Facing Dawn, Tover noticed the small personal war she was having to push hair out of her face before the conversation began. The lack of raven locks muddling her face let those grey eyes be visible again, and it caused the edge of a smile to curve on his face. What an oddly pleasant feeling. Was this what it felt like to make real friends, instead of that simulacrum atrocity his family accepted? He felt a little flush, though that may have been just from the recovery of his borderline fearless intervention just earlier.
āIt really wasnāt too big of a deal, Desdemona and I were closer, anyway.āWell that was a relief, heād thought it might have been otherwise, but bothersome little trails of thought like that were very common for him, and just hearing he was okay always did wonders to shut those down. Dawnās shrug an almost helpful reinforcer.
It was the curve of her lips as they slid into the beginnings of a smile that made him feel warm, and just a touch helpless. Heād made someone smile? His face, while generally marred with practiced nonchalance softened its features into a warmer expression as he listened.
āWell, considering nobody is flipping anyone into a table right now, Iād say it was a job well done.ā He saw her fingers fold, and sat up in response, as if she might suddenly be a little more serious.
āYou did pretty good holding yourself together up there, though, I think. I heard a few people clapping, too.āForget warm. He was turning pinkish red in the cheeks and shyly had to turn away a little. His grey eyes cast down and to the side, some loose locks of hair falling back out of place over his forehead as a full-on unstoppable smile of pride and fulfillment stuck to his face, listening to her clear up the naming convention as the tips of his fingers felt prickly, raising them to rub the back of his head after managing a small mention.
āT..thanks, that means a lot.āāThatās my middle name, actually. So you werenāt completely off.ā Dawn explained. āAnd, ah. I would have no problem with more talking, really.ā She had paused, glanced over her shoulder, then turned back around.
āI didnāt see whoever started it. It was nice of her- whoever she is.āWhen Dawn mentioned clapping he instinctively turned back to look at the table along with dawn, locating where the girl in the big hoodie sat. She seemed somewhat covered in bits of fur here and there because of the hoodie, but that didnāt matter at the moment. Glad to just have recognized her before turning back to face Dawn as Tessa joined in on the conversation.
āI donāt know her name yet, but itās the girl in the messy hoodie over there. Iām not going to bother her now though, sheās got her own thing going. Iāll thank her when I can later. Also, Evelynās a really nice name. Probably why it stuck~ Iād be happy to have some long conversations when we both have free time to catch up!ā Tover sounded almost chipper.
The invitation to conversation with Evelyn was a pleasantry he was going to enjoy delving into sometime, but it looked like group socializing was going to cut up the deeper conversations people could be having at the moment. It was pleasant though, thinking everyone should get this, a tender blossoming warmth behind the middle of the chest from talking to classmates who were becoming friends.
His attention split from the inner sensations he was experiencing as some Tessa speedily cut in with some strong french. He spoke the language, but she was going a bit fast, his color balancing back to normal during his momentary frown that spoke volumes of what he was understanding while she spoke. A tempered pleasant look replaced it when she kicked up her translating skills.
"Guys I have something awesome to tell you later it is juicy too!ā As nice as that was, he had the odd feeling that what Tessa had to say was very much going to be āgirl talk.ā Making Tover look around for a temporary way out for a minute or so before he could return to the table. Surely there was someone he could temporarily say hi to and maybe pull into this in-the-middle-of-being-minted group of friends.
āThatās nice~ā was all he managed to say before Tessa slid into sudden questioning twined with pleasant compliments, her bubbly personality really shining through.
"That was some awesome negotiating Tov, butterflies or not you did great! Oh that girl no idea who she is but with a speech like that I doubt anyone could ignore you. You were like a practiced diplomat, where did you learn to do that? You really helped Kora out, are you trying to get in her good graces?āThe kindness of her compliments had been a very welcomed, if not an outright necessity for the well being of his continued social growth and overall well-being. Heād been silently wrecked in some ways by the whole ordeal. Hearing things like this though, this helped. He felt much better with the supportive validation from his peers, and general acceptance that heād not only done the right thing, but that people were a little impressed with the whole thing. It was a quiet reward for trying to be himself, and instead of being met with the disdain that would normally have followed at home. Here it seemed.. it seemed welcomed.
Steady as he felt from the social feedback, an icy chill clamped to his senses. He couldenāt help but see similarities in the gaze Tessaās blue eyes held as she leered at him with an almost zealous intensity. It reminded of some of the looks heād gotten from people that had only wanted something out of him. Her compliments had likely been sincere, and if Tover had to make a guess, she had noticed what he might have been actually up to with that chess move of his. Well. Half-move~ He did have something he didnāt want to see again fueling the action.
There was a messy comprehensive answer in his head, but it broke down easy enough as his face crunched together in pensive though. When his features softened and returned to leaning-on-the-table nonchalance, he was good to talk.
āTessa, right?ā Tover started, taking a sip from his cup of water since his tea was all gone.
āFirst off thanks for the kind words, youāre a good part responsible for why Iām āOkayā right now, along with Dawn, and mystery girl who started clapping over there. Until a bit ago. well..ā He raised his hand holding the water cup a little, it still had a tremor.
