Age
16
Gender
Male
Height/Weight
Sam is 5"6', and weighs 120lbs.
Body Structure
He has faint freckles on his face and hands. His eyes are stormy- grey, with some blue, They are pretty to look at. Sam's hair is short and ruffled. It is a dark bluish purple. His skin is almost white, and ghostly pale; but very pink on his face, shoulders, knees, and hands. His hands are smaller than anyone he knows, and feet are petite. Sam wears ashy eyeliner, that is a faded grey. He has a beauty mark placed under his left eye.
Reason For Killing
Samantha felt like he wasn't getting any love, and stabbed his sister to death. He said it was an accident, but his family thinks different.
"I-I, never wanted ...to ... to hurt anyone."
Disorders
Schizophrenia, and Bi-polar Personality Disorder.
"Its hard, having to have an inner conflict with my own mental state. And then constantly having it abandon you by showing you whats not there. Sometimes its like I'm losing myself, when I know I'm really not."
Phobia's/Fears
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Chiraptophobia- Fear of being touched.
Gymnophobia- Fear of nudity.
Likes/Dislikes
Sam loves to sing, nothing more to say. It is his passion, and without his voice he feels trapped inside his body. He also enjoys small things, such as reading. his favorite type of book is fantasy; because he feels as if he can be whisked away to almost anywhere, and have a grand adventure. He loves writing his own songs, and singing at bars. He likes flicking his wrist, as it makes a funny sound; like clicking. Same was never a fan of video games. He disliked electronics because they always hurt his eyes. Sam has never liked being outdoors because of a bad experience when he was little. He dislikes clumsy people, and hates crowds.
Personality
Sam is guilty of many mood-swings. He is usually quiet, and controlled. Deep inside he just wants to break out and sing, but he cannot because how how people expect him to act. He feels like no one understands him, and aches to be accepted. When angry he will lash out all who try to comfort him, and expect them to understand. Unfortunately next to no one understands him. When he is sad, he is usually invulnerable to anything even things that would otherwise make him ecstatic. Sam is eccentric, and will usually establish that he is not like others. He is frequently scolded because his behavior is otherworldly compared to his brothers.
Past
Sam was born into the Holt family. Rich parents who cared a loved for him. When he was born, two brothers had already existed. the eldest, Frederick, and the middle, Matthew. The family was as loving and normal for about 6 years. When Sam was six, his brother Frederick (who at the time was 16) tried to smother him. Fred had gotten tired of being ignored by Meril (their mother) and decided to rid himself of the obstacle. Luckily Matthew (who was 10) stopped him. Meril scolded Fred and he was not allowed to see Sam for 4 years.
When Sam aged to 10 years old, exactly 4 years after Fred tried too kill him, Sam started showing signs of Bi-polar disorder. He was too young to be diagnosed and Meril was told to watch for signs. During this time, his father was away at the war. he had joined 4 years after Sam was born. While still having a conflict with himself, Sam entered a talent show. Him and his childhood friend Roswell, were supposed to sing a duet; but Roswell was late. by the time his friend got there, Sam was already singing perfectly and had stole the show. After it was over and it was clear that he had won, Roswell kissed him, in front of everyone. He was forever burned with the thought that he may be gay.
This was when he was told that his father had died in the war. His family was scared, and for days they stayed locked up in the house, and did not do anything. Sam was the first to break the pattern, and answered the door. It was the Military here to deliver the body of his father. He declined and he decided that it was time to write a song. He was sad, and frustrated and this caused his Bi-polar to get worse. He was starting to be completely consumed by himself. He was at war with his mind, and he was losing.
By now he decided he couldn't stand living. He tried to commit suicide again by slicing his wrist up. This time, he walked to the hospital dripping blood, and was checked in. A few months later they found out that his mother was pregnant. He didn't like this, and made his mother get an abortion. A year later they adopted a 13 year old girl. Sam, accidentally stabbed her to death. It was not a pretty sight, and his mother sent him away.
Other
Sam Sings, and writes songs, sometimes dances, and listens to rain. learning foreign languages.
Currently knows: English, German, Japanese, and in the middle of French.
Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson :D
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone