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♥ = romantic || ☺= friends || ☠ = enemies || ◑ = neutral || ☢ = discomfort
Syx
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"Syx is little more than a bothersome, grinning idiot to me. I can hardly stand him, yet no matter how much I make that known, he merely sits there and sneers at me like a scarecrow.This half-wit may have been first, but he is certainly not the best. Even though he follows my Sabine around like a lovestruck mule, I will not let Syx have him if I can help it."
Syx gets under Natalia's skin in a way she has little defense against. No matter how she insults or demeans him, it seems to have no effect. It both frustrates and unsettles her. Further, he seems to almost take an interest in her, as if she is some sort of puzzle. This puts her off even more, and she can hardly stand being in a room with him without someone to distract her. When he starts getting close to Sabine, though, she can hardly help but hate Syx, not that it has any effect. This serves to make her all the more competitive against him, even if he does not seem to care to return the favor.
Thea
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"That little goose? Ha! For all she goes out and wallows in the dirt with her filthy birds, she may as well sleep out there. She may have been here before me, but her timidity knows no bounds. It makes me feel like jumping out of my skin and telling her to grow a spine. Honestly, some people have no sense of self-worth. Whether one as common as she even deserves that is a different question."
Thea is one whom Natalia picks at for no other reason than that she happens to be around. It is very easy to find Thea's insecurities, and Natalia quickly begins to grow bored and ignore her. Though when Natalia first joined the household Thea was her main target, Natalia now has bigger problems to deal with and her feelings of jealousy toward Thea have faded nearly to apathy. At times, though, she almost feels bad for the unassertive girl. Natalia will sometimes try to rile the girl into defending herself, but rarely gets very far with it.
Natalia
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"Of course I deserve to be here. More than anyone else in fact, has that not been made clear? Sabine needs me, I am sure he does.... But why should he keep looking for more. How am I, of all people, not enough for him. He needs me, I am sure of it. He has to need me. I need him to need me....If only we could travel together, as he promised."
Outwardly, Natalia seems all too assertive, confident, dominant, and vain. This is the appearance she so desperately tries to maintain to keep down those nagging feelings of rejection and inadequacy that haunt her constantly. She wants to feel as though she is good enough for Sabine, and thus, she tries to lower the others in the household. By doing this, she feels superior, but only for a time. Whenever she sees Sabine doting on someone else, she once again feels demoted to being that old maid that no one could ever love. She would never be enough for anyone just by herself, with no family fortune to make her worth something. So, she lashes out and demeans others. Honestly, she would much rather run off and travel the world, even if she traveled alone. But Sabine's blood and attentions have so tangled her that she can no longer imagine escape.
Lonan
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"Four is little more than an irritating, unimpressive, ragged boy lurking around in the shadows. He is so full of spite that I can hardly help but feel affronted. Even worse, though he acts like he wants nothing to do with anyone, he still manages to get Sabine all over him. How it irks me to no end. He is like a little witch boy, or an enchanter. Perhaps we should just burn him at the stake and be done with it... He was not even meant to be here. Sabine's only interest in Four was as a tool to spite Four's foolish lord. It is a fact I frequently remind him of, especially when the boy starts getting too high in Sabine's attentions. Those attentions hardly mean anything after all. Four is little more than Sabine's little plaything, only valued for his uses. Oh, how the boy irks me."
The main things that Natalia and Four share are an intense dislike and spite for one another. They get in scraps as often as two unfriendly cats, and, whenever Sabine is not nearby, Natalia cannot stand even being in the same room for long without insulting the unhappy boy. Not only is there something about his reserved, disgruntled personality that so clashes with her own, but Sabine seems to adore him. Though Lonan tries so hard to avoid the demon, this only makes him more desireable to the demon. This definitely puts the boy immediately on her bad side. The affection she craves and strives to earn from Sabine is so freely given to the resentful Four that Natalia becomes more jealous of Lonan than the others, for the most part. Even when Sabine is around, Natalia still remains cold and harsh toward him, which makes it all the more obvious how much she dislikes him. He seems always to rile up her competitive nature without even trying to do so, and she is on edge whenever he is around. Frequently, all the resentment Natalia bears deep in her heart toward Sabine ends up expressed toward Lonan instead.
Kira
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"Ah, our manor's own sickeningly sweet cherub. All that sweetness in one place makes me want to gag, so I can hardly handle being around her too long. You understand, no? The foolish girl is always trying to see things from everyone else's perspectives. Well, I say, if you take on too many perspectives, you just might lose your own. She never listens though. When we sit and embroider together, she often admires my work. At least the silly girl has sense in that regard. Unfortunately, Sabine seems to like her sweetness. If only there were a way to fix that..."
