Savannah Mayrse Lovelace's Story

Savannah

"Gross" says Celine.
I pull off echo grab his hand and smile at Celine and whisper in her ear
"so not gross" she lookes at me with a disgusted face i go to head up the stairs but i hear dads voice coming down.
"savannah? Is that you?” oh oh dad doesn't approve of echo they dont get along well he says warlocks are heart breakers but I mean look at magnus and alec there fine. I pull echo round a corner and say my rooms good but the elevators better we head over to it and the doors open before I press the button and there he is chruch I dont even quite understand how he can use the lift but anyway we just ingnore him and jump in the elevator I go to kiss him and he pulles away and sighs he startes to talk,
“savannah look mabye…… we arent the greatset all we do is make out and…..so I think we sould take a break”
I look at him in the eye I cant tell if he's joking I gho to say something but before I do he walkes out I collapes on the ground I wait until I hear his feet walk out the door and I burst into tears I loved him dads right warlocks suck.
I hear footsteps coming round the corner I suck up my tears because I think its echo.
“savannah?.. are you ok”
I see Christophers face poke round the side of the elevator I jump up and give him the biggest hug and start crying on his shoulder
“no no im not” I say through the tears

Christopher
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Everyone walked away from the door, mildly disgusted, Christopher felt as if he might be sick. He hated love. Hated it more than any other emotion. It was what made people weak and vulnerable. He rolled his eyes and headed to the elevator. All he wanted was to get some training done. The elevator lead away from the bedrooms and living room so he probably wouldn't run into anyone on his way to the training area.
Christopher walked silently to the old rattling elevator when he heard a sudden sobbing. He pressed himself against the wall and peered into the elevator. There was Savannah, kneeling on the floor balling her eyes out.
"Savannah?" he asked uncertainly, "Are you...okay?" As much as Christopher hated feelings of any kind, after love sadness was his least favourite.
Suddenly, Savannah jumped up and wrapped her arms around Christopher. He stumbled backwards from the force of her hug.
"No. No I am not." Savannah sobbed through the tears.
Christopher gingerly wrapped his arms around Savannah, "Uh... What hap-"
Before he could finish. Savannah blurted out the whole entire story.

Savannah

I couldent help it I just had to tell him and plus he asked kind of. im surprised he did ask though because he doesn't really like
'feeling' things.i love that about him though. love?. I love him? I think im in love with Christopher. OH MY GOSH IM IN LOVE WITH CHRISTOPHER? I have to tell him.
I run up the stairs tripping over my feet and then I start to cry im not sure why but I cant stop when I cry I get this weird happy sad feeling I wipe my eyes as I reach the top of the stairwell I don't even know where to start looking for him.

Christopher
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Christopher had been training with Finn for only twenty minutes after his... meeting with Savannah when she burst in the doors calling his name.
"Christopher!" she called, her eyes brightening as she saw him. Savannah bounded over to Christopher and threw herself upon him, knocking him backwards again. She clearly had no idea what she was doing. Savannah kissed Christopher so ferociously that it hurt his mouth. He heard Finn drop his bow from the other side of the room.
Christopher shoved Savannah off him and she fell to the ground. "What in Raziel's name are you doing?"
She sat there, dazed.
"Savannah." Christopher explained, "I don't like you! And I never will. You're so weak to feel love like that. Get out."
Savannah slowly rose to her feet, hurt shining behind her green eyes. She walked out.
"Woah, man. That was harsh." Finn said from across the room
"You didn't see any of that. Clear?"
Finn said nothing but Christopher heard an arrow hit the target.
Christopher picked up a throwing knife and threw it at the target beside him. Bullseye.

Savannah
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My heart feels like it has dropped out of my body and been stabbed with a thousand stele's. The kiss was the most magical thing that has ever happened to me I am truly in love with Christopher Herondale but the way he reacted I don't think feels the same way that is why my heart is on the ground with holes stabbed through it so that's why im not in love with Christopher Herondale anymore. I actually feel like im going to die my head is aching and im dehydrated probably from all the liquid I've lost in tears
I want to scream and stab him through the heart so he knows what this feels like to have feelings urgh why do I like guys I collapse on my bed mum must of heard me crying so she comes in and says
"hey Hun are you ok?"
"no mum its pretty clear im not"
"ok, tell me what happened" so I told her everything by the end feel so much better
mum gets up and is about to go out the door she looks really mad
"mum where are you going?"i ask
"nowhere that matters "she answers

Savannah
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"ok talk to ya later Alice" i say and i hang up the phone
i walk over to my cuboard and strip off completely what should i wear i slip on my purple and black undies and my black jeans when i hear a knock on the door i turn around and then i realise i have no top on
"DONT COME IN"
but its to late Christopher walks in
"HOLY SHIT"
"WTF GET OUT OF MY ROOM CHRISTOPHER WHAT THE FUCKING HELL"
i throw my pillow at him his eyes are locked on my boobs he slowly backs out of my room but then hazel walks in the room
"whats going o........" i can feel her eyes on my boobs i lift my hands up and turn around so im covering them.
"hazel? what are you doing"
she raises her eyebrows
"nothing sorry.............. nice tits by the way"
she walkes out and my face goes red i grab a black coat and walk up to christopher who is bright red he stands up
"what do YOU want?" i ask
"urrghhh ummmm"
i slap him in the face
"that's for the traning room"
i slap him again
"that's for ogling my boobs"

