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AESTHETIC
Now that he has a new face, Nicolas's appearance has changed slightly. He's a little taller now standing around 6' even, and he seems to hold more definition and tone then before. Thick, dark curls sit atop his head, wild if he fails to keep them in check. Nico's now fair skin is smoother, more youthful, and decorated with an occasional beauty mark. Clear blue eyes framed by prominent brows; open and expressive like the emotions that flicker across his face. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos.
Now that he has a new face, Nicolas's appearance has changed slightly. He's a little taller now standing around 6' even, and he seems to hold more definition and tone then before. Thick, dark curls sit atop his head, wild if he fails to keep them in check. Nico's now fair skin is smoother, more youthful, and decorated with an occasional beauty mark. Clear blue eyes framed by prominent brows; open and expressive like the emotions that flicker across his face. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos.
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PERSONA
Though he possesses high levels of observance and empathy; able to understand how those around him are feeling, Nicolas doesn't always have the sensitive maturity needed to deal with said 'feelings'. Inherently, he's kind. He never purposefully attempts to upset others, but he's got a mouth prone to sarcasm, and usually finds himself rambling when anxious or upset. He's put his foot in his mouth more than once because of this. Thankfully, that maturity is developing. He's good at telling when his friends are stressed, and coming up with ways to pull them out of their minds. He hates to see those he's close to upset, hates it more if he's accidentally caused the emotional harm.
He finds sitting still and focusing on study difficult, grows fidgety and bored after a while. Nicolas wants to do well, but even the best intentions don't always garner results. When it comes to social skills at least, Nic is much better versed. He's a friendly individual, and usually has an approachable smile plastered on his face. He laughs easily, jokes frequently, and loves nothing more than to be surrounded by his friends. Nic's slightly pliant to peer-pressure, and easily convinced to join in whatever adventurous fun those close to him want to undertake. He seems to go with the flow more often than not. Of course, even the most persuasive of people won't get him to drink. His father's alcoholism, has made him wary of the substances.
Nicolas spent years of his childhood shrinking from his father's harsh words, and at some points physical threats. He has trouble verbalising when he's unhappy with someone, tending to bury his worries and pretend like it's fine rather than confront them. Confrontation is something he actively avoids, and some might consider him a pushover at times. Nicolas has this amazing ability of avoiding his problems until they are ready to swallow him whole. He has his breaking points, of course. The closest of his friends, Sky, and the twins; Kimber and Kaity. More than once he's come to school with glitter stuck to his clothes after spending the previous night doing arts and crafts with the twins. Nic is surprisingly good with kids, and when he needs extra money but can't pick up a shift at his work, he usually offers his babysitting services to the neighbors.
Though he possesses high levels of observance and empathy; able to understand how those around him are feeling, Nicolas doesn't always have the sensitive maturity needed to deal with said 'feelings'. Inherently, he's kind. He never purposefully attempts to upset others, but he's got a mouth prone to sarcasm, and usually finds himself rambling when anxious or upset. He's put his foot in his mouth more than once because of this. Thankfully, that maturity is developing. He's good at telling when his friends are stressed, and coming up with ways to pull them out of their minds. He hates to see those he's close to upset, hates it more if he's accidentally caused the emotional harm.
He finds sitting still and focusing on study difficult, grows fidgety and bored after a while. Nicolas wants to do well, but even the best intentions don't always garner results. When it comes to social skills at least, Nic is much better versed. He's a friendly individual, and usually has an approachable smile plastered on his face. He laughs easily, jokes frequently, and loves nothing more than to be surrounded by his friends. Nic's slightly pliant to peer-pressure, and easily convinced to join in whatever adventurous fun those close to him want to undertake. He seems to go with the flow more often than not. Of course, even the most persuasive of people won't get him to drink. His father's alcoholism, has made him wary of the substances.
Nicolas spent years of his childhood shrinking from his father's harsh words, and at some points physical threats. He has trouble verbalising when he's unhappy with someone, tending to bury his worries and pretend like it's fine rather than confront them. Confrontation is something he actively avoids, and some might consider him a pushover at times. Nicolas has this amazing ability of avoiding his problems until they are ready to swallow him whole. He has his breaking points, of course. The closest of his friends, Sky, and the twins; Kimber and Kaity. More than once he's come to school with glitter stuck to his clothes after spending the previous night doing arts and crafts with the twins. Nic is surprisingly good with kids, and when he needs extra money but can't pick up a shift at his work, he usually offers his babysitting services to the neighbors.
