Life was an empty shell of pretend perfection and he was tired living in all of the lies. Besides, the voice in his head says that its time to get a clue.
Lyle was a normal kid. Medium height, blue eyes, brown hair, and decent grades. He never really had to focus in school because he understood things the first time he saw them. Because of this other children tended to ostracize him. They decided that he thought he was better than them because he excelled at school. But that was okay, Lyle wasn???t much one for friends anyways.
He wasn???t quiet or secluded, he was rather outgoing actually, but he didn???t want to get tied down to anyone, he never really had time for friends anyways. Most of the time he???s stay in his room, lying on his bed. His parents assumed that it was clinical depression and took him to many therapists. They all asked endless questions, but he never told them about the voice in his head. He never told them about Delilah.
(The voice in his head)
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Fish is quiet. Fish is strange. Fish doesn???t make much sense at all, and he really doesn???t care. He???s nice to everyone, but he doesn???t talk much and when he does it???s really quiet tone. He has a nervous twitch in his left hand and it tends to twitch when he???s listening the most to Delilah. He ran away because Delilah told him to. He???s becoming more and more susceptible to her will, though he???s beginning to try and fight back.
There???s a voice in his head. It???s not the usual voice you hear though. It???s not his voice telling him his thoughts, or his mother???s voice acting as his conscience, or the sound of his lover telling him that he loves him. It???s a voice separate from anything usual or rational in his life; it???s a voice that is no longer anywhere else but in his mind.
The voice tells him that it???s his past life, and it says it in the voice of a little girl. It tells him that it???s name is Delilah. So it???s actually not a voice, but a person. A little extra person trapped inside his head to talk to. Delilah likes to explain things to him, things that he don???t understand, and she???s always telling him about people. Sometimes she gets angry and makes him hurt himself, but she always apologizes in the end.
Delilah tells him that when adults are talking he should listen and try to understand. When he do this, it pleases her. She says that adults will talk about anything in front of children and that he should utilize this advantage to the fullest extent while he still have it. She explains how adults think that children are too young to comprehend anything important so they speak freely without a care.
Because of the voice in his mind, because of the other person ensnared in his head with him, she???s helped him be different and unlike the other children. She???s helped him grow up in a way that lets him understand the twisted world of adults and the net of lies that they weave over us to keep us ???safe??? from knowledge that we might just be better off knowing.
They always start with something simple, Delilah taught him to realize that. It???s always one little white lie that won???t do any harm. But Delilah showed him how that one small falsehood could turn into something so much more as adults continuously add on to it. Until it weaves itself into a net to tangle around us and trap us underneath it, attempting to conceal the truth. But Delilah taught him to look between the intertwined ropes, to look out each hole in the net with wide eyes to see the truth.
At first she was only there every once in a while; when he was alone she???d come to him and whisper secrets in his ear. She???d tell him things like how adults lie and told him that he could get back at them by listening when they didn???t think he was. Suddenly though she was always there, and he always had her presence in his mind and always heard her voice. he listened to what she said and did as he was bidden.
When it all started, Delilah was perfectly kind and wonderful to him. Always praising and saying sweet things when he completed a task that she had set before him. But sometimes, when he made a mistake or refused to do as she asked, she???d rage at him and curse his name incessantly. It wasn???t long before she realized that if her will was strong enough she could make him do things. She could take control of a part of him and then use it. She???d make him take knives and cut into his skin. Or if nothing that could be used as an instrument of pain was around, his nails digging into his flesh and cutting bloody crescents into his flesh. he don???t like it when she???s angry.
Delilah doesn???t like to be angry either, and she apologizes every time. She tells him that it???s something she had to do, to help him focus on what he need to do to get back at his parents for weaving that net of lies to capture him and pull him under. Delilah is always right though, so he must do as she says. Delilah always tells the truth, so he must believe what she says. Delilah is always with him, so he must make sure to gratify her.
As long as he follow her instructions to the very last syllable, she will not make him harm himself in any way. As long as he agree with what she says, she won???t use his body for herself. That???s how it???s always been for as long as he can remember, and that???s how it will always stay. he don???t mind because it means that he???ll have this level of enlightenment about the world and that he???ll never be alone.
He???s so very afraid of being left alone. He???s had Delilah for so long that being without her seems impossible. If she were to ever leave. . . he don???t know where he would be. She???s the crutch that helps him stand, the frame to hold his pieces, the strings to his immovable limbs. She gives him personality, she gives him life, she gives him reason and there is nothing more he could ask for from her.
To be alone is a frightening thought. To be by himself with no one to speak to or to care for him. To have to think on his own without a voice giving him an opinion to hold up. . . It would be worse than hell could ever be. Delilah loves him, she says so every day. She tells him that she loves him as he sit and listen. She tells him that she loves him as he do what is asked of him. She tells him she loves him as he bandage his bleeding wounds. She loves him, which makes everything else she does alright. The end will justify the means and the pain it took to get us there. The end always justifies everything. The end is the justification; Delilah says so.
Lyle was a good kid. A weird kid, but a good one. The thing that separated him from everyone else was a simple thing really, the voice in his head. The voice in his head told him that life wasn???t the pretty little painting everyone made it out to be, and because of this he could never truly talk to people in a trusting way. Because of this his parents believe he suffered from some type of mental illness and took him to many therapists all over the country.
This made Delilah, the voice in his head, very angry. She ???instructed??? him to never tell anyone about her, and backed her demands with pain. Pain that she could cause him. His parents were beginning to become suspicious, Delilah could see that they noticed Lyle???s twitch, and how he always seemed to be mumbling to himself. She decided enough was enough and got Lyle to run away. What Delilah didn???t expect was for Lyle to find drugs.
The first time Fish dug the needle into his vein and injected the heroin, it was bliss. Delilah was gone, his parents were gone, and he had his thoughts to himself, even if these thoughts were, well, not really coherent. He became quiet and subdued, would do anything to get his hands on heroin, cocaine, any prescription drugs he could take to give him the buzz.
Now Fish has somehow found three other kids to run with on the streets. They hide out in alleys and warehouses and they all have their own issues to deal with. He???s changed his name and he???s sure they have as well, but when he???s high and not dealing with reality he doesn???t give a crap about any of it. He???s decided that he can???t go back, he knows he???s got some kind of mental illness and he isn???t ready to deal with that. He probably won???t ever be.