Savannah
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"so that's when i slapped him right in the face he looked like he was going to cry" I say I feel like complete and utter Typical Mundane Teen crying at a café' table to my best friend about my problems this isn’t what a shadowhunter does. 3rd or 2nd rule of being a shadowhunter have no feelings or something along those lines. If Christopher called me weak which he did and if Christopher can have no feelings I suppose I should try and maybe I wouldn’t feel like this all the time.
"oh hun I'm so sorry....." I interrupt her before Alice could finish
"don't be I'm totally and officially over.."
I sigh
"over him" I finish
"thanks for the support Alice but I'm fine now Truly Honestly Extremely fine." most of that was true well at least it will be eventually it will take time but step by step I will get rid of my 'feelings' i step out of the café and head over to the institute i grab the doorhandle and open the door when i see inside there’s a person I've never seen before.
But Clary has him in a headlock with a knife to his throat oh no i better help.

savannah
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"Clary let him go I sure he has a reasonable explanation for being in the institute he's obviously a shadowhunter Just look at his runes."
"Ok what's your name then?" she asks him
"..........uh.... Scorpio"
"well it's nice to meet you Scorpio welcome to the new York institute" there was no reply
"See Clary you just have to ask now excuse me i have some business to attend to" well i do i have figured out a way to get rid of my feeling whenever i feel something i will go throw some knives or practice my fighting just something like that. i head up to the training room but when i get there I'm not alone
"hey Mum" i say
"hello darling I'm almost done i wont be here long"
i go over to the punching bag i was probably in there for hours because when dad came and got me it was after dinner
"hey sweetie.... are you almost done you've been in there for hours you’ve missed dinner"
"Yep sure...dad"
i head out of the training room up to mine i feel exhausted but no better on the feelings side at all my heart still feels dead and i still want to cry i guess its harder than it Looks. i go open the door to my Room to see someone sitting on my bead
"Alice?... is that you?" there was no answer i walk closer and it is her
"Alice what are you doing in my room" she stands up and looks at me there is something different about her i can no longer see the happiness in her eyes just long dark pits of nothingness
"Alice" i ask, "are you ok"
"i bring a warning from my master.."
"Alice what the hell.."
"yes hell that is where Master was born..... master said that you should prepare for more demon attacks and that he will kill evry last one of your little Shadowhunter Friends"
"Alice you’re scaring me now" she doesn’t answer for a while
"be more careful Shadowhunter next time he's coming for you"
Then she passes out i scream for help
"MUMMMM, DADD CHRI..." but finish there what am i saying why Christopher
mum walks in the door along side with dad
"what! the hell savannah do you know what the time is"
and then she looks down
"oh my.... what happened to Alice" Tears start to run down my face
"I don’t know she must have" sniff" been possessed because she said and then i told them everything she said i was scared as hell and then she woke up.

Alice
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I wake up in savannahs room extremely confused my head thumping ow
"savannah"I say pressing my hand up against my head
"what's going on"
i look up at her, face pale she looked like a vampire
she takes a step back
"savannah what are you doing" she pulled out her seraph blade
"SAVANNAH WHAT THE HELL"
"get out of my room fowl demon get out"
"come on savannah it's me" why is she acting so weird
"Alice?" she asks
"yes? i think so" i answer
"omg" she says she runs up to me and gives me a hug
"what's that for?" i ask
"you.... were possessed and you threatened me i was ssso scared Alice" she looked like she was going to cry but she sucked it up
"I'm sorry....arghhhh" i say "my head its caning"
"oh right hand me your stele" she draws a healing rune on me but it just disappears.
"what the hell!" she says
Savvanah dramas another but once again it just disappears
"this is weird you should go see Magnus.
"nah it's fine i will just take some headache tablets"
"Magnusssss!" she scar ems
"no this is important a shadowhunter without runes..... Ha yeah right!"

