Setting
Fighting down the bitter disappointment, and forcing herself to come to terms with what was happening, she waited until he drew close, to reach for the gun, before reaching out to gently take his hand.
"You could have just been honest with me." she said, trying not to sound as disappointed as she felt.
It wasn't working.
You barely know him. Having sex doesn't change anything. He's got things to do, Casey. What makes you think that what happened last night is going to make anything different?
"I was being honest with you," Randin spoke quietly and comfortingly, "it's because I was being honest with you that I have to leave." His free hand reached under his pillow, retrieving his second magnum and laying it down on the bedside table.
"I really like you, Casey," he continued, "I want to be with you. I want to spend more time with you and have a chance at a real relationship with you." He shook his head solemnly. "...but I can't do that knowing that I'm putting your life in danger. If I want any chance at making this work, I need to make sure you're safe." He reached into his pocket, revealing the Hadante coin that the Guatrau had given him earlier. "And it starts with this. I'm going to fix this, Casey. I'm going to fix this or die trying."
"This is stupid." she said finally. "You're a chivalrous idiot, but I think that's one of the things I really like about you."
She pressed her face to his shoulder, eyes squeezed shut. "But dying's not helpful to anyone. I'll be really really mad if you die."
A tear stained his dress-shirt, followed quickly by a second.
"I'm not usually a lucky man, Casey," he whispered, "but I don't usually need luck. I'm made of hard stuff and I don't go down easy." He wiped at the tears in her eyes. "...especially when I have a reason to stay on my feet. I'll come back. I'm too stubborn to die, anyway."
He was lying to her, of course, but he didn't want her to know that. The chances of Randin making it out of Hadante unscathed were slim. He was going there to protect Casey. The safety of his OWN life was only a secondary objective.
...there was always that chance he would come back. To her. And maybe, just maybe, she'd have a real chance at something worthwhile.
"Promise you'll try." she said, painstakingly pulling her hands back until they rested on his shoulders.
"I'll be back soon," he nodded, holstering his magnum. Turning, he would attempt to leave all at once. He shut the door on his way out, careful not to look back for even a moment.
Her eyes were filled with tears, her teeth grit with concentration as she stared at them, listening to that little voice in the back of her head.
Just one more. One. More.
Bowing her head, the girl curled in on herself, her hands squeezing the pills until she felt some of them crack in her grip. It hurt. She hurt. She just didn't know how much of this was physical pain, and how much of it was emotional.
"Someone stop me." she breathed.
Right on time, the door closed right behind the punk, who walked in to find Gabby crumpled with a handful of pills. It was an automatic reaction. Farai knelt down next to Gabby and tried to pry open her hand. "Jesus Christ, Gabby! What the hell?"
What else did it look like? She looked on the verge of a suicide attempt.
"What do you think you're doing!?"
"I was counting them," she breathed, swallowing past a lump in her throat. "I...I didn't know how many I had left. I wanted to make sure I..."
Slowly, she shook her head, reaching to pick them up. "I don't want to take more than I have to, I just, I hurt, and I can't figure out if its real."
Gritting her teeth, she squinted her eyes shut and bowed her head. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"You can't...do this, Gabby." said Farai, glancing back at the pills before trying to look her in the eye. "You know you can't do this!"
For a moment, she saw herself like she was looking at the scenario from an outsider's vantage point. She was kneeling on the carpet, looking haggard and miserable and sick, and there was Farai, worried for her, caring for her, and all she could do to repay them was threaten herself by falling back into old habits...
...she was hurting them too.
Shaking her head, she suddenly lurched, grabbing for the pills, each and every one of them, before stumbling to her feet.
"I can't do this." she whispered.
They grabbed for her. "Gabby, what are you doing? Let me help you, please, just don't you dare! You can't! We've worked so hard up to this point!"
"Just give me a second!" she nearly shouted. "Don't stop me, or I'm going to lose the nerve."
She was shaking, tears gathering at the corners of her eyes as she pulled herself out of their grasp. Meeting Farai's eyes with an agonized look of her own, she spun on her heel marching towards the guest bathroom, and with a tremulous hand, all but threw the pills into the toilet bowl.
A single sob escaped her, but she slammed her hand down on the handle to flush, then fell back against the door frame, her head leaning back as tears began to slip down her face.
"I can't hurt you anymore." she moaned, covering her face with her hands as she slid down, coming to rest on the floor.
"I'm so sorry."
Just until the toilet flushed, anyway.
Farai looked at Gabby with absolute disbelief at what she'd done. Slowly, very slowly, they approached her, dropped to a kneel, and reached for her arms. They drew her close, in an embrace that was careful of her injuries.
"You're so dumb..." whispered Farai. "You're so unbelievably dumb. Start thinking about yourself more."
"I'll be okay. About time I started taking Motrin like a normal person." she muttered. "Just gotta suck it up and deal."
Resting her forehead against their shoulder, she added, "Thanks for putting up with me."
"I couldn't walk away if I tried, Gabby."
She turned her head to gently kiss their cheek, just as Casey walked in the front door of the apartment, her eyes widening as she took in the sight of them both kneeling on the floor.
"Jesus are you two okay?" she asked, eagerly rushing over to their side. "What happened?"
"...pills happened. But she flushed them down the toilet. We're...we're okay, now."
"I got stuff for milkshakes." she explained. "Sounds like the pair of you need it. I'm probably going to be hanging out doing work st--"
There was a sharp rap on the door. Casey turned, her brow furrowing, before looking back to Farai with a small sense of urgency.
"Take her into the back bedroom, yeah?" she asked, before turning and going to the door.
"Lets go..." said the dancer, one hand around her waist, her arm around their shoulder. "You should just take a long nap, Gabby. It'll help everything. I'll even be right here..."
"You going to be okay?" she asked, sticking close to Farai. Casey smiled, but there was a little strain at the corners of her eyes.
"I'll be swell, Gabby. Just...go with Farai, ok?"
She watched, waiting for them to disappear behind the door, before going to answer the other. Two men in dark uniforms stood waiting for her, handing over their business card and asking something of her in a dark undertone. She nodded, smiling, before holding up a hand and closing the door.
She went to the back room.
"Ok." she said as she came into the room, before going to grab a bag. She took her gun, also, and strapped it to her hip. "I don't think anything's going to go down, but if I'm not back by the end of the day, Farai, I want you to call this number." She passed over a written piece of paper to the youth.
"Call him Biohazard if you want to get on his good side. Stay low, okay? Keep an eye on her." She gestured to Gabby before giving them a brief salute.