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In a violent moment during the nightmare she was envisioning, the girl was startled to wakefulness, clinging to her pillow with the sheets tangled tightly about her ankles. Gasping for breath, she shoved herself to a knelt position, her hair hanging in loose, damp tendrils around her face.
"Oh god," she gasped, pressing her hands to her face before collapsing to one hip. "I, oh..." Her gasps turned to dry sobs, eyes squeezed shut as she simply allowed herself to roll back onto her side on the mattress, burying her cheek against the pillow as she drew her knees tighter to her chest.
Her abdomen hurt, a sharp, aching pain that never really went away with time. She moved one hand to guard the faux injury out of habit, staring through her fingers towards the window, and the dull glow of the streetlamps outside.
"Gab...riella. What's wrong? Are you okay? Are you hurt?" His eyes were wide, glancing around the room with quick, jerky movements.
"I can't get it out of my head, Memphis," she gasped. "I don't even know what I'm supposed to be frightened of! I can't even remember it!"
She was so terrified of the darkness of her own mind, the emptiness, the fact that the only familiar thing was the man standing at the foot of the bed, a man who wasn't even a man, but something more than that. With trembling fingers, she pulled her hands away, shifting to look at him with wide eyes.
God she wished she could remember.
"I, I'm sorry," she half-whispered.
"I'm... here. I wish I could... tell me what you see. When you -when you dream." He was stuttering and stammering, but he just couldn't get used to the idea that she was here, and she was alive.
"I, it's just...it's black, everywhere. I feel like I'm running in place, and I know there's something behind me, chasing me, but I can't see it or hear it or anything. But I hear other people screaming. I can feel something clawing at my ankles, and..." she hesitated, her voice growing thick.
"And there's so much pain, and there isn't any hope that I'll find what I'm looking for, and I just..." She took a shuddering breath, her tears staining his shirt as she held on to him. This felt better. She was safe here.
He nodded at her words. "You've experienced something that most people can't even cope with. The human brain cannot cope with such depth of emotion, and as a result, it shuts down and blocks off the experience."
He leaned back, his face tilted toward her "You've seen death, Gabriella. Death and darkness and light, all at the same time. You were Judged, and you were found to not be needed in the heavens just yet. I'm so glad you weren't."
She had evaded it. This concept, above all others, sent her mind on a crash-course of questions that needed answering, where none was forthcoming. She had physically died, her spirit having left her body, and when she came back to life, she'd lost all memories of the life before. She had no inkling of familiarity with anyone she met, only the slight tug on her heart every time she looked into Memphis' eyes.
It was something her body, her mind responded to. No one could comfort her like he could, and in spite of the fact that it drove her mad with questions of 'why', she would take it. Something was better than nothing, and at this point, Gabriella had a whole lot of nothing to look forward to.
Her breathing slowed, grip loosening as her panic ebbed. She didn't move away from him though. She couldn't bare the thought. "Don't go." she told him, even though exhaustion pulled at her, she forced herself to stay awake. "Don't leave me."
Memphis wasn't a leader, or a general, and his stitching was too messy and chaotic to be a surgeon. But still, he channelled this energy, made the woman he loved - loves - not only hear what he was saying, but feel it.
"I'm not going anywhere." He said, in the darkness. He shifted her backwards, lying down on the bed beside her, maneuvering her so that she was curled into her body. "Never."
It was all going to be okay.
She melded to his chest, eyes closed as she relaxed against him, taking deep breaths and sighing each time through her nose. Calm. She felt calm, and she knew that while he was here there would be no nightmares.
"Memphis," she asked, her voice a quiet shift in the calm that had settled in the room, like a ripple on the surface of a glassy lake. "I, God still loves me, right?"
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