Christopher

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Celine pushed me in through the doors to the sitting room. I heard the soft click of the doors locking behind me.
What the hell?
I looked around and saw her. She was sitting on the couch hugging her knees to her chest and rocking back in forth as if she was having a panic attack.
Savannah.
She hasn't noticed me yet. I don't know if i actually want her to notice me. It'd probably be best if I just leave but Celine locked the doors on me. Runes don't work on the Institute doors anyway.
For once in my life, I don't know what to do. Should I talk to her? Should I just stand here? Should I scream and yell at her for being such a fucking bitch to me?
I just stand there. Frozen.
Suddenly she looks up, not at me but out the window on the other side of the room. I look too. The sun is setting and the orange and pink light is spilling through the window, lighting up her hair and making her eyes glow.
She looks like a painting or photograph. I don't paint but looking at her like this makes me wish I could.
"I know you're there Christopher." she says all of a sudden. Her voice is surprisingly steady considering how she looked a minute ago, "What do you want?"
I blink. I don't think i was expecting her to talk to me.
Savannah stands up and faces me, golden light glistening on her dark hair, "I said, what do you want?" she says slightly louder.
I know what happens when I don't answer. She's about to start yelling me riiiiiiiight about-"
"WHAT DO YOU WANT CHRISTOPHER? WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE? YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING OR ANYONE BUT YOURSELF AND ANYONE WHO COULD POSSIBLY CARE ABOUT YOU, YOU JUST PUSH THEM AWAY!"
I was expecting the yelling but it feels as if I've been punched in the stomach. I can't breathe and all I can do is stand there and try not to show it.
"I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" She's making a strange face, almost squinting but... different.
I butt in, "Why are you making a weird face?" I blurt out.
"BECAUSE YOU SAID I WAS WEAK SO I'M TRYING NOT TO HAVE FEELINGS LIKE YOU BECAUSE APPARENTLY THAT MAKES YOU STRONGER!"
Oh
"Savannah that's not going to-"
"I AM NOT WEAK OKAY?!" she screams, not seeming to hear me.
Now it's my turn to yell, "YOU ARE SO WEAK TO LET FEELINGS GET TO YOU LIKE THAT! YOU'RE A DEAD WEIGHT TO SHADOWHUNTERS! A DISGRACE!' The words hurt like fire coming out of my mouth and as soon as I've said them, I immediately regret it.
I can tell Savannah is trying so hard to hold back tears. I can see in her eyes that I've just shattered something inside her. All of a sudden a wave of emotions comes crashing over me. I want to run to her. To hug her and say I'm sorry. To tell her all the things I wish I could. I don't want to stay mad at you. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'm so, so sorry Savannah.
I miss you.
But I don't. Because...
Because I don't know.
Because I'm afraid.
Afraid she'll push me away and scream at me to leave. Afraid she'll do what I did to her and push me to the ground and look at me, disgusted.
"What are you thinking?" She says in a choked voice.
I turn away as I feel tears pricking the back of my eyes. I haven't cried for so long.
I walk to the other set of doors, "It doesn't matter." I whisper and walk out.

Savannah
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My eyes sting from the tears urgh christopher is urghh. I get up and head out the lounge room finn is standing there
"Hey did we help you hook up with christopher you were in there for a while....wait did you..."
"WHAT THE HELL FINN NO! AND YOU DID THAT YOU PUT HIM IN THERE HOW COULD YOU DO TTHAT TTO MME" I say crying so much my head hurts finn goes to hug me but i push him away
"No finn you've done....enough"
I walk up to my room but i realise everyone will look for me there i go to the place where no one goes
The mundane world
I head out the door and walk and walk when i hear someone crying thats when i see his face i go to leave
"Savannah wait..." i turn back around i can see the hurt in his eyes and i know he can see the hurt in mine i want to cry but ii cant i just cant.
"Savannah..... back in the living room there was so much i wanted to say to you but i just couldent.....II..I'm......sor..."
But before he finishes he runs up and kisses me ot wasent loving it was painful but warm it was like it was killing me to kiss him but....... urgh he pulles of of me and i rest my head on him he hugs me.
"Im sorry Savannah"

Christopher

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I'm still crying alone in the rain when I see Savannah come out from the Sanctuary. Her eyes are puffy and her cheeks are wet from tears. She's looking right at me. I know she's seen me crying. She goes to turn back inside but I jump up, not really sure what I'm doing.
"Savannah wait..." I call.
She turns around and it shatters my unbreakable heart to see her look like that. The hurt in her eyes is unbearable but I'm sure she can see it in mine too.
"Savannah..." I start, "Back in the living room, there was so much I wanted to say but I just couldn't....I..." I've never said the words 'I'm sorry' before in my life, "I'm sor..." Before I even finish saying it I don't even know what's happening but suddenly she's right there in front of me and my lips are on hers. It feels....strange but.....almost normal. I know she doesn't want to kiss me by the way she just stands there so I stop and pull off her. For a moment we just stand there in the rain and then she rests her head against my chest. I wrap my arms around her and hold her tightly.
"I'm sorry Savannah." I whisper. I really mean it too.
She slowly puts her arms around my waist and hugs me back but doesn't say anything. I put my lips against her rain-soaked hair. For the first time in my life I've actually felt something. I don't really know what it is yet but....
It doesn't matter.
Because I know that she feels it too.

Scorpio

“Hey you ok?” it was a while since he had spoken. “I don’t know” he answers. I don't know what to say to him. I'm not a very helpful person. " Umm have yo tried talking to her?" I ask im. He shakes his head" The last I saw of her was at the cottage and from what I've heard she hasn't come back yet" I am so confused. Glad my social life is more like a friendless person." well I wish I could be more help". With that I get up and wave bye. I head back inside and I see people. I move along the wall. I creep to my room. I sleep. I can look out the window and I see Christopher just sitting there by himself. What he'd done to Savannah was pretty horrible, I have to say. He should go talk to her himself. I hear footsteps moving around outside and the sounded if they were running. I hear a knock on my door. I open it and I see Isabelle Lightwood. How on earth did she know I live here." Where is she?" She yells at me.