Caleb Jonathon Lovely
Nickname:
The Puppy, Pouty
Age:
Twenty-three
Date of Birth:
February 23
Origin:
New York
Sexuality:
Bisexual
Occupation:
Student/Computer Programmer
Dialogue Color:
#8365A1
The betrayal he connects with his mother and father are a large reason for why he's so loyal and emotional. While plenty of others would come out of his situation the exact opposite of him, hardened and cautious, he managed to maintain mostly positive traits. However, these positive traits can be negative if at the right extreme, and with Caleb, that's where his flaws begin. He has a hard time taking even the smallest things to heart, not able to compartmentalize between what's a big deal what was simply not worth the worthy. Because the smallest comment could spark a large argument between his parents, he was of course always on eggshells, always trying to predict a fight before it happened so he wouldn't be caught off guard. His detail-oriented nature, coupled with his emotional side, acts as a coping mechanism, but also works against him because he'll manage to find something out of nothing. That being said, he forms attachments with people and things quickly and irresponsibly, latching onto anything he perceives as good. That has, of course, led to many more betrayals and harsh reality checks, yet he somehow still didn't learn until recently. And even still, at his core, he is far too hopeful and trusting in the world. He feels a need to see good in everything, otherwise he'll crumble. This is why he hates negativity, and especially rude people. He feels partially responsible for what happened with his mother, so in a way, this is his making up for it. When he feel they're threatened enough, his generally cheery demeanor will change completely. His 'red side' has only revealed itself a handful of times since he tries not to let his anger consume, but when pushed to the right levels, he can be an entirely different person. He definitely views this as a flaw and tries to remain as positive as possible. Ironically, though, he is good for holding grudges. It's definitely not something he's proud of, especially since it seems like a nice gateway to turning out like his father, but he just can't let go. And being that it doesn't seem to have an effect on his outer personality, he doesn't feel the need to really change it.
In college, he evolved a lot, physically and mentally. As far as personality goes, he became much more secure in himself, and thankfully got out of that naive attitude. Even now, it's quite apparent that he isn't the same as he once was. He's far bolder and much more confident, things slide off his shoulder much easier now, and he's not as afraid of confrontation as he was as a kid. Additionally, he also has an air of arrogance about him. To make matters worse, he's perfectly aware of it too, and chooses to embrace it. He knows that he looks good and that his life is going great and has learned to not be ashamed of that. Of course, there is definitely a difference between being ashamed and being cocky. He's not so bad to where he's an asshole now, but compared to his much more tepid, babylike personality as a kid, it's apparent that he's feeling himself. Nevertheless, Caleb will always be Caleb, and his closest friends know that. No matter how nice the hair or the job or the Instagram feed, he'll always be the puppy of the group. His signature pout and the way he wrinkles his nose when he's not happy aren't going anywhere.
It took another six months for his mother to finally leave New York with her paramour. With their arrival to Boston, all of their worries seemingly disappeared. Robert was out of the picture, they had a nice house in a nice neighborhood, with a nice 'new dad', as his sister liked to call his mother's boyfriend, James. It was this year, in the third grade, that he began attending the school where he met all of his current friends. With all of their troubles gone, for the most part, Caleb was expecting to embrace this new life and not look back, but instead, his resentment for his father had only intensified, as well as for his mother. While she was in a better environment, Caleb still noticed how James would comfort at night as she cried. He noticed how often James would excuse their mother from the dinner table because she had one glass of wine too many. For a long time, he had nothing but anger for both of his parents, but it was his feelings towards Hannah that bothered him the most, because in a way, he felt guilty since his father was clearly no victim. As a kid, he didn't have the words to give language to his emotions, but he knows now that his resentment towards his mother was because of how he felt she failed him, especially after his dad broke his arm and it took her six months to leave. He was angry that she 'let' their dad do this to their family, and that she didn't try to even protect her children. As he got older, Caleb knew he wasn't being fair, and those conflicting feelings and knowledge only caused him more turmoil.
Despite the turbulence, he would still say he had a good childhood, especially since his best friend was there to help him through a lot. Getting into college was a turning point for him, as he essentially did a 180 as far as his personality and looks went. With this evolution came a newfound confidence in himself, but he still struggled and continues to struggle in some aspects of his life. University was a time of experimenting in all aspects of the word, and even if those four years were incredibly liberating and life changing, that didn't keep him from being mum on his sexuality until this year. After equating his attraction for men to being gay, before realizing that he still likes girls as well, Caleb identifies as being bisexual, but the 'change' made him uncomfortable in the sense that he feels like sure about himself than he'd like to be. Add to the fact that this is the first time he'll be around his friends since coming out, he's unsure how the summer will go. He doesn't expect anyone to isolate him, but it's still something he's secretly timid about, even if he doesn't act like it.