In general, Kira's kind, selfless attitude makes Natalia often feel a bit off balance. Even though she highly dislikes how much Sabine dotes on her, it is hard for Nattia to outright hate the girl. It is not odd to see them sitting together quietly as Natalia embroiders some new project or peruses a book. When Sabine starts pampering Kira, though, Natalia will become more insulting for a time, increasing the uncomfortable air between the two.
Lionel
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"With Lionel... it is hard to say. He is a gentleman, of course. That is the only reason I can stand being around him. His riding is excellent, and his sense of dignity is so strong, it is almost laughable. Still, he is so distant and formal it makes me feel tense. I suppose it cannot be helped. A man will be a man, after all. A little distance may even be wise."
Natalia's relationship with Lionel is somewhat complicated on her side. He is one of the few in the house that Nattia does not despise, along with Kira. His dignity and nobility attracted Natalia to him after a short time of angrily avoiding him when he first came. His formality makes her feel oddly at ease as she had not felt since she was a child. They found common ground in horsemanship that allowed them to share an activity together. Still, there is a definite level of discomfort that resides between them. Natalia's obsessive love for Sabine often stymies her companionship with Lionel. Further, though she is hardly as harsh with him as with the other 'pets,' she cannot turn of the habit completely and this can lead to her saying things she does not intend. Even more, her attitude and actions against the other 'pets' stirs up underlying currents that blacken the companionship with Lionel. She knows he has noticed her actions around the mansion, but he hardly sees the depths of the harshness. This creates a distance between them that possibly will never be closed. Due to this, Natalia does not truly know how she feels about Lionel, and perhaps never will.
Hope
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"Hope, ch. If anyone was misnamed, it was she. That miserable little trollop belongs in an asylum, not among society. She is unspeakably vile and manipulative. Still, she seems to find joy in doing mundane, nasty, hard labor. I suppose there always will be a definite distinction between servants and the Nobles they are destined to be beneath. If this little commoner thinks she can control me, she has another thing coming to her. If she were wise, she would mark my words and watch her back. I may not remain so patient with her in the future."
If there were anyone in the manor that Natalia would call her rival, it would be Hope. The very sight of her face is often enough to fill Natalia with a cold loathing. They seem constantly to be trying to get the edge on each other, and the insults Natalia exchanges with Hope are of the most scathing variety. Natalia has, over time, become scornfully aware of Hope's manipulative behavior. It can set her off balance, since she is more used to being on the offensive than on the defensive. It makes her all too uncomfortable to have such familiar tactics used against her. Hope often competes with her for Sabine's affections. Natalia rises to the challenge eagerly and at every point, but her knowledge that Hope does not love Sabine but merely uses him makes the fight even more bitter. Though Hope often succeeds in getting a rise out of Natalia, she works hard to return the favor.
Aedan
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"Ah, Aedan. The newest miserable addition to the house. He acts like a lost child at times, an amusing picture indeed. I would not complain if he did become lost in reality, his presence here is far too redundant. Still, he has a certain hiddenness that both intrigues and concerns me. He is hardly worth investigating, but I will be certain to keep Sabine from the tail-wagging boot-licker whenever possible."
Aedan is another ‘Pet’ who easily stirs up Natalia’s intense jealousy. She had wished that Hope would be the last one that Sabine would drag home, so she was even more stirred up when Aedan came around. This was especially exacerbated by how he seemed favorable toward Sabine’s intentions. Over the years, Natalia has been gradually calming and adapting to his presence. She mostly ignores him entirely, until he starts getting too close to Sabine for her comfort. When that happens, the insults and underhanded snubbing begin afresh.
Sabine
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"My dear Sabine. Make no mistake, he is mine. He tells me so with every heart-felt compliment and well-thought-out gift. I can hardly bear parting with him. He sets a thrill into my bones with every glance. I can hardly think straight in his presence.... Deep down, I do wonder if that is for the best. Still, it matters little. I chose to bind my fate to his on the day he chose me. I only wish to be of use to him, and to remind him that he is mine as much as I am his."
Natalia has loved Sabine dearly, ever since he asked her to come away with him. Or, at the very least, she loved his attentions and the possibility he presented to escape her life. That strong tie to him has definitely warped her personality toward fierce jealousy for his attention. She does realize that her infatuation with him has harmed her in some ways, and that it is unlikely she will ever have his total attentions. Still, every time he compliments her, gives her a gift, or interacts with her, she is pulled right back into those same, deep-seated affections toward the demon. She both loves him, and deep down, resents him.