"Oh gosh... Who should I listen to, then? I'M SO CONFUSED ON HOW TO PRONOUNCE ':)'" Don't worry, Spark, I feel the same way.
"How I did... I basically bled to death after getting shot a bunch of times. What I thought about death before... I thought it was the worst thing that could happen, especially when you're really young. Back when I was still at home, I kept thinking that everyone would forget about me once I died, especially since I was 'strange.' Or at lease that's what they called me behind my back- oh god why am I ranting about this, I am so sorry!"