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Esme Locke
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โ Claude Monet
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N A M E
- Esmeralda Lily Locke
N I C K N A M E ( S )
- Esme {preferred}
Essy {called by friends}
R O L E
- Junior ; Room 202
G E N D E R
- Female
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- Seventeen
S E X U A L I T Y
- Heterosexual
M A R I T A L S T A T U S
- Single
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APPEARANCE
โWe don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.โ
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H A I R
- Esme has very long, dark brunnette hair that is naturally softly curled.
E Y E S
- Deep chocolate brown.
H E I G H T
- Esme is very petite, reaching only 5 ft. 1 in.
W E I G H T
- 110 lbs.
E T H N I C I T Y
- Her father is American, while her mother has Filipino and Spanish heritage.
O T H E R
- On Esme's back on her left shoulder blade, she has the roman numerals 'VIII . VII' tattooed in memoriam for her sister.
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Personal
"The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence."
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- Esme has always been a very lively girl, who is clearly of extroverted nature. She just seems to radiate life, love and positivity โ at least, she tries too. She cares with all her heart about those in her life, and even cares a whole lot about those she might not even know. She wants everyone to be happy in their own way, and will help anyone who is willing to take it. She tries her hardest not to be pushy, so she has become very observant to people's emotions so she wonโt ever overstep any boundaries, though, at times itโs hard. She knows first-hand what itโs like to bottle in emotions, therefore, sheโs there for anyone by letting them vent to her or confronting them when they need it. She still doesnโt deal well with her own bottled emotions, however. She's kind and sweet to everyone she meets and treats anyone who will let her like they are a very dear friend.
Sheโs a free-spirit through and through. She is impulsive, often acting on first instincts rather than thinking things through. This leads her to be rather rebellious at times, but itโs more a rebelliousness in the spirit of โIโll do this because it looks like fun,โ rather then in the spirit of โIโm full of teen angst and fuck the patriarchy.โ She is also very artistic. Her hands, face, or clothes always seem to have either dried paint or clay on them. Esme is a scattered person, doing about five things at once, unable to sit still for too long. The only time she is really focused is when sheโs busy doing her art things. Itโs almost like a 180-degree turn, and one that seems pretty unusual. She will completely zone out, and someone could be jumping up and down behind her or blasting annoying music and she may not even know.
But, behind this loving exterior, Esme has a few emotional faults. Her parents never paid much attention to her growing up, so she never had too much of an authoritative figure in her life. It has led to her hard-headed independence. She finds herself not knowing how to rely on others for help, and almost getโs frightened by it. Though at a time, she did have a group of four friends, that included her sister, who she trusted with all her heart. But since the accident, she fears losing people so making real connections is even harder. She dealt a long while with severe depression that has only now finally gotten better with medication, but sheโs never fully come to terms with the truth of her sisterโs death. She hasnโt had any sort of closure.
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Details
"Wisdom is where the brain meets the heart."
โ Brian McGreevy, Hemlock Grove
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- โฆArt - Anything from painting, to sketching, to sculpting, and even photography. She's extremely good.
โงBlack and White movies - She must have seen the movie "Laura" at least twenty times.
โฆClaude Monet - Esme loves impressionism, so it's no wonder her favourite artist was the father of French impressionism.
โงUrban Exploration - Esme loves exploring old abandoned building or areas, taking pictures and sketching things whenever she can.
โฆSinging - You'll catch her singing along to any song. She's not bad.
โงThe Stars - Nigh time is always her favourite time, and the stars always fascinated her.
โฆStrawberries - Anything strawberry flavoured, scented, or even patterned, she must have.
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- โฆHospitals - After spending a good few months in the hospital, along with with six months rehabilitation, you grow to hate them.
โงVehicles - Ever since the crash, she's always been a little hesitant to get into any car.
โฆEmotional Confrontations - She tries to suppress bad emotions, when people confront her on things, she get's pretty defensive and erratic.
โงBlood - She saw too much blood in the crash that she has flashbacks to the scene if she see's even a drop of blood. She'll have a panic attack.
โฆHer medication - She doesn't like the fact she has to take depression pills and, at times, anxiety medication. She finds she's not as mentally there as she likes to be. They make her a little forgetful and day-dreamy.
โงJames Franco - Her least favourite actor. She refuses to watch any movie with him in it.
โฆCoffee - She prefers tea - coffee is way too bitter for her.
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S T R E N G T H S
- โฆCreative - She's the person to go to if you need out of the box thinking; there's no such thing as impossible for her.
โงAdventurous - She has no reservations for nearly anything. She loves to explore and travel.
โฆAltruistic - Everyone else's needs come easily before her own.
โงWriting and Film - Esme never really tells people, but she loves to write, more specifically screenwriting and playwriting. She's always been so interested in film.