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ATTRIBUTES
LIKES. Nicolas prefers the nighttime, and his mother always called him a little owl when he was a child. Oddly enough Nic loves to listen to Sky ramble, some of his fondest memories involve the two sitting in his room with Sky talking enough for the both of them. He enjoys running and often took morning jogs on the beach right as the sun was rising. He also enjoys peanut butter milkshakes from Tilly's.
DISLIKES. Nic cannot stand the thought of liars, as he is rather honest himself. Nicolas has never liked the thought of a bully, tater tots, or the sight of blood. He once scraped his knee during a track meet and passed out on the spot.
QUIRKS. Nicolas always drums his fingers against any surface he can find when he is nervous. Has a habit of telling awful jokes. Sometimes he sleepwalks when he's had a particularly stressful night.
STRENGTHS. Nicolas is selfless, he'll do anything to protect those he cares about and will lay anything down to protect them. It's why he endured his father's beatings to keep him away from his mother and sisters. He is also a great listener and rather thoughtful with advice even though he probably needs it the most. Nic is just a genuine friend. While he can be a little judgmental and hesitant at first due to differences, once he sees the good in someone he will be by their side.
WEAKNESS. Nicolas has always been quite insecure with almost everything, but he hides it well. Although most of the time he is unyielding to any negative comments about his character, he often takes it to heart. His self-worth is tied up in others and he can easily be beaten down by other's comments. He has always been overly sensitive, ever since he was a child. Nicolas also has a terrible problem of avoiding his problems until the blow up in his face.
FEARS. Most notably Nicolas is terrified of his father. The man went to extreme lengths to ruin his life, and as much as he has always wanted to stand up to the man he's always been too afraid. Now that he's back he also fears losing Skylar as Nic feels as if he's the only person he has left in his life Naturally, Nic is terrified of the sight of blood, it makes him sick to his stomach and he also hates spiders.
LIKES. Nicolas prefers the nighttime, and his mother always called him a little owl when he was a child. Oddly enough Nic loves to listen to Sky ramble, some of his fondest memories involve the two sitting in his room with Sky talking enough for the both of them. He enjoys running and often took morning jogs on the beach right as the sun was rising. He also enjoys peanut butter milkshakes from Tilly's.
DISLIKES. Nic cannot stand the thought of liars, as he is rather honest himself. Nicolas has never liked the thought of a bully, tater tots, or the sight of blood. He once scraped his knee during a track meet and passed out on the spot.
QUIRKS. Nicolas always drums his fingers against any surface he can find when he is nervous. Has a habit of telling awful jokes. Sometimes he sleepwalks when he's had a particularly stressful night.
STRENGTHS. Nicolas is selfless, he'll do anything to protect those he cares about and will lay anything down to protect them. It's why he endured his father's beatings to keep him away from his mother and sisters. He is also a great listener and rather thoughtful with advice even though he probably needs it the most. Nic is just a genuine friend. While he can be a little judgmental and hesitant at first due to differences, once he sees the good in someone he will be by their side.
WEAKNESS. Nicolas has always been quite insecure with almost everything, but he hides it well. Although most of the time he is unyielding to any negative comments about his character, he often takes it to heart. His self-worth is tied up in others and he can easily be beaten down by other's comments. He has always been overly sensitive, ever since he was a child. Nicolas also has a terrible problem of avoiding his problems until the blow up in his face.
FEARS. Most notably Nicolas is terrified of his father. The man went to extreme lengths to ruin his life, and as much as he has always wanted to stand up to the man he's always been too afraid. Now that he's back he also fears losing Skylar as Nic feels as if he's the only person he has left in his life Naturally, Nic is terrified of the sight of blood, it makes him sick to his stomach and he also hates spiders.
