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Until It's Gone - Linkin Park
Name:
Lauren Marie Sanchez
Age:
Lauren is 17 years old.
Gender:
Female
Height:
Lauren is 5'6.
Appearance:
The pictures are who Lauren used to be. Before she was taken. Before her world spiralled into her own personal Hell. Her hair, although black, is tangled, and although sometimes she does brush it, it would be dangerous to leave her alone with a comb. It's now longer than it was in the pictures, reaching to her waist instead of her mid back, and is black and curly at the ends. She has a sickly pallor to her skin, much paler than it used to be. Instead of being a creamy porcelain, it now mirrors a snowy colour... Except much less healthy. There is next to no colour in her skin now, apart from the slight pink of her lips. She's also extremely thin, too, although she is healthy enough to be considered a healthy weight, she has next to no muscle and is just skin and bone.
Lauren's eyes are a grey colour....Although they once were a grey with a warm smile behind them, a glint of happiness, now they are just glassy and dead. No emotion pour through those eyes, except fear. Fear is perhaps the only thing Lauren knows now. There are small cuts and bruises on Lauren's face, where she's attempted to escape, and also deep scratch marks behind her ears and on her cheeks. Her fingernails are long, and dried blood is always on the undersides of her nails. She also has deep cuts up and down her forearms, and her fingers are also covered in cuts, from where she's attempted to claw her way out of the basement in desperation.
Lauren's style was flowy tops and leggings, dresses, hats, and converse. Now, she doesn't care what she wears. As long as it's decent.
Personality:
Lauren was a wonderfully friendly person, who seemed to help anyone who she could help. She would volunteer for charities, help people with homework, give money to the homeless. She was chatty, and respectful to everyone around her, always smiling, or laughing. She was described as wonderful, perfect. She had a secret though. She had been diagnosed with AIWS (Alice In Wonderland Syndrome), except then, it was a beautiful place for hallicinations. In fact, she felt that it made her more friendly, as a few residents in her Wonderland weren't so, and she hated that. She became a person who hated the sadness.
She was perhaps her happiest when she met her boyfriend. Her happiness was almost contagious, she would burst out in the middle of class laughing, or with the biggest grin on her lips. That was when she was captured.
Because of the time in the basement as a doll, Lauren's AIWS has twisted into a horrible nightmare. She turned into a quiet thing, that just stares at nothing, often speaking gibberish, or things that make no sense, but is still English. She's often locked away in her room in these attacks, and screams in her sleep, or in the hallucinations. She now has panic attacks frequently, and her fingernails often dig into the palms of her hands or arms, or are almost 'tearing' at her ears, as if she can hear something nobody else can. She calls these 'The Voices'. She often writes all over the walls, these can be from poems to the same words repeated over and over again. Occasionally, her old personality can be pulled out of the back of her mind. Typically, just after she's woken up, Lauren seems to be her old self. It worsens during the day, and night is typically the time when she hallucinates and hurts herself. When she's her old self, she's supportive and helpful. When she's not... You can try to stand in her way... But you won't get far.
Likes:
- Her past Wonderland
- Her boyfriend
- Helping out others
- The Sun
- Being outside
Dislikes:
- Being locked up
- Her new Wonderland
- 'The Voices'
- The Collector
- The Basement
- Nighttime
Fears:
- 'The Voices'
- Her new Wonderland
- The Collector
- Never seeing her family, friends, or partner again.
Basic History:
Lauren was born to Phillip and Maria Sanchez. She has an older brother, Sebastien, and two younger sisters, Elisabeth and Aurelie. She got up to plenty of tricks with them. She was 5 when her AIWS became apparent. She was always asking her brother, Sebastien, and her twin sisters if they could see the 'Olerom' or the 'Unicorn' up ahead. She always got upset when they replied with a 'no', shrieking that they were real and in terrible crying fits. Her parents decided to see a psychiatrist after she almost attacked her sister Elisabeth after 'The Voices told her to'. She was put on medication and her hallucinations became a thing of peace, and happiness.
School life was happy. Lauren enjoyed making her friends happy, introducing them to her Imaginary World, so they put. She loved playing games with them, describing everything she saw, and they enjoyed playing. As she grew older, though, Lauren grew to surpress her hallucinations, and focus on her school work. She changed from the carefree young girl to a mature, hard working woman. She worked hard, got good grades, even fell in love. His name was Ben, and eventually, after a few months, they got together. She got awarded a scholarship to Cambridge University, abroad, for her Biology work and research. Her life seemed perfect.
Then she was taken.
At first, Lauren was quite normal. As she was the second one there, she tried to escape, several times. Desperation kicked in as her hallucinations became more frequent, more twisted. They became frightening, and Lauren is often reminded of her childhood in these times. As the medication became lacking, Lauren's hallucinations got worse. Eventually, she stopped trying to escape. She sat in the dark, praying for an escape, watching in silence of the ones that came and tried relentlessly to escape, like her. Her sanity spiralled downwards. Eventually, the screaming in her sleep started, and it progressed so that it became so bad that Lauren began clawing at her ears to make 'The Voices' stop, to escape her body. She even tried to dig a hole through the wall once, as to escape. It failed. As the days passed, Lauren stopped fighting. She lay in her bed, walks around occasionally, and waits for the time she'll see sunlight again.
Other:
Lauren has AIWS and schizophrenia and often self harms because of it. She is heterosexual.