โฆStrong - Esme is a health nut. Sort of. She tries to eat healthy but she needs her Franken Berry in the morning and French pastries. She exercises regularly, and loves cardio boxing.
F L A W S
- โฆEmotionally Suppressive - She doesn't come to terms with her emotions very well when she wants to avoid them.
โงClumsy - Stairs are her mortal enemy.
โฆScattered - Her thoughts are a thousand different places at once.
โงMental Health - She struggles with anxiety and depression, but it doesn't show so much anymore.
โฆTechnology - She's oddly fine with cameras, but any technology more complicated then her basic flip phone will take her forever to learn. Computers are sketchy territory.
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- โฆNever Without A Camera - Anything she wants to take memory of, she'll take a picture of it. She will never be without her camera.
โงFully Focused When Doing Art - Esme always has about 100 things running in her mind at a time, but she's only ever fully focused when she's doing art. It's like she ignores the rest of the world.
โฆPaces when Nervous - When she's nervous, she has to keep moving, be it pacing, twirling, twiddling her thumbs, etc.
โงAffectionate - Esme has always been one to hug, kiss her friends on the cheeks, be touchy, etc. Though, she does know her boundaries if people are uncomfortable with it.
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History
"Mostly it is loss which teaches us about the worth of things."
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- Mother || Rowena Locke || Alive
Father || Jack Locke || Alive
(Younger) Sister || Eva Locke || Deceased
Esme always felt like she was drowning in the suburb of Scarsdale, NY.
To the naked eye, the Locke family was as perfect as could be. They were wealthy โ very wealthy. Esmeโs father worked in New York City as the vice president of a large business chain and her mother was a house wife who volunteered in the whole community. They had two healthy, happy children. Behind the scenes, however, they lived much like the other rich families in the perfect suburbs. Esmeโs mother and father were never around, and Esme and her year younger sister Eva were raised by a string of nannies. Her father spent most nights in his apartment in the city, claiming he worked late though it was pretty clear he was having multiple affairs. Her mother might have been as well, but she was at least more discrete. In the summers, Esme and Eva would be sent away to Barcelona, Spain to visit her motherโs parents. Esme always loved this, as her grandparents were the most loving and caring people. She also loved Spain, and easily picked up the Spanish language. The only terrible thing about the summer was being separated from what she liked to call her โsecond, but true family.โ
This second family of hers included four people she grew up with ever since she was a toddler, and they were the only ones Esme trusted and could depend upon. The four friends included her sister, Ben, Calla, and Jasper. They would do everything together, and it seemed like the couldnโt survive without each other.
That survival idea was unfortunately tested when three of the five friends died. When Esme was fifteen, her and her friends were coming home from the city after going to the beach. It was late and dark, and just outside the town, someone in a large truck drove through a red light, as they were drunk, and struck their car in the side. The car rolled off the intersection into a ditch and flipped over. It was messy and bloody, and Esme only remembers fading in and out briefly, looking at the carnage. She swore she smelt death in the air.
When she woke up in the hospital, nearly her whole body was broken and bruised and cut. Her parents told her that her sister had died, along with Calla and Ben. It took a few months for her to heal, and it took even longer to be rehabilitated and go through extreme counselling. She hadnโt even been able to get out of the hospital to go to her sisterโs funeral. Esme still takes depression medication, and anxiety when she needs it. She canโt even see blood without seeing flashbacks and having panic attacks, and has a hard time getting into any vehicle. For awhile she was extremely self-destructive of herself due to the severe depression.
When she was finally better enough, her parents could barely even look at her. They sent her to a boarding school in France so they didnโt have to deal with her. She seeโs it that when they lost Eva, they had to lose Esme as well. Sheโs pretty sure they are divorced now, but would have no way of knowing. Sheโs only ever in contact with them when they send her money, and only hears new information about them through her grandparents.
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Theme Song
"Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life."
โ Pablo Picasso
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And see the town tonight
There's nothing to do but I don't mind when I'm with you
This time's so strange
They built it to change
And while we're sleeping all the streets, they rearrange.
And my old friends, we were so different then
Before your war against the suburbs began
Before it began
And now the music divides
Us into tribes
You grew your hair so I grew mine
You said the past won't rest
Until we jump the fence
And leave it behind
And my old friends, I can remember when
You cut your hair
I never saw you again
Now the cities we live in
Could be distant stars
And I search for you
In every passing car
The night's so warm
Yeah, the night's so warm
I've been living in the shadows of your song
Living in the shadows of your song
In the suburbs I,
I learned to drive
And you told me we would never survive
So grab your mother's keys we leave tonight
But you started a war
That you can't win
They keep erasing all the streets we grew up in
Now the music divides
Us into tribes
You choose your side and I'll choose my side
All my old friends, they don't know me now
Oh-oh
All my old friends, are staring through me now
Oh-oh
All my old friends, they don't know me now
All my old friends, they don't know me now
All my old friends wait
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