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STILL HOLDING ON. More than anything Nicolas wants to see Sky. Just to laugh with him, talk to him, and be with him. The last night they had together felt perfect, and he would give anything to feel that way again. Nicolas knows he needs to fix this, whatever this is. I . He knows he messed up by not letting Sky past his walls due to his fear. It was selfish of him. Death has taught him that he truly doesn't have the time he thinks, and if he could go back and do it all again he would.
HAPPIEST MEMORY. "One summer Sky and I went to the beach around three in the morning, god I think we were about fourteen. We laid on the sand and just talked forever. We talked about our families, we talked about our dreams and aspirations, we talked about our future together... we just talked about everything. At one point we stopped and tried to count as many stars as we could, we got to like a thousand before giving up. I remember coming so close to telling him then, but I got so scared. We were just so young, and I was just so afraid. But til sunrise we just sat there and talked, it was so peaceful."
"I just need the chance to tell Sky that it has always been him, that I love him."
STILL HOLDING ON. More than anything Nicolas wants to see Sky. Just to laugh with him, talk to him, and be with him. The last night they had together felt perfect, and he would give anything to feel that way again. Nicolas knows he needs to fix this, whatever this is. I . He knows he messed up by not letting Sky past his walls due to his fear. It was selfish of him. Death has taught him that he truly doesn't have the time he thinks, and if he could go back and do it all again he would.
HAPPIEST MEMORY. "One summer Sky and I went to the beach around three in the morning, god I think we were about fourteen. We laid on the sand and just talked forever. We talked about our families, we talked about our dreams and aspirations, we talked about our future together... we just talked about everything. At one point we stopped and tried to count as many stars as we could, we got to like a thousand before giving up. I remember coming so close to telling him then, but I got so scared. We were just so young, and I was just so afraid. But til sunrise we just sat there and talked, it was so peaceful."
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x x x x xAge Nine
"Get him!" Kimber yelled and the two sisters tackled Nicolas to the floor, all of them in a fit of giggles. They had all gotten back from their soccer game, and were fighting in the living room while Mom was making dinner in the kitchen. "Girls please don't attack your brother! After all he has a play date today with the neighbor boy!". Nic's face turned a bright shade of red as he hid his face in the couch. "Mom! I already told you it's called hanging out! I am already nine, 'play-dates' are for babies... Like Kimber and Kaity". The girls screeched at this comment and attacked him again as he defended himself with a mere pillow.
x x x x xAge Thirteen
"Have you ever noticed that you come over alot?" Sky was laying down on his bed staring up at the ceiling while Nicolas set cross-legged on the floor leaned up against the bed next to him. Nicolas's face flushed at the comment, a sense of nervousness sweeping over him. He was always reluctant to invite him over because of his father. "I mean... yes, does that bother you?" Skylar laughed at the response, completely filling the room within seconds. "Of course not," he exclaimed, "I love you being here, I just meant that I never really come to your place!" Relief set in, and Nic let out a shaky laugh. "Sorry, I just didn't want my family to, uh, scare you away" He could feel the air shift slightly in the room and he quickly interjected, "my sisters would probably terrorize you". Sky cracked a small smile and then they both shared a laugh.
x x x x xAge Fifteen
"What is this?" His father yelled, Nic flinching as his hand came down on the table hard rattling the glasses. "It's just one grade Dad, I already asked Mrs. - " "No! Keep this up and they'll throw you off the track team. You've been spending too much time with that neighbor boy. In fact, you're not leaving this home until you get these grades up" Nicolas scoffed lowering his head, "like you give a shit anyway" he mumbled under his breath. "What did you just say to me?" Nicolas's face practically turned red with rage as he stood up from his seat his voice raised, "like you give a shit any-" His father's fist connected with his jaw and Nicolas instantly crumpled to the ground holding his face in his hands, he could already feel the hot tears beginning to form. His father just made a small noise of disappointment before leaving him in the kitchen to cry until his mother found him when she got home that evening. He stayed home the rest of the week.
x x x x xAge Seventeen
Nicolas slammed his fist into the steering wheel, the loud honk drowning out his own thoughts. He hated himself for what he was doing, but he was scared. He couldn't go to anyone, he was alone. He could see it on Sky's face every time he saw him, the pain that he was causing. Nic knew what he was doing was hurting him but he was too afraid to stop distancing himself, afraid to get close, afraid to confess, afraid to love him, afraid to lose him. Now he could taste the salty tears running down his face, it was too much, why did everything have to be so damn complicated. He didn't want to hurt Sky, but he was losing him, the thought settled burying itself into his head. I am losing him.
