||Quin meets the kids||
Quin stands in the silent apartment. Its dark, too dark, they must have shut off the electric. Damn, had she paid the electric? Probably not, she wasnât even sure if she had paid the rent yet. Who needed electric anyways? Shadows of light and dark are all that Quinâs eyes can detect. She sighs in irritation and brushes her hands across the wall searching for a shelf that holds her candles and matches. She fumbles for a moment before she finds the matches.
The candle gives far less illumination than the electrical light bulbs, but it bathes the room in a soft glow that gives Quin a sense of calm she hadnât felt in a long time. In that moment, the flames mesmerize her and she is as still as she would be in a photograph. She imagines touching the flame, and becoming a part of it.
Suddenly there is a cough. Quin whirls around, her hands instinctively reaching for the bat she keeps by the door. She can see the shapes of the minuscule furniture but the colors so muted that they are almost grey.
âWho the fuck are you, and what do you want?â She growls out, her voice steadier than her feelings. She brandishes the bat and searches through the darkness for the intruder.
âAhâŠwaitâŠâ A small voice squeaks from her left. She swings around and is confronted withâŠchildren.
âWho the f u c k are you?â She repeats, still flourishing the bat. The boy steps in front of the girl as if to protect her and Quin raises an eyebrow.
âLeo. My name is Leo PorterâŠ.This is Lilly Porter.â He responds, still shielding his sister. Immediately quin feels a sinking feeling. Porter. Porter as in her whore mother Michelle Porter.
âOkay, why the fuck are you in my place?' Quin repeats though she is sure she knows the answer. Her mother is d e a d. How does she feel about it? She doesnât fucking care. At least thatâs what she tells herself.
âPigs dropped us off, said weâre your problem now.â Leo answers bitterly. Quin laughs, almost hysterically. Kids? She doesnât like people in general, let alone small versions. She has to admit though, she like's Leo's style.
âYeah, no.â She says as she whips out her phone to figure out what the fuck is really going on.
âPleaseâŠdonât send us back.â This is the first time the girl speaks, and it stops Quin in her tracks. It is a broken voice, that of an abused and alone little girl, fighting to hold on to her sanity. Once again Quinâs emotions turn jagged and my insides tight. She struggles with them, and she feels like she drowning. For a moment she is small again crying out for anyone to give a damn, to hold her and help her. To love her. She knows the endless pain of waking up one morning and realize that you are dead, buried and forgotten by those who are engrained to love you, but alive and kicking to strangers, a people who donât give a damn about you. She is familiar with the pain in a way that is traumatic. She swallows down the horrors of her past and slides the phone back into her pocket.
âIâll make you a deal, donât be a pain in my ass and you can stayâ Quin says before putting the bat down and lighting another candle. Damn it, now she has to pay the electric.