"There is no light brighter than the one at the end of the tunnel, retinas burning from the intensity. Heavy heads sag shoulders to the earth below, heavier and heavier all the while the light feels further and further, swamped in the spilled ink of a death certificate. If you are lucky, the light will prevail to the end. It will bathe you in a warmth never ending, invading every inch of your body in a single euphoric moment. Unalike the others, the desolate despairing who fall to their knees in mock prayer to disbelief. Who are asphyxiated by the darkness that surrounds, lit with a cold fire that burns too deeply, too cold. No relief from the steady thudding of loose dirt against wood."
If I Had A Heart Where Is My Mind
Preferred Name || Sam
Sexuality || Anything Fun
Age || Who the hell knows anymore?
Height || 6ft 2in
Weight || 172 lbs
Eyes || Light Brown
Hair || Black
Build || Fit
Species || Demonic Reaper
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For the most part he isn't all that bad, a bit nihilistic and definitely selfish but he doesn't go out of his way to act in rage or be aggressive. His anger is more of a slow burning thing, building and building, but he never lets it cap off entirely. Generally his sarcasm outweighs his aggression. A minor thing, and yet for all of his snark he does have some bite. He may not be the ones to start the fights but he is the one who ends them. Though every once in a while he finds it amusing to let some mortal idiot think they'll be able to get one over on him. Most of the time he's a sarcastic shit that doesn't have a clue what boundaries mean. Lines in the sand are meant to be crossed, and rules are just things people make up to feel superior. He does his part to maintain secrecy but he won't go out of his way to follow the leader. A trendsetter if you will, leading on his own terms. He doesn't follow, but he will stand beside as an equal.
Sams overall traits point to an almost narcissistic way of being. Self-seeking, self-attentive, and hell, maybe he likes looking at his body in the mirror a little too much but who doesn't have a bit of vanity in them? While he is almost entirely self centered there are small, itty bitty parts of him that yearns for others, for close connections and friendship. Maybe its the self imposed isolation talking, but he seems to gravitate towards busy streets or areas most likely to put him in contact. And while he maintains a demeanor of casual annoyance there is no doubt that he actually has some small enjoyment when it comes to social happenings.
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When he was still working for Lucifer the dead were coming in droves. Sam decided early on that he wasn't exactly a team player when it came to others of his kind, and yet working apart from them worsened the workload. And eventually his isolation led him to drift, to wander the human plane of existence. And he took part in every form of debauchery and sin he could in those early days. Quickly finding that he quite enjoyed the human way of life, as dirty and squandered as it was during those times. When the war came about? All the better for him. He could slip under the radar undetected, apart from either side of the equation.
But he knew eventually that he would have to pick sides, and while he chose his fate he found that he preferred the world as it was, before the angels fell and all these wards began to rip up the world. He doesn't want to see it end in a fiery blaze - he enjoys too much of it for that.