x x x x xAge Nineteen
A bright light. Why wasn't I watching the road?. Pain. Sharp, blinding pain. He couldn't move, He couldn't breath, He smelled and tasted the blood on his tongue. It felt as if he was being held under water, drowning, only bubbles escaping his throat. After a while Nicolas felt himself become numb, he could no longer feel the pain, or anything. Someone was yelling his name. Skylar. He got out, he's okay, Nic was relived. Perhaps it was the idea that Skylar was safe that finally allowed Nicolas to let go. He felt a small tear cascade down his cheek as he took his last shaky breath in. Then the world went black.
x x x x xAge Nine
"Get him!" Kimber yelled and the two sisters tackled Nicolas to the floor, all of them in a fit of giggles. They had all gotten back from their soccer game, and were fighting in the living room while Mom was making dinner in the kitchen. "Girls please don't attack your brother! After all he has a play date today with the neighbor boy!". Nic's face turned a bright shade of red as he hid his face in the couch. "Mom! I already told you it's called hanging out! I am already nine, 'play-dates' are for babies... Like Kimber and Kaity". The girls screeched at this comment and attacked him again as he defended himself with a mere pillow.
x x x x xAge Thirteen
"Have you ever noticed that you come over alot?" Sky was laying down on his bed staring up at the ceiling while Nicolas set cross-legged on the floor leaned up against the bed next to him. Nicolas's face flushed at the comment, a sense of nervousness sweeping over him. He was always reluctant to invite him over because of his father. "I mean... yes, does that bother you?" Skylar laughed at the response, completely filling the room within seconds. "Of course not," he exclaimed, "I love you being here, I just meant that I never really come to your place!" Relief set in, and Nic let out a shaky laugh. "Sorry, I just didn't want my family to, uh, scare you away" He could feel the air shift slightly in the room and he quickly interjected, "my sisters would probably terrorize you". Sky cracked a small smile and then they both shared a laugh.
x x x x xAge Fifteen
"What is this?" His father yelled, Nic flinching as his hand came down on the table hard rattling the glasses. "It's just one grade Dad, I already asked Mrs. - " "No! Keep this up and they'll throw you off the track team. You've been spending too much time with that neighbor boy. In fact, you're not leaving this home until you get these grades up" Nicolas scoffed lowering his head, "like you give a shit anyway" he mumbled under his breath. "What did you just say to me?" Nicolas's face practically turned red with rage as he stood up from his seat his voice raised, "like you give a shit any-" His father's fist connected with his jaw and Nicolas instantly crumpled to the ground holding his face in his hands, he could already feel the hot tears beginning to form. His father just made a small noise of disappointment before leaving him in the kitchen to cry until his mother found him when she got home that evening. He stayed home the rest of the week.
x x x x xAge Seventeen
Nicolas slammed his fist into the steering wheel, the loud honk drowning out his own thoughts. He hated himself for what he was doing, but he was scared. He couldn't go to anyone, he was alone. He could see it on Sky's face every time he saw him, the pain that he was causing. Nic knew what he was doing was hurting him but he was too afraid to stop distancing himself, afraid to get close, afraid to confess, afraid to love him, afraid to lose him. Now he could taste the salty tears running down his face, it was too much, why did everything have to be so damn complicated. He didn't want to hurt Sky, but he was losing him, the thought settled burying itself into his head. I am losing him.
x x x x xAge Nineteen
A bright light. Why wasn't I watching the road?. Pain. Sharp, blinding pain. He couldn't move, He couldn't breath, He smelled and tasted the blood on his tongue. It felt as if he was being held under water, drowning, only bubbles escaping his throat. After a while Nicolas felt himself become numb, he could no longer feel the pain, or anything. Someone was yelling his name. Skylar. He got out, he's okay, Nic was relived. Perhaps it was the idea that Skylar was safe that finally allowed Nicolas to let go. He felt a small tear cascade down his cheek as he took his last shaky breath in. Then the world went black.
