopping him. He'll hurt anyone when he's pissed, it doesn't matter. He really doesn't have a way to shut it off. Chelsea used to be that way, but as he gets older, his temper seems to be getting worse and more and more, he finds he's not able to stop himself for her.
He's pretty bitter about his life, and wishes more than anything, that he could have someone else's life. Not so much for himself, but for his sister. He wishes he could give her a better life, and he wants to be a better guy, but it's extremely hard. At times, you'll see him crack, and know he really does have a heart, but those times are becoming less and less frequent, and he knows, eventually they'll be nonexistent.
Eventually, he'll be nothing but a killing machine for his gang,
"I've been running from a lot of shit, for a long time." Matt has had a pretty rough life from the start. As a child, his mother and father were both drunks and fought a lot. It was a difficult existence to say the least. His little sister, Chelsea was born when he was eight and her birth killed his mother.
Chelsea was born premature, and if that wasn't dangerous enough, she was also born with a hole in her heart that made things extremely difficult. Not only were her medical bills always high, but, after their mother's death, their father started to turn his frustrations on his children. He was abusive and cruel, and there was very little Matt could do to protect fragile Chelsea.
When he was sixteen, he'd finally had enough. He took eight year old Chelsea and they took off. They bounced around, but Chelsea was hard to take care of. At eleven, she was diagnosed with cancer, and the medical attention she needed tripled. He knew she needed somewhere stable to live, but he couldn't afford anything, let alone her bills.
It was then, in Vagas, that he met the leader of his gang. He took them in, and he told Matt that, as long as he did everything he told him, his sister would have a stable home and the best medical care in the city. It was an offer he couldn't refuse so, even though Chelsea hated the men in the gang, he took it.
He's been the man's personal puppet ever since, and he hates that his sixteen year-old sister is part of the dark gang world, but he knows that, the second he stops, his leader will pull her medical plug. She's not always in the hospital. There are times when she's admitted for weeks, and there are times where she's in and out in a day, but it doesn't matter, it doesn't make her any more stable, so he can't afford to give up the free care she's getting. He just has to let her live in the leader's house, knowing he's letting her down for the decisions he's always making.
Trapt
Circling your, circling your, circling your head,
Contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth, I got doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I’m out
See you later
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads (yeah)
Well now that’s over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
[Chorus:]
(Fuck!)
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong and this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
I won’t give everything away
[Verse 2:]
Conclusions manifest, your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you’re full of shit, and that’s alright
That’s how you play, I guess you’ll get through every night
Well now that’s over
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads (yeah)
Well now that’s over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
[Chorus]
[Verse 3:]
I know, I know all about [x3]
I know, I know all about your motives inside, and your decision to hide
[Chorus]
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Breaking Benjamin
Here I stand, helpless and left for dead.
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.
I won't stay long, in this world so wrong.
[Chorus:]
Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight.
Don't you dare look at him in the eye, as we dance with the devil tonight?
Trembling, crawling across my skin.
Feeling your cold dead eyes, stealing the life of mine.
I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.
I won't last long, in this world so wrong.
[Chorus]
Hold on. Hold on.
[Chorus]
Hold on. Hold on.
Goodbye.