āIām no diplomat. I just.. Iāve been around a lot of people that had to know just what to say in order to get the result they want.ā He paused to look right at Tessa, but his body posture shifted to something defensive, like he really didnāt want to talk about this, at all, because it caused such discomfort.
āMy family is a matriarchy. Iām not exactly a people person, but saying the wrong thing to the wrong girl in my family can net you some pretty brutal and unorthodox responses and results.ā Tover cleared his throat to bite away the topic, it was too uncomfterable and it showed heavily all over him, eyebrows strained as he took a proper drink of water and got into answering.
āA couple years ago I was in a private school, and something very much like this happened.ā He nodded over to Norrevinter.
āExcept that back then, I didnāt know what the cost was. Over a few years that person only ever got seen as a bully, and was treated in a way that only made things go more and more downhill. All because they never had a chance to turn it around, because of something they did right at the beginning in front of everyone. I only learned later of the effects that had, and I wasnāt the person you just saw talking either. I couldenāt help then, and I felt regret. I couldnāt bear to see watching it play out for a second time. So I was just going to take the humiliation of failing infront of everyone.ā his head dipped down, as if the outcome he was expecting in his head was playing and it was considerably more bleak that what had actually transpired.
ā Iād rather live with the knowledge that I did what I wanted and followed my will, then live with another regret of āIt didnāt have to be that way.āTover was fighting with his tie without having noticed it. The thing almost completely undone. He was frowning during his lean, the common eyes only half-open look glued to an empty spot in the middle of the table. Like he couldenāt bear to look at anyone right now.
āIf it happens that Kora likes me more because of it.. I mean. It would be nice, and I wonāt mind, because Iāve always wanted more friends. Real friends.ā He raised his head, and looked in Norrevinterās general direction.
āBut I doubt it. Sheās a big bundled ball of pride, and I think all I actually did was maybe prevent the mess from getting worse, but I doubt she sees me as anything more than someone who got in the way of her feuding. If thatās how it is, thatās fine. I did my part in giving her the chance to show that she was a person, and not just.. another bully. Because I wasnāt convinced the person from a few years ago was one either, just never got the chance to be seen as anything else.āTover moved his food tray to the side.
āThat aside, Iām sorry for using your fall as an excuse to get that done. That wasnāt kind of me. But it doesnāt seem like thatās something you didnāt know.ā His ghostly grey eyes met Tessaās, and returned the penetrating gaze. She was clever. She wasnāt the only one as Tover was warming up to her.
āIām happy to have made a friend that realized there was more to my little piece of drama than just pretty words. Thanks Tessa, and thanks for playing along and letting things play out so things went well for everyone.ā His expression faded back to a solemn calm. Breaths easing into the soft normality as his explanation was over, a small smile returning as he remembered all the pleasant things that were said.
āI donāt have a middle name. The name is just Tover, some people just use āTovā if itās easier for spelling. If a nickname happens to come up, those are nice too. At the moment though, I think you said that you had some juicy details to tell people. Ermā¦ well. That sounds like itās girl-talk, and I feel a little in the way.ā Tover pushed away from the table and stood up, looking around to catch Jason Avalon in the corner of his eye, giving a stern talking to the black-haired spitfire that had darted in and provided napkins to Sterling. In that little group, he saw the place where he remembered the little fluff-critter-thing was making that dangerous noise earlier. Was it just him or did it look like that that girl felt really left-out?
Tover squinted at the sight before looking back down at the girls with some concern.
āHey Dawn, Tess? thereās a girl over there that looks really left out, and youāre all really pleasant. So while youāre gossiping, Iām going to see if I canāt get her to come to this table so she can make some friends too. Okay? He gave a brisk nod in Mitchās direction to give a heads up where he was going, and tapped the table twice to say he was off before walking.
The girls might have noticed that there might have been another reason or two he took a temporary break from the table. Opening up hadnāt made him comfortable, and the sudden shakiness in his voice near the end gave away that he really just needed a minute to recover. He was going to be fine and back, he didnāt dislike their company. Still, Tover is a boy talking talking to a group of girls, and that alone still needed some getting used to.
He made it a point to take the long way around. For comfortās sake if nothing else as he approached the table and softly spoke to the girl with the.. fluff-dog-thing on her lap when he was close enough. Tover said hi from the side where Mitch didnāt have an earbud in.
āEm, hey. Iām at the table with some girls who are trying to make friends, and we noticed you were kind of keeping to yourself over here. Did you want to come make some friends too? Weāve got an open spot at the table for you, and these guys look pretty busy.āIt wasnāt a ploy either. Avalon was standing there with fire in his eyes and a purpose in his stance, and the Black-haired guy he was talking to seemed engrossed in the conversation. Whatever Avalon had planned, it wasnāt something he was part of, and it was just going to have to play out without him. Then again, he really felt like heād met Avalon before, and just couldnāt place where. Something to do with chess? Maybe. There was something about the way the guy spoke that just felt familiar. Heād ask later. For now he was glad for the momentary reprieve as he caught a few words between Jason and Drake, his shoulder turned to them. Not quite wanting to get involved in something again so soon.