"A wise prince ought to adopt such a course that his citizens will always have need of the state and of him, and then he will always find them faithful." Niccolo Machiavelli
How do I love thee let me count the ways.
I love your tongue so laden with silver.
I love your wit as sharp as it is.
I love your soul so brimming with fear.
I love your sins and your facade
That facade of manliness and control that you try and show.I know how you hunger for stability and how you crave the chaos you need to build that stability.You fucking control freak.I know everything about you.You love to have all of the cards in your hand and to utterly dominate the competition.Your hands bleeding and scabbed over from digging at every little flaw the enemy has until you've found it all laid out before you and you can throw them out at your leisure.You need a life of decadence to offset your original and you won't stop until you can get anything you want with the flick of a finger.There's still the matter of that worthless conscience you've managed to pick up and that idiotic chivalry you seem to be hell bent on using at every given opportunity.I know you keep telling yourself that you're doing this not only for your own sake but for the sake of the everyone who has to suffer the lawlessness and chaos in this world,but I just say you have a messiah complex brought on by sever OCD.
A can of mace,half full
A Canon EOS Digital Rebel XT
A microphone inside of a functioning pen
A Hershey's chocolate bar with nuts
A pair of black leather covered notebooks
Born as the youngest in a family of seven boys in a little town in Kansas Alex learned the meaning of privacy fairly early in his life because there was none in his town.Every drink you drank and every crap you took was dutifully recorded by the populace and then discussed at the square.Alex learned from an early age that anything worth knowing was also worth extorting and that extortions weren't illegal if there was nothing but your pride at risk.His actual family didn't pay him much attention and he wrote it off as their blindness at his power.His father in particular didn't treat him with the respect and recognition he thought he deserved.In fact Alex wasn't treated with anything he thought he deserved and he thought he deserved quite a lot.
Being the youngest of his family usually left him without as much love as the others got,and in fact if you simply took a step back to observe his childhood as a series of events it works out to be a string of deluded fantasies spurred on by loneliness and a SEVERE need for order.Of course Alex didn't like any old order,no he wanted order that he himself had crafted to suit his own needs.Once he'd grown of age Alex took a job at the local bar and spent more than his fair share of money coaxing stories from the booze addled lips of his patrons and in fact he found a certain solace in knowing that as long as he kept his actions less damning then the knowledge that he held it would all be alright.
After a few years of college which culminated in dropping out with a sack full of his roommate's drug money and a handful of DUIs.Alex felt himself ready for the world.He wasn't even close,a friend "allowed" him to invest in his budding company,$250,000 dollars went into that company none of it came back.Alex was left penniless and alone BUT he still had his habit of manipulation and secrecy.This habit was what gave him a leg up on the rest of the penniless population.It took him about a year to get back on his feet and though his brush with bankruptcy did leave him more wary of others than normal and he does still offer a bit of his money to the soup kitchen every week Alex is still himself.