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by KamuiGakupo on Sat Jul 10, 2010 12:58 pm
I thought (since this is the case with a lot of people) that maybe you guys would want to know who you're roleplaying with (and no, this does not mean I'm giving out my age, location, etc.). I don't really care if people know this over the internet (or even in real life, except maybe on first impression).
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I am a total freak of a young lady.
I get overly-obsessive with my interests, which isn't always a good thing, because once I have a particular interest in something, I end up thinking about it all the time and relating everything I possibly can with it. *coughcough*VOCALOID*coughcough*.
I also believe that I have a paranoia problem. I have a belief that people could be lying to me all the time, but they're just very good at it, or perhaps I could just be stupid and not notice. Plus, I receive a horrible amount of misinformation a day, which gives me the idea that people all around the world are just passing misinformation/lies amongst each other. I have this weird thought that there are cameras set up in my room and I'm always being watched for a reason I don't know (not that I have anything to hide, but wouldn't you think it would be disturbing to have cameras set up in your house?).
I am very superstitious and have a difficulty separating fiction from reality. If I see even a photo of something frightening, I imagine it to be real and for it to appear in my room at night when I am attempting to sleep. And about sleeping, I have a strong difficulty with that as well. I could plan to go to sleep at 11:00 at night, and not physically fall asleep until 3:00 am, because every night I attempt at sleeping consists of me doing the following:
I sit up in my bed if I hear the smallest unidentified sound or if I feel an unnatural breeze, and I stare at the wall for a while until my eyelids become heavy again. After a while of lying down with my eyes closed, I will hear a sound again, so I'll open my eyes and turn to the direction of where the sound came from and stare in that direction for a long time. My next attempt at sleeping will be interrupted by yet another noise, so I'll stand up from bed and walk over to my door to open it a crack, though later on, I'll stand up again and open it all the way.
I believe there is some sort of spirit or creature living in my attic (my attic is behind my bedroom inside of the roof, and I can get to it just by opening an ordinary door in my room), because I will hear abnormally loud noises coming from there at night that seem much too loud to be caused by the wind, something falling to carpet off of a shelf, or something shifting in a box. It sounds much more like a person walking around in there than anything else (my attic is carpeted, but some floor-boards underneath the carpet are loose, which could create the sound I hear when walked on), and sometimes, I will even hear knocking on wood.
I am terribly mistreated in school for dressing in what people call "goth", "punk", or "emo". I am avoided by many people just because of that, although they will find that I am actually a very kind and interesting person when they truly get to know me, so I wish that they could just ignore the fact that they hate my clothes and that I stand out.
The love of my life is no person (I will most likely be single for the rest of my life with the reputation I have), it is singing. Singing is my absolute favorite thing to do, and I feel so great when I do it. I am always singing throughout everyday (except during the times where it's obvious that I cannot, which would be eating, brushing my teeth, etc.). It's the one thing that makes me the happiest and most confident. If I hear someone that's a much better singer than I am (and it's a fact that a lot of people are), I get horribly jealous, which is one reason why I listen to Vocaloid all the time. It's really not something that I can be jealous of.
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Thank you for reading. I might write more like